Credits shall all go to Zhen Yang
pic taken from Malacca trip

Travel plans before we go....

Waiting for the stupid bus that didn showed up....

Omgosh... see me? xD
reached the wadeva checkpoint its called....
Going through the wadeva bridge...
Mdm Chong taking our pictures n collecting passports for safekeeping.. u know some stupid student that lost their passports right? xDD
Chao Ying... ugly right? lols
redzuan redzuan... *shakeheads* sgt somemore =.=""
zhen Yang zilian-ing
Arrived at the wadeva place to eat waffles xDD
see the fishes? its REAL!! n its HUGE!! lols
see that guy over there? he's cool... Diaox =.=
Lunch which i ate 2 servings.. hahas.

My food is somewhat like this....

the wadeva camp site de canteen..

see the most beautiful, furthest one to the right? that's my bed.. xDD

That's me outside.. getting the view n attention.. until.. yan xiang pushed me =.=""
Keee Yong ge.. go in n talk rubbish.. but funni stuffs sey

Sianz si ren.. when going back home time..
I tried so hard..
i relli put in all my effort..
but i just can't forget u..
maybe u r right, i'm the one who dunwan us to be friends..
sorry, i wanted more than that.
when i dunno love,
i tot they were exaggerating...
i met u.. i realise its true..
i can finally differentiate Love n Like.
i Love u n i relli does..




i met YOU, i realise u r so FAKE.
nothing else.

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

You Are the Thumb

You're unique and flexible. And you defy any category. Mentally strong and agile, you do things your own way. And you do them well. You are a natural leader... but also truly a loner. You inspire many but connect with few. You get along well with: The Middle Finger Stay away from: The Pinky

You Follow Your Head

You're rational, collected, and logical. Generally, it takes you quite a while to fall in love. In fact, you've even been accused of being very picky. While you're cool, you're not ice cold. You just know what you want, and don't mind waiting to get it.

You Scored an A

You got 10/10 questions correct. It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors. If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs. As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human. And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

You Are 48% Gross

You're more than a little gross, but probably no more gross than the average person. Maybe it's time to drop some of those disgusting habits that could eventually embarrass you!

Day 1:
i almost cannot wake up...
luckily mum called me up =.=""
reach school earlier than the bus..
wad sia, complain to the bus company >.<
its a long journey until dunno wad custom..
i should have brought my malaysia passport..
things will be much much easier there -.-

sleep in the bus like nobody business..
woke up n found someone laughing at my face..
some others taking pictures =.=""
cnnt grow up issit? xDD
then we have lunch just outside a village...
eat 2 servings along with yanxiang's chicken wing..
*burp* the others seems quite amazed by my appetites...

who knows? the next activities we were gonna do is to climb a mountain
before that we have some shooting practice with the dunno wad...
silent killer, this is wad i rmb-ED..
some very old fashion hunting weapons larh..
i tried it.. wah siao.. i was going to like blow candle likedat one lo..
too bad i got enough strength to blow it off but not enough to hit the target..
so much for my marksmanship...

the climbing is damn long..
got some rumors going on of who like who again =.=""
haha, must CHECK xDD
the climbing is 3-4hours mans..
damn tiring.. for other ppl la.. that's why someone say i show off ..
am i? xDD

we slept in a chalet as requested..
but then, the room is FULL of vandalism =.=""
was told that it was used by of NS ppl..
so there is a training camp again... school very budget issit?
we have our dinner.. ( FYI:i ate 3 plates of nasi lemak. Full sey)
played games n night walk with yanxiang, junxiang..
p.s: now i know why i hate him so much

first one to sleep..
after man's talk... sort of like girl's talk lo..
who r they? ppl who have undergone sex change? O.o
hahas.
last one to wake up.. everyone not sleeping well enough uh?

Day 2:
the first thing i heard,
kevin's noise.. >.<
grr...awaken me frm my beauty sleep x.x
i struggled to get up.. *someone open the light*
who the '...' open the '....' light??!! someone's try'in nae sleep here!!??
painful to wake up in such an early hour in the day..
just to have us stretching n running 2.4..
i ran quicker than i expected xDD
then we have breakfast..
obstacle course n everything..

walking through the bridge...
the bridge will be shaking when u pause..
thus, signaling that its gonna fall, with YOU into the water
when i reach the last step, i shuffled my legs..
ppl say me showing off again =.=

walking through a narrow road where once u fall..
it means that u will be falling off about 1.5m high surface..
i'm scared of that.. heights are one of my weakness..
as long as i kept my view on my leg..

hate this, its a tarzan swing..
swing through a place with water..
almost get myself wet until joel save me..
thanks bud, i owed u one =)

