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    Saturday, November 25

    Am i alone......in this freaky dark maze of mine?........do i wana be like this?.......wad m i thinking?.......ooouuukk.....why would i treat ppl i like this way?......if i like somebody..... i try to make them smile......but also bicker with them.....y?i also dunoe..... am i a freak?....... y i cnt understand y i m doin this n tat.....BUT i noe y ppl do things..... i dun wana sae i out..... i dun care....i....i.....i......ok.....i dunoe y m i talking like this.......i dunoe...i dunoe.....i dunoe...... i wana shout......y i jus can't understand myself.....?n becoz of that......i treated wad ppl thinks of me seriously n that weights lots in my heart.... opinon bout me when they voice out.....seriously......dun joke bout this things to me ok?i m reli scared.....afraid of ppl judge me......no matter wad i do......wad i dun do.....they still judge me.... now u noe?y i always copy wad ppl does?.....unless someone do with me n i will also do with them.....so dun sae i m daring......dun sae i dun care....dun sae i copycat.....dun sae i do watever...i care ok...of coz i wun show my weakness to anyone..but that doesn't mean no..or it doesn't happen...wad sean sae.....wad mei ting sae......wad clarie sae.....wad chick sae.........wad xianlin sae.....wad calisa sae.....wad yan xiang sae.............n mani more...i care a lot no matter who that person is(including enemies, friends n strangers)of coz ..who i care most always the most that will affect me(her)...sorry bout wad i done wrong or wad makes u all uncomfortable.....but i relli dun understand wad other ppl thinks.... i hang out with my soccer mates all the time...n the rest at home.....all the computers ...fashion...gals boys....mani more......i dun understand.....jus tell me wad u think tat gotta change bout me.....tell me wad i do wrong......dun sae something on my back n judge me.. i was shy...so i only can talk to u all bout my 'real'feelings in the blog, msn or anything....n btw...dun use this sentence as a 'judging'or use this sentense to'tease' me...something like that...Ok?the reason i wanted this to be invisible is that.....i dun wan anyone to noe my weakness.....ok.....u found me.....SMART!!!! LOL....DIAO....LAME


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    Friday, November 24
    today n yesterday......go to sch for tat npcc......dunoe wad......at there sleeping.......wander off in space.....n snoring somemore.....they also dun care......yesterday,at sch,of coz i come first. then zhao hong,zhen yang,genliang........so on n so forthbut total 6 only...haiz.....the 2 NCO dunoe tell us do wad....aiyo....must think of so many things.....for the passing out of Mdm Ng somemore....i mean.....this things we must do if we really wana do.....no by someone commanding us or something,rite? ya we decided on the letters, dancing n stuffs...... the dancing is the high school musical wan....aiyo.....i thought i will never hear that word again... coz sean is sort of like talking bout it.....n all the ppl r fantasing, lending his CDs n stuffs..... n tat was quite sometime ago if i m not wrong......oouukafter we decide hao liao, we go home of coz bt hor.....go there like 2-3 hrs for deciding?they were really slow....but i didn do work anyway.....so i m in no position to sae bad things bout them.
    so today we action la......as usual....i m the first to reach sch...dao there lai tou learn drills frm sec3...jkjk..n lol...not that lame ok....taken some pic by my Hp n ya they all arrived.... we practice the 'dance steps'no offence ok jus that it wasn't quite wad i expect......the gals teaches us moves.....n the gals.....however....only consist of three....teaches guys....7..i tink. yes, i noe.. it is 'difficult' for the gals bt again....however...the guys were sort of like shy than the gals..... the dance was quite ok in the end n nth much to sae liao.....btw....when can buy books liao ar? coz i saw gasperbuying books today=X.....btw...i got hp liao...yes....i finally got one......at the end of yr some more....after the end of sch some more.....the end of yr is when i get the badest result somemore....but somehow got into 3-2=(gasper also shock.....sae my results so lan.....his one gd ar? jus asking...my hp...free to cll me...98513379


