all the test were difficult...n i m sick till the whole week..its hard but it all work out fine...i woke up early to read up..but i the end still kan bu dong the test is talking bout..there's manui tests that i confirm failed...n mani tests i confirm pass...onli the part on how much i pass...that's the problem..u guys dunno the pain..of doing the paper when having a flu..massive blows of headaches...great amout of coughing....n the pressure the inserted on the test itself...but i got to overcome these difficulties....n stand as one with miiself....got to tell miiself i will win!!!that day.. the class was being guo fen de wuliao that day...n i m still the same old heck care attidue..but still got scold but teacher in class...then asmita go n tell teacher that i was having a fever...haiz... they shouldn't have done that..but wadeva it is i stayed on..just like yesterday..that fuckin teacher dun believe mii thermometer..they tell us to measure n they didn do anything bout it??wad kind of f****r they anyways???well...things r over now..n over is over..i woun actually take them out...hope u wun too. today..rebecca lim's house is quite ok..the child wa quite cute..nth more le..hahas

today..i m relli sick...headache..flu..fever..coughing..ya its true...still thinking bout her..singing..heavenly voice..lols

thursday..
peer tutoring..the qus r so easy..n they were asking mii how to do..how they actually do their homework anywways..well i was actually afraid to turn back at first*of coz la*but wee feng n teacher tell mii to turn back..n they first sentence she say..why don't u say it early..becoz she didn ask mii maz..well..that was a long day..but it ended

friday..
the test..so-so..but that doesn't mean i will pass..mii meaning of soso is border line..the npcc..miss sim dun trust mii was sick..relli sia..omg..i wan go home.. btw..mengting de nan peng you*bf*is the boy she always pick a fight frm..i scared ar..hahas..the boy ar..die die m,ust..haiz..love is blind..hehe

today i feel like everybody kept laughing at mii...n mii jokes..actually..they were not JOKES!!i m totally serious here n they kept on laughing...makes mii wana laugh tooo..u noe..i laugh the whole day..until i discover that fuckin asshole told teacher to mixed mii group wif her...wo yao sha le ta!!!n of coz..i became the peer leader..why leh..because her..a maths was not strong..in order for mii to believe..i told teacher to let mii see her marks..n in the process..i saw a lot of ppl marks..hehe..even tell teacher to let mii see 2 times..the reason is..see not clearly..the most important thing is..i everytime copy other ppl's work..how could u actually tell mii to teach those who i ask for their work to copy? after sch..sean go to cwp eif mii..cnt buy books n wallet..lent sean $$$20..2morrow going to pay mii back or else..saw bernard n chick hui wen there btw...sean buy songs!!!lahz..haiz.. $$is going to fly..i believe i cn fly..hahas
27more days..

humans r selfish creatures that only cared about themselves...
although i know it..i have no choice but to be like them...
in this hateful world...full of fuckin things...
wif nobody around mii side to gudie mii along....
i will just hav to depend on miiself...
n took revenge on this black n white..cold world...
that once stabbed mii heart that is enough for mii heart to be dead...
i m dead now...although i seems ok...
the unfeeling world...i will destroy it...
one day...someday...i will show u...a shining world...
someday..i will show u a shining sky...
using the power of dreams that is within mii reach...
i will washed away the painful scarred heart...
even if it fails...i will just start all over again...
to destroy the memories that left on mii by U!!!!

i m going to create a poem out of this words..that makes the same meaning...give mii some ideas kays??as u know...mii vocab was relli relli lan..giv mii some gd phrases or words..i will be really appreciated for that..thanks...

that friday...
we had normal lesson before recess...first was SS..as usual it was BORIN..n then PE..coz we were late..they all bullshit around there...can they just shut up n tell us to do things.. stop n talk..then push up or sit up again..siao de...
the third was MT..they all(classmates)bullshiting here n there...she higher MT also cn talk..especially that zhenyang...n chai wai..wa kao(no offence ok?)
finally..da thing...i go around n bought the shin chan comic book..its gd!!n i cnt help but looking at her direction...using mii teleporting magic..i appeared behind her..as always..she didn notice..until shan xian guo lai...night crawler still had its weakness(haiz...)basically nth to talk about..until..i dunwana go home...chai wai, sean, meiting..i told u i was going to the MRT actually..i wana be alone again..but ez-link relli no $$laz..i walk around the sch compound..i walk the place i saw her walk b4..i walk the path she took to go back to her home..i took the path to go to sean's bustop..took a bus and went back home....

31daysmore

this saturday..i step on the pool of mud...eewww...but i pretend that i step on nth..until i went back home..quickly open the water tap..today eat huo guo leh...at mei's house...but must follow her to go n buy things...today was ok i think..btw..the food burn mii tongue..ouchh

30 more days...

