today go library wif mengting, sean, xianlin, zhenyang n two gals n relli tall boi...
supposed to study but then..just say that we r a bit carried away...n then eating n basket ball...
just say that i dunhav the thing against basket ball liao...
after that got bubble tea, buy chicken meat n go home


just say that i m veri happy today...just say that i saw her today
so many 'just say' today..woots

just say that today's over....
just say i met her....
just say nth happen since i met her

i m back to one loser
one loner again...
i think i cn get out...
but i the end, i still loses to fate...

life hadn't been great lately,
get back my physics paper, everyone there cbcb...
the speech day cnt go to see performance of other CCA...KILL them...i bushuang, n everyone knows that..they know i m veri concern bout the watching part n not the doing part=[i hated them.i cb there..worst=[i hated myself=[
talking wif meiting after speech day..i didn do any wrong steps, as far as i know, i do every step they told me to excute...but i failed to watch
they also see me not happy,i wanna get out!!this place is like a prison,I WAN FREEDOM!!ITS SO NOISY HERE!!!perhaps my xin qing bu hao baz...
i walk alone back home...
running in the moonlight,
wif no one watchin'=]
its so late in the night,
i wonder if she was thinking the same way,
that i'm thinking bout her...
wadeva it is,
i wan her to be happy no matter wad,
all the sufferings i hope i cn take it away
let me suffer n leave her alone..
i dunwan to be a hindrance,
i dunwan her to be laugh at..
i dunwan to be a burden..
i onli hav one simple wish on my 15th b'dae
i wish she will be forever happy
even if without me, or wif someone else...i okay wif it...

today,
meet out wif friends...we chilled...fight...n we hav a hell of a time...
i thought i saw her there...i really saw her there...
it wasn't an illosion, was it?
wadeva,i ran after the illlision
i didn turns out to be anybody else
it just disappeared??
i m walking home alone again...
seeing those people who walk pass meaningless n cold world r we living in??=[

Create your own Friend Test here

now i cn write my feelings!!!not on class blog le...phew..
anyways, going to delete it when shanxian giv me the command...u r the man sir!
but i seems to like it alreadi!maybe an npcc blog??
wahahas, i would like to hav the honour!!!
but the others will beat me to it, i'm sure!!!
doing CME project wor!!so hardworking xDD

today was such fuckin bad!!!
bad things=[:
1.listen to shaiwai talking ass words into my damn damn ears
2.sofian dun lend me his work to copy
3.they all come so slow
4.mdm chong standing beside me on national antherm
5.dunno anything bout maths
6.dunno anything bout geography
7.cnt tell....
8.so alone in recess
9.being scolded by miss siti
10.being scolded by miss sim
11.being scolded n MT lesson
12.late for speech day rehersal
13.mr soong face giv wadeva shit
14.he despise our drills
15.being dragged n grabbed
16.scolded mr razif
17.everyone just stand there n watch
18.they all tell me to be careful, as if i'm a weakling
19.first time writting a statement
20.talk to mrs lee
21.everyone come n ask me, even dunno their names(stress...)
22.say sorry part...
23.dunno wad's wrong although i'm part of the show
24.going home wif misssiti
25.being nagged by father n mother

good things=]:
she is beautiful!!!
i get over...
first time seeing they cared=]

life had sides...choose ur path...

I search
Longing to see your faceI
n my mind it's still so clear
But I know you'll never be here

I wait
Hoping to hear your voice
Your words replay in my head
I have to remind myself that i'm dead

I wonder
Do you know how much it still hurts?
In my heart you will always live on
But it's hard with you gone for so long

I think
Of how everyone else has moved on
They have forgotten you but how?
They don't even think of you now

I cry
Every night I think of you
You were such a big part of me
That part has died and I'm empty

I want
Purely to have you here again
Or even to spend just one more day with you
To change the past so you're here too

And so
I ask
That you think of me standing here, now, today
It's been a two whole years since i passed away
And wherever you go after your life ends
My heart didn't leave and it still won't mend
I want you to know how I still cry
And that I'll still love you even after the day I die

saw her, miss her, crazy bout her, live without her....
A logistic in npcc, small part that i couldn't...
i wanna cry out loud!
its normal...isn't it??

i change some of the format....
ur life is worthles...of coz i type 1...
today veri boring...stay at home..
n computer lag diao xiao...
cnt online...
cnt go msn...
so boring....
go copy A-maths...
then know that so mani homework come out...
i didn do...=.=
copy again!!!YEA!!

last friday,
a gal, silly little girl bian tai de..she say she like me..i know her..but i duneven rmb her name=.= i think she was making a joke,n its not funny at all-.-
Under the clear moonlight,
Under the building of my flat.

A 14yr-old tell me,
she like me.
she's a malay,
she's a cutie.
i dunno she say real or not,
just to wait for her to run away.

on the clear cement,
full of rubbish,litter.
first time i felt
so unsure.

she probably need to hav her eyes cock out
to see what i really am.
to see myself.

i duneven know who the heck
she really is.
i m even unsure about her name.
a joke,that's wad i think it is=.=

the npcc yesterday is much borin..didn do much..but fuyuan say i act cute...got meh??the lashing n stuffs..i pro de..being sabo..u guys r so wuliao..mind bout urself dudes
today hanging out n timezone,sfter the lunch the liang's ma giv us..played the house of the dead.. until the last, i'm dead..suppose to be a two player..ask someone to pair up..he say ok..thanks a lot man..but he die so quick..but hav so much tokan in his pocket..hahas..its fun=]

meiting's birthday today!!!shifu giv her doremon...wahahas..lols..=.=
received some comment n yea..i should differential the difference between my blog n the class blog..but everybody link my name by the class blog T_T
meiting is also wearing that outfit n i was like omg....
didn see the performance...hated them for life...
mdms are all shouting n i dun giv a damn...just my mind concept...wad should i do??