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    Wednesday, November 22
    i wana.........
    i wana be in a world full of relaxation n without worries......
    i wana be in a world the ppl dun care bout anything......
    i wana to be in a world that there is no world to start with......
    i wana become a person take can take insults.....
    i wana become a person that will repress his anger.....
    i dun wana fight.....
    i dun wana be special....
    i dun wana be freak......
    i dun wana b a person who everbody hates....
    i dun wana be someone who can be like mad sometimes.....
    i dun wana be anyone.....
    i dun wana be anything......
    i dun wana hav anything.....
    i dun wana steal anymore.....
    i dun wana cheat anymore......
    i dun wana be somebody......
    i wana be nobody.....
    i dun wana hav to kill......
    i dun wana make decision.....
    i dun wana be alone anymore.....
    i dun wana talk anymore.....
    i dun wana be a freak anymore.....
    i dun wana hear anything anymore.....
    i dun wana be myself anymore.....
    i wana die!!!!


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    Monday, November 20
    today fira asked me out to work on my hp thing.......ya i m jus a beginner.....but so is she......when i reach there.....she was like totally tomboy style.....wearing a red T-shirt n blue jeans.....n a cap like any other tomboy the cap was onto the other side.....but quite nice la ...relli2....ok....she held up my Hp n started figering with it......of coz i dunoe wat she is doing so i sliencely watch lorhx......basically, i noe all the things lahz.....quite mani actually .....when she is done fiddling with my phone n asked me wat i dunoe.....she send me some pic bout the wad thingy don care la......then we go shopping....although she hav no money$$$$$$......haiz... i bring $60+ coz always in my wallet dun wan to take out la......den we met yu qi.....yu qi at first only saw her....as i follow quietly behind her.....the shop is mini toons if i m not wrong we go all the way to the corner....i wana take a run.....i covered my face continuously.....while the music freak was enjoying herself.......looking at the'things'which i called lameo.....we walk pass on mirror which will the the last time i m goin to that freakin place......totally freak out..... yu qi discover me...i cnt believe my eyes....i take a step behind to look at the mirror once more n ya i m dead....i cover n close my eyes.....sae'i'm dead' fira sae'huh?' n turn behind .i pray she is not there n turn behind too but....haiz....she there...n the smile of hers.....the expression of hers..... seriously mistaken........ omgomgomgomgomgomgomg........dead liao.....i think she got the wrong idea......don care la.....but i smile sia......cause tat person is like bein fooled..... fira sae 'don get the wrong idea ar' n walk away...... on the way...we saw our handphones.....on the nokia there.... n she damn angry lorhx...my one $300+ n hers $100+. n hor my talks almost made her burst into flames....haha.....she go back liao...i got to borrow books for my brother mother father me.....dunoe la .....n shit la...it rained..... i tried to walk to the block where sean evertime sae there wan....treat as mission......but damn la.....wana cross the road...my silppers silped off my foot i had to got back n wear it......the aunties there all laugh at me until so loud.....they all better off dead la.....don even wana cross the road coz don hav umbrella....den i met that wheel chair freako....n ask me to take him cross the road.....he asked me lehx....how i can sae no?but hor the raining part is more than enough to be an excuse.....n i quickly sae lorhx.... i wana lent him my phone at first but he dunoe his friends number.....should hav take a photo or video tape him..... he damn la i go off liao...politely of coz.....but seeing him so piteful....i ran frm the half way there liao backz.....wad a kind soul m i......no la.....by the time i reach there...he is alreadi gone.....freaky....


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    Sunday, November 19
    I DON’T WANT MY FREEDOM BABE
    I won’t forget YOUR SMILE
    Only air droplets over there WARM & SHINE
    A day that changed into an earring, the thought that I told you
    BABY AIN’T NO DOUBT ABOUT IT
    I’m not regretting it
    Connected to the pieces of my shattered chest
    I brought my cheek closer to you, I turned my back on time
    TAKE ME AS IT BEGAN
    By your side, I’m waiting for something that’ll be blown here from the future
    "To keep on living in each other’s heart,"
    "It’s hard," ONE DAY, mama said that
    I don’t even have a way to pledge eternity
    But I’ll always tell you that you’re my everything
    I’ll keep on engraving the REALity that I encountered
    Into that sky, into this earth
    TAKE ME AS IT BEGAN
    SOMEDAY MY LOVE IS DONE
    Even if my chest feels crushed, I’ll open the door
    Connected to the pieces of my shattered chest
    I brought my cheek closer to you, I turned my back on time
    TAKE ME AS IT BEGAN
    By your side, I’m waiting for something that’ll be blown here from the future
    There’s no reason for living
    With the broken heart I thank your smile I thank your tears
    There’s no reason for dreaming
    Without heart & heart surely
    So we can grow
    Connected to the pieces of my shattered chest