OBS photos uploaded by Elyn n send 2 mii*thanks a lot*
this is zhen yang's watch....ABUSENROX!!!(is that the correct spellingo_O)relaxed i'm not the traitor....lols..all sunburnt...but still smilez so happily...hahas

today wear full uniform in sch...chao sian de lorhx...stand there doing nothing...like siow likedat... then go to class...everybody tell mii to shang...till then...i noe today is valentines day...i m so stupid!!!yalah..i was a coward..so wad??!!(i emphasize the word 'was')i dunno wad to say to her wad..u all say 'shang shang' tell mii to say 3 words...n she run away...lol..does she relli think i m gonna say that 3 words??after sch...they also say liao..this time she gone home le...n stae in school..dunno 4 wad...maths xl kpkp mii result but nth came out of mdm chong(gd one, mdm chong!)instead...he now onli noe that huishin got 29...coz i tell her...e-amths rep also got his gd points de lor...quite mani got 28 actually...n mii mark is still confidential..shhh...but not 30++ 20++ maybe is 10++or 1++hahas..u all go n think lahz..1 person failed in our class...11 person pass the chinese..i pass!!!yea!!!confidential..hehe...chemistry...almost 1/2 failed...worrying lahz.. geo ...man man cai baz....hahas...2morrow still got test physics n a-maths...wish mii gd luck kays guys??i dun relli study...guess ultimately...i would hav to fail...haiz...the e-maths book lost liao.. maybe i should find again...today also being beaten up by mengting...see mii laughing when she was beating mii...she beat harder...almost 50++punches...10++kiches...(i actually go n count?;I) n tell mii to hold her hand...to practice her arm breaking stroke...hahas...yalah..mii arm break liao..lols..

36more days to go....

see da thing...i wuliao mei shi zhuo..decribe mii by using a word frm the surrounding..like doin a xiao shuo..today veru fan ren larhhs...mii dairy they all see liao..i dun wan keep diary le larhh.mii darkest secret kept in within miiself larhhs...might as well tear up the book...my mum n dad..has always been nagging mii always since i came home...tell mii to sweep'mii' floor..n if not clean sweep again..if mii cooking not gd cook again..think i wad???maid arhh...i mad liao larhh...is that mii job??is that mii floor?is that mii dishes...duncare larhh...i just say i going out larhh..stupid mii..again alone in that building..again..u cn find mii looking at the stars..the moon..why mii vision is going on so quick lately..everything is within mii reach...a pity i cnt rmb the 4D no.lols...actually..if that is true then..it won be long now...nothing is impossible..things inside mii dreams came true le yoxx...
btw..someone tell mii that everytime i spoke up or walk up to her...she will be like sian diao de face lorhhx...so u notice now i didn talk le right(if there's relli a need to..)i dared not to walk up to her...probably becoz i still hav feelings for her...i tried ok..relaxed...i not that crying de ren. chill out...

37 more days to go.....

mud.

i m a mud....

ppl walk over mii whenever they wan...

i will help u in watever way i could...

i won't fight back...normally...

its normally...but dun push urself too far...

so beware of soil erosion...

too much mud might buried u alive....

u can onli either be mii friend or foe...

or else...pretent not to know mii....

i make water dirty..as it passes through mii...

i will change someppl..but won't change myself...

some will still stay in the ground..or even in the water bed....

although some weeds r around mii...

but somepart of mine is still alone...

although i do a part in the ecosystem....

i was being treated as dirt or something that could push around wif...

ppl step on mii...n took mii for granted....

ppl laugh at mii everytime...

i will be a dirt if i m on the floor....

a dirt could nvr be wif a rose that will rightfully be in fine soil...

i onli suit to be the onli thing that's is as useless as mii...

weeds.

rose cnt be put in mud...

they will either change to colour of dirt or...

they will die..

just accept the way i m...