i feel so sad...so sad that i could pain the pain aching

i hate myself
i despise myself
i want to be forgiven
but by whom?

life is nothing but a pack of lies
life is nothing but sorrow
life is full of dreams n ideals that will always remain as wad it is
life has just to end by a word..death

love is nothing but just a feeling
love is nothing but leaves us crying
love is nothing but dependency on other people
love has just to end

friendship is nothing but happiness
friendship is nothing but a belief
friendship is nothing but leaving a chance to be betrayed
friendship WILL end


nothing is forever


i m totally over it > <

that hatred symbol

i had found one thing amiss
i m becoming poorer n my brother had becoming richer
as i dun ever count my money...i dunno they were missing
until that time...when i rmb i got how much money(finally=.=)
during the time when i was unknowing...
my brother say he had found money...
always finding money...
$10,$50 n blablabla
i dunno n i duncare....
now i finally founds out that my money i missing....
i had no proof to say him...
he there like sean act kelian...
veri ling wo du*puke*
that innocent look...
i m going to crush it...
somehow,someway,sometime...
my mother n father are always nagging at him...
this shows nagging wun work...
ARGGHHH!!!!my $200++*sob*sob*

today the training of speechday rehersal was bad...mr sonng siao le..i could see his fury red eyes...bloody eyes...that like too stress lars...but i will always REALXED~~~its me...
the book sean had interest me to read...if sean say the book is good then it should be good...n interesting... apparently till now...the conclusion still stands...summary bout the book since i finished looking at it
characters:
Umbrella:a large organisation..n i mean LARGE...the area it stand is half a countries...doing researches n experiments that leads to an outbreak of a terrible n scary disease, whereby forming the starting point of the complication
S.T.A.R.S:cops who recieved order to overtake the Umbrella
Zombies:some called undead..the outbreak of the disease which had been made the H.I.V.E on the failure n consequences of the failing experiment
how they comebout?
the T-virus hich had made by a cripple to cured the legs of his daughter but the formula is being stolen by the HIVE.which mutated the humans until they are dead n turn to zombies.
weakness against?
speed:since they were zombies..they won't actually move very fast...unless its dog zombies..then its an another story
sound:this things reacted to sound...just at the safe distance..wifout making any sound...thy can't find u
head&neck:broke their neck or shot their heads...n there are gone....
if u r infected by T-virus..but on constand antidote..they would just leave u alone
no brains...just walk like a walking corpse n bit every living human
strengths?
do not feel pain
undead
pass on the virus by biting at another ppl

Demons:also created by HIVE but they were unable to control it...
weakness?
blind
hunt in packs
strength?
move until u could even catch the picture of its tail
killing instantly..using claws to slashed the body to a million pieces
fed on humans
Nemisis:also known as super soldier an at LEAST 9 foot tall dude...
strength
indestructable
his strength
bullet proof

Alice:also known as super warior,infected n bond wif the T-virus
strength
her strength
n agility

the bad man:Cain...
had a terrible childhood that only led to one conclusion..life afterall, was cheap
was in-charge in Umbrella n master of Nemisis

when the race started the race ends...i won again!!!whooo!

the first thing we had..ASSEMBLY!!n the gals got to sit infront of the hall
the onli thing that mr sica did right is this..wahahas..but time is running out..so we wun hav to replay the school song n something..hahas
the chinese test hor...damn difficult..choose qus 1 n 3...writing bout personal experience again...=.= that why all my my compo is personal recount de...hahas
the oral exam hor..mrs ngoh there...i n bryan laughing down 'there'...she see n not bother..coz i didn look at bryan de face n using hand signal to sean...she must hav think i m talking to myself..
curse her on the face of bryan..make him laugh like siao...n the oral hor...omg...its about blogger leh...should hav use the Arena(spelling check)bloggers r becoming more influential...n the opposition won...i should hav said bout journalists..hahas...bad lar..waited for meiting..n yup..took her bag n went off...
npcc..damn slack...a little bit wan faint liao....
the dream veri weird leh..but i should tell u my dream always come true...this are those in my dream shanxian(monk head), shifu, kok yong,huishin, meiting, fiona, iskandar, sufiyan, n pearlyn...those whom i saw....yup...i saw i was singing to the school..then i was like huh?wad i m doing here..n the singing is yishidemeihao if i rmb correctly...i saw meiting there laughing..n XL on the ava room n mingbin too(forgot to add)somewhere la...i was like using my choir sound... n the time passes so faast...i go down to the restaurant n eat...=.=...saw the other ppls there n heard announcement to tell everybody to assemble..it was about the singing some kinda class competetion i think heard frm teacher that i m taking the lead on the votes..saw miss low on thw teachers there too..still got some accident but to me..its a nightmare that i woke up in 3am..
this nightmare is so real...
later..i mean tommorow show u my chinese poems..hahas

dunwana go home..i hate those ppl....
shafiq pls shut the fuck up n mind ur own business
xianlin..i m sorry all right...dun报仇?cn?
william hung..thx for being there....
meiting thank for the concern
sean thank for the trip...
mingbin...thank for the company...
mengting...thanks a lot=.=..for the chinese...i mean it...
asmita..dun talk to u..-_-""lols....
jaslyn..stop beating n ignoring me....
james...talk...
zhenyang...dun be lame....
bryan..thank for everything....
sofian..thank you in my heart..nvr got to say out loud that u r my alarm clock...
those i nvr wrote down here i m sorry..but there's no space(=.=lols...)

我还是爱她.....啊!!?