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    Saturday, November 18
    Hirogaru yami no naka Kawashiatta Kakumei no chigiri
    Aishita yue ni mebaeta aku no hana
    Kore kara saki otozureru de arou subete o
    Dare ni mo jamasaseru wake ni wa ikanai kara
    Kajitsu ga tsugeta mirai
    Risei o wasureta machi
    Kuroku yuganda ima o
    Yume, risou ni kaeru
    Doushite? Boku wa kowareta meshia?
    Dare mo ga nozonda "owari" o…
    Hirogaru yami no naka Kawashiatta Kakumei no chigiri
    Aishita yue ni mebaeta aku no hana
    Kore kara saki otozureru de arou subete o
    Dare ni mo jamasaseru wake ni wa ikanai
    Itsuka boku ga misete ageru Hikarikagayaku sora o
    Doushite? Boku wa kowareta meshia?
    Dare mo ga yumemita "rakuen" o…
    Hirogaru yami no naka Kawashiatta Kakumei no chigiri
    Aishita yue ni mebaeta aku no hana
    Kore kara saki otozureru de arou subete o
    Dare ni mo jamasaseru wake ni wa ikanai
    Itsuka boku ga misete ageru Hikarikagayaku sekai o


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    Tuesday, November 14
    i m goin to the beach...... goin to the beach........... duno where n duno when..........all i noe is in this week........i dun wan.......i hate it.........stupid beach.........i hate water activities............waaaa.... worse of all is that...............dun wana talk bout it..........dun wana talk bout it............dun wana talk bout it..............Arrggghhhh


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    borin!!!!!i m goin crazy!!!!
    too bored liao........nobody ask mi out.......i ask out wan dun wan to come out.......i m goin crazy.......keep doin blog........jus create a new one.......is bout shi lian de xing qing.......nothing much till now........waaaa.. i m goin to be bored to death....this is wat led to my death.....not my work or something...... sean..... if u r finding job......can i find wit u.......nothing much frm my job......best of this job is....... i can back out anytime i wan.......except when i m working la of coz........ finding a better job...... or having more experience in jobs......i wan........waaaa.....


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    Saturday, November 11
    Sick n tired
    yesterday morning go to the doc.......first time having rashes......must be that stupid ATC......shouldn't hav gone there .....my morning is wasted......waaaa.....afternoon also duno wat to do veri sian......don wana talk bout it.....don wana talk bout it......don wana talk bout it..........!!!!????today come back c this blog change liao......must giv another shot the understand how the blog this work OMGOSH stupid......must do this n tt.....veri lazy ar......waliao


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    Thursday, November 9
    borin:(.........
    ok today goin out wit yan......he ar.....veri selfish leh......didn help mi to put the form to school.....cause i don wan to go in....so nt wearing uniform.....he go there n try to chage class.....waliao.....3-2or3-3 also cnt go in......so mus go to 3-4.......after tt i go causeway.....ta bu gou peng you first go liao...haiz...i change my all ang pao money duno for bout 5-6 yrs liao haha relli sia.....then change to sing.....can get only $78+ haiz.....then i but the deathnote dunoe which chap jus bought at comics connection......wow...noe the second death note owner liao...but still cnt visualise the thinking of the second death note owner....the second death note owner is a gal.......she uses half of her remaining life in exchanged for the god of death eye.....that enable her to see the names of the person n this remaining life....cool but i like the wings better.....the ryuki wings are so cool! lolx....i jus swamp round causeway n buy ice milo then off home liao......tml start another work.....different......was told that this was to sell ice cream...haiz..... don care anyway.......here makes gd money......can stay out till 12......enjoy nightlife.......cool.......excited for tml......haha....can go out liao.......abit suprise that mum will allow leh....haha nothing liao...take cares everyone....