or buzz off just like everyone else

40more days to go

after da 5 day camp...i'm BACKZ!!!in one piece.wahhaa
day 1:
i get to sch..met up wif them as always..n took da bus..to somewhere around changi.. mii heart was like deep wif thoughts..i can't help but to look at her..this will be maybe da last time..or even the last excuse..i got to see..or even talk to her.. i played the sand..took the last boat..but reached there second last*....*coz i was taking the faster boat..i get there..n found out that the eacher say:"r u the famous wilson armstrong?"theni just nod n shake for a while..act duh le..n get to the seat..saw sean..at dunno wad group..mii group..consist of MIIweefengAHLIANGjunxiangKELVINhilaryJASMINEpearlynEYLNmengtingSHANQIANelizabeth HUISHINxinyiWAIYIN..yeah..consist of only 3-1n3-2 n its called'armstrong' 'weewhee!' the instructor..alex!!!!everything was cool then..i become the day IC..n make up some jokes that i usually will..lols.anyways..the ALEX hor..teach us how to be the belayer..oh..i was a fine belayer(stop bullshitting)n played some lame games..everything was same like npcc camp..although npcc camp is much more tougher i think..but dunhav water activities!!yeah..the instructor teach us knots..that i had alreadi learned..but still acting duh there..(actually i was beaten up by mengting although not pain..but bu shuang liao)then he left us to cook n pitch tent..n yea!i had again being scolded..haiz..chief IC leh..*being scolded by them although i started it first..lols* a bad night sleep..keep waking up..
day 2:
pack the bags..get ready to go for camp 2..they were slowpokes..n they called mii strong?the camp 2..like resorts..too bad i had to sleep outside or else..the corridor i also dun mind lahz..get the food frm them..no need cook..yeah!!no need eat burnt rice liao..hahaz
the rockclimbing..aimed for the bottom..but oo bed cnt reach..onli reach 3/4..mengting jus on top of mii..lalalas..tried to climb the harder ones..sorry to let everyone down..i dun show i m scared doesn't mean i'm not afraid hor..i shaking liao leh..
the kayaking..its fine..go wif weefeng first..just turning..capsizin hor..i think wif mengting who is as duh as mii..n even ask mii how to do..i told her..told u i was acting maz..m i wrong?haiz..memory like old man lahz..anyways..mii PE T-shirt..drifted away..bye bye..
day 3:
time to pack up again..sianz..got out at 9am..n mengting hor..choose ding wo le..i cnt escpe her clutches started out at quite fun..she was a workable person too! heng ar not huishin..that weefeng hor..die die must use her..n HEis the onli one paddling..poor him..zhenyang leh..paddle by himself..uses one kayak..in the end..i was singing n singing..mengting sing too u noe!?the huan zu ke ke de song..i sing first..then she follows..hahaz..it was fun..but slowly..she began to slack..no worries..i cn take both kayak a da same time..n yes!i surpass many kayaks..by onli mii paddling..singing at the same time(sean say the trees r gonna fall..ahiz..that critize mii singing..so bad ar)in the end..i n mengting call ourself the kings of kayaking'hua chuan zhi wang'n yes..u go all the way to the back n speed up to the front..coz i got her grasp of speed..the power of teamwork..you mei you?eating time! throw food in the sea..n tell us to pass motion in the sea..i won't..dunworry.. slack until..after 7hours i think..i began not to hear her voice so clearly..everything was blurish..n she was mad..way mad..imagine at the sean for so many hours..n we dun hav energy..so just to paddle slowly..si ah liang n elizabeth.. say i n mengting quarreling so cute you mei?anyways..we get to the shore!!!n hor..i n 'she' had pity 1 conversation but gd ebough for mii alreadi lahz..kayak to somewhere i dunno lorhx..filled wif dangers in the seas..pitch our tent in the dark but sleep well tonight..told that the tent fall 4 times..n i didn wake up!!!how PRO was that!
day 4:
we go land expetition heard bout their wishes..n aspiration..mine was to become somebody that study astromy(sry forgot how to spell le..but u get the idea right?)n off we go..carrying the large bag..n i feel pain in mii legs..on the way..heard mengting talking bout living alone in singapore..n going to canada?i forgot liao le..n Elyn told mii i was funni..was i?weefeng go all the way to the front..should hav waited for genliang ma..the navigator..n almost all of us got dunburnt leh..i dunhav=P anyways..we reached there..played the same game which i play before..instructor is so all the same lalalas..do the raft..haiz..ppl say mii act duh le..mii plan is ruin..hahas..but didn finish larhh..coz i kept making lame jokes there..after that..ppl were so mei you energy lorhx..now i know i got so much energy lehx..hahas..finally..to camp 2 again..pearlyn cried..nai de 1 see de view sey..i also cried at that faithful they..thinking bout something else..yaya whateverlahz..but tears keep falling out..i cnt talk..dunno why sey..sleep beside sean tent..n told by sean that meiting go home le..bernard go home le..guo ran shi ta de nan peng you..jkjk..eat finish al maggie mees..n get ready for 2morrow..cn be the first 3 to sleep;mii genliang n weefeng;but i thinking bout something..n i relli needed to look at the moon!!huishin say i thinking bout her..wad sey..sleep also very good..they must punch mii in order for mii to wake up..hahas
day 5:
goinjg home le..get the photos!!mii pic so big there..n they ask mii whet i m doin up there..lameo mii..hahas the 'sourvenirs'..what sey..so lan de dou you..dun wan buy liao larhh..finally..took the first boat..step to singapore first..still thining bout the same thing..why i couldn't get it over mii mind..haiz..then noe that xianlin also go home le..i got all the late calls..i had not been updating lately larhh..the bus drop us off at the bustop beside that****sch..coz we didn wear sch uniform..i think..everything was cool..except that fiona step on mii foot..n mengting talking bout mii weakness again..lols..took the bus home..sit beside lao dao n mengting..why so heng de? lao dao ask mii bout the camp..mengting say she wan sunblock eveyday liao..wahahas..but hor..i m still the same..everything won't change when i m around..lao dao go le..mengting go le..i go at last.. walking the lonely road..everytime alone..alone..i walk alone..no one besides mii..if u dun see mii writing this out..u will noe..i m not alone anymore..

41more days to go....

first..i gone out n meet sean..then go to da sun plaza da library there n met up wif XL..then go to da bus stop n wait for meiting n her mother..brother..to chong pang.. that****place filled wif so mani sweets...chinese new yr also no need so mani sweets de ma?ok..$40++fly away le..

today go to cwp with ah liang...yan xiang...kelvin...junxiang...junchao.then onli junxiang n ah liang buy da wad fuel..for da obs...ah liang i let him buy..n ya..sean..i didn bought anything..the meeting is still on..ok bb