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    Wednesday, November 8
    Borin......sianz lah......
    today......dunoe y my smaller bro ny need to go to school......kept irritating me......of coz i fight wit him......of coz i win.......of coz he cried........go to my cousins n mei hse kpkp a little while n go back liao......so sian........hope that tommorow will be better......ya n they all showed mi this.....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7x4Kp4ru6jM then they c me don laugh.....they nt happi liao...haha sorry la.....
    Question of the day......when,if a person lik ur love one's'....i repeated....they looked relli much alike....will u go forward i sae hi????(yes/no)survey....pls leave ur answers at my tag.....it will nt be a secret....as u cn c...bt u cn tell mi....in the dark.....


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    Tuesday, November 7
    To see you hurt
    To see you cry
    Makes me weep
    And wanna die
    And if you agree
    To never fight
    It wouldn't matter
    Whos wrong or right
    If a broken heart
    Needs a mend
    I'll be right there
    Till the end
    If your cheeks are wet
    From drops of tears
    Don't worry
    Let go of your fears
    Hand in hand
    Love is sent,
    I am willing to be your friends
    Till the end!!!!
    so....don avoid me ok?


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    Monday, November 6

    CLASS!!!!
    today i go n look at the class lor......hey!i go 3-2 leh soo....suprise......choose that choice for fun wan haha XD .denis, eli ,calisa ,fiona ,loqman ,farhan ,n XL they all go to 3-2 lah! waa....sean n mei ting go 3-3 leh......onli left a little friend there......shouldn't have taken the gamble.......but quite fun actually....haha.....2 frm 2-6 join 3-2 lor one in wai yin lah....frm siling wan.....the other one i dunoe lah.......after tis i go n accompany sean wit his EATING!!!on the mean time i but an ice milo n play wit sean's ipod haiz.....onli enough time to c pic.....sean eat too fast.....aiyo...nvm liao lah......gd luck wit my two pure science....haiz.....cnt no study liao......must work like hell liao......enough relaxation.....no more wishes......someone can find me?......n guide me out of this mess?.......


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    Sunday, November 5
    Pulau Ubin
    yeah......i made out that stupid place alive.......but wit many injuries.....fortunately it is only on where ppl cnt c.....haha. living there is like ok la coz i did not pay much attention to the place.......still. thinking of her.......but one thing i must sae......THE WATER THERE SUX!!!!!!!!the water there is like tasteless la n very strange.......nt like the S'pore wan.....although i still drank bout 4Litres of water.......cnt help it......sort of like tough.
    first day
    i though nothin could be worse than my brother irritating voice......but they prove me wrong.......we go n take a long journey on the bus to the jetty .......on the way there.....the Sec 2 boys all sit at the back feeling veri tried n borin.....the Sec 3 seniors tried to cheer us up.....but i m thinking of something else so don pay attention la.....to the jetty.....we took the 1960s boat to pulau ubin.....(the school's broke) the boat is full of things la......nwe hardly hav any place to sit.....on the boat.....i look at the dark water, feel the vigorous vibration in the engine....n fell asleep.zzzzzzz.......when we reach there.....we ran like hell for bout 30mins4.8km distance between the jetty n the camp site n the road is full of ups n downs......n we hav to camp on top of a hill lor...veri slippery ppl could slide off there it is difficult to pitch a tent on this high level ground n the ladies r easier as they were much lower ground than the boys but as expected....they were much much slower than us i duno la so jus stand there n eye power.....be extra.....eat maggie mee n sleep liao.....sleep also got things to talk......the duty is at night...i had to wake up on 12.45 to travel all round pulau ubin for some lame purpose.....the ppl all cnt sleep talking ,n chit chating while i m trying to sleep.....OMG.....the inspectors came n scold them la...haha....but also bad to me.....he scold jus beside my tent n his voice were much louder than all ppl voice combine together....shit!!!!!there were other schools student n i c chenyi ,alex ,almaleash n some others(forget their name liao)i m wit the same group as chenyi ma so we jus talk lor at the duty......
    Second Day
    OMG......we hav a frog to jump inside our tent to giv us a wakeup call but......however......all my teamates except ME WOKE UP!!!!!!the rest u noe liao la......the frog jump all around.....my teamates jump all around make a din inside....everyone shouted(waliao all boys leh!!!!) the frog jump away......i woke up.....cnt help it....i was having one of the niciest dream in my life.....i dream of........nobody...well if u believe.....i was startled....they were all talking bout frong n gruesome stuffs like frog's shit....duno la....it is bout 5am. i go n check my hands n stuffs....ya relli got sandflies bites waaa....redred one n got a small hole in between.....i gt the worse.....y?.....i didn wake up to pat the sandflies away n they all this ouch that ouch one hiaz.....6am do exercise......after that eat breakfast....too lazy...eat biscuits....then we go n walk....DON BE SHOCK OR STARTLED COZ WE WALK FOR BOUT 4HOURS......bout32.4km....excluding the way back....n the sir zul veri guai lan...always sabo me makes me fed up la haiz.then after lunch is the wat wat....MAZE haha this the interesting part....it is deep underground.....dark till we cnt c our own hands.....a maze.... n infested wit croakoach, snakes ,mouse ,lizards n frogs bout these lah...haha all girls shouted n even hammered the door to get out locked so cnt la....they shouted so loud lor wahahahawawawaahha ok my turn....i was in the second last of the ppl we go through many holes n stuffs n still got water dripping down frm the top...it is so sickening....i felt i jus step on a frog n snake when i took each steps....the enterance was like a hole n the middle of the wall (square shaped) n can be locked......next was the rope thing la no fun the rock climbing is sua...i bring thing shoe...so i sae forget it....they tell me to go i go lor.....three tries finish i sae i cannot duno gt expose or not coz my face is filled wit smiles.....the camp fire was lame lah i must pretend to be the wild boar btw the only WRSS in my group, Ubin survivours is zhao hong.....the act veri lame so don talk liao....when i gt back....find our that the place was being invaded by the ants....the ants had buit a nest there...those knds of big heads ants so we move to the shed to sleep...wow so goodd.....no ants no sandflies no mosqitoes.....hahaha a blessing in disguise......sleep till the next morning ar!
    LAST DAY
    veri slack last day liao wat..nth to sae except for the time when i open the coke i shake soo hard until the coke splash a little out.....i lter open the cap...all splash out...haha...fun n shuang


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    Friday, November 3
    today go ATC liao........still filled wit sadness.........surely get scolded frm first day to last min..........hope everyone missed me.......coz i will miss everyone i noe especially someone u noe liao..........gd bye..........hope this is not the last entry of my blog........hope i can gt out there alive.........hope i m not gonna eat anything i dun wan...........very sad ...........very empty..........hope my feelings for her can be 'weaken' when i go there.........hope i can find another love........hope i can feel confidence once again..........hope i can joke around wit u all again.........three days 'out'door camp........ppl think this is adventure..........i think this is torture ..........go to that island of Ubin..........is jus like in my dream.......no a nightmare........coz everything frm my dream come true this days.........the power of shi lian de ren ....haha......no la i jus got a flash back as if this all hav happen before.........but that was in the last second.........before this things truly happen.........relli.......no kidding man........still don wan to believe myself.........if i don believe even myslf.......i think no one will believe me.......forget wat i sae earlier on........back to the topic on Ah Bin.........reach that place.......surely alreadi bout 6pm........eat dinner.......camp.......prepare things for tommorow......then finish liao ........tommorow i one whole day in that place........i think gt swimming.......although i noe how to.....but can u all pls make it such a way that i no need to take of my clothes.......veri shi bai .......haha.......veri no face.......gt go in TAF once then scared liao......coz noe where i stand liao wat.......the rest all acceptable weight......to overweight.....then back again.......go there maybe bout two days two night .......actually is one day coz the last day is for the returning journey.......haha.....veri gd caculation of mi.....relaxed......i will tell u everything bout the journey when i return........if i return.......n if i rmb.........????????


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    Thursday, November 2
    first time goin out wit such sadness=(
    today i go causeway bought the death note book ALONE.......... ya first time shi lian de guang jie sort of lyk veri empty in side walk all around n went home haha a waste trip but the death note comic is more interesting than the movie lor i go to you tube n watch the ep shows ya really interesting but duno whether the light eyes were red or yellow sometimes shows red leh.......perhaps they jus wan to increase the scariness haha but not so scary la even the shi shen god of death also veri funni such as lyk to eat apples n bore part haha much lyk me now . there's still something i am curious bout .....the god of death dropped two death notes so who got the second death note n y the god of death only need to follow light?......wat bout the other book ?ya go watch death note ep on youtube highly recommended haha=)


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