DETESTED THIS.. monkey climbing..
nobody know how deep that water will be ok..
unlike tarzan swing, someone has fallen into the water..
but in mokey climbing.. none..
me? drama king again... xDD
struggled to get to another handle..
with mr sonng is holding me up..
BUT it doesn't cooled me coz..
I AM DAMN HEAVY AND I HIGHLY DOUBT THAT HE WILL BE ABLE TO CATCH ME WHEN I FALL O.O
everyone's like cheering sey.. T.T
in the end, i made it la.. of coz =D

then is the obstacle course..
wah damn cool sia.. girls r cheering for me mans..
dunno why sey.. then i see "keep on cheering" or " someone cheer for me leh"
something likedat.. it became louder..
SWEETZ~~~

i shall not elaborate further =P

ok, team building games next.((=
so comfortable when ppl caught me at the map..
so comfortable when ppl carry me through the string n car tyre
so comfortable when i carry girls through those strings xD
just kidding sey xDDD
shall not elaborate on this one as well,
n any further xDD

roughly, these r my days..
its pain, happy, weird, sad..
at least its gonna change my life tempo a bit..

tmr is physics SPA..
its an undeniable fact that we got to face off one time..
what will happen tmr leh? dunwanna even think about it
>.<

I'm going malacca tmr...
Woah, Damn many things happened these days...
i'm occupied with lots of things on my schedule...
i feel more stress n busier than schooldays..
but i also feel much much more fun, pain.

She wun talk to me no matter wad..
i feel we r both drifting apart ain't we?
another girl also scolded me...
ok, why m i so hateful these days?
i tot i have been more quieter, that's all..
n that's a... bad thing?

just pray that i make it through the malacca trip ok?
i dunwan to go back to malaysia anymore... not that i have a choice...
immigrants are immigrants.. once we leave our land..
we will nvr ever get back..
this is one of those exceptional cases i have been telling u guys about..
understand?

i think i'm gonna change this blog's url or something...
someone help me think of one cool name..
suddenly so alone is just too weird..
although that's my motto, i still wanna change it off..
maybe i will add song in the process too..

that is... if my trip to malacca isn't a one way trip...
if i frm there fly all the way to heaven how?
haiz, takecares while i'm gone
i'm gonna write a dairy there too...
coz i was told we will be sleeping in a chalet room..
6 ppl per room.. should be quite squeezy, but nvm..
i'll get the hang of it in no time..
so.. as i was saying.. it makes the trip looks much more like a resort..
leisure camp guys!! xDD

so long~~~
keep tagging on my tagbox kays?
my target is 45 more tags when i got back..
lols!~ just joking guys...
but must tag!!! go to my blog MUST TAG BEFORE U LEAVE!!
it cn be in forms of an languages.. i got my translator, dunworry
hahas.
i've crap ENOUGH!! time to put in my passport n go to sleep..
*yawns* yelled at my mother "where's my passport!??"
bye guys~((=

i got top, i got top, i got top for the FIRST TIME!!
in chemistry!!maths top b4 liaos
9/10 for SPA!!! xDDD
n Miss Siti say the actual paper will be totally the same as MOCK!!
which means.. the only mark i lost..
took the thermometer out =.=""" only i do that sia
i'm the only boy who done that, but but but, almost all the girls done that lo!!
it doesn't mean i'm a girl ok!! pffft!!
but nvm nvm nvm, i got top n that's the main thing!!
woohoo!! xDD

hmph. dunno who to trust anymore sey..
nvm, next time only i shall know ppl's secrets
n NONE will know MINE!!
*evil laugh*
trust me, i got my sources...
n its 100% reliable...
i got quite good for humanities so dun xiao kan wo

wad more has happen these days leh...
O ya! i play basketball...
hmph, interested in playing le sey..
xiang dang nian, i also likedat so go play soccer de..
maybe chinese boys r SUPPOSE to like play basketball
n malay boys r SUPPOSE to like play soccer de ba.. x)

life has gotten back up again..
now i only need to find another destination to stop at
nevertheless, i'm still headstrong as ever!

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

You Are a Daisy

You see the world with an artist's eye. Finding beauty is easy for you - even in the dullest of moments. You notice all of the colors of the world, from fresh grass to sunsets. You are a total optimist and hedonist. You love to drink life in.

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

this is offical,
i'm bored...
i heard there's homework..
hmm, let's see, i have no idea wad that is xDD
not gonna do it then =DD

these days have been rather tough....
don't know how to entertain myself in certain circumstances >.<
first up, friday... where did i went to ar?
O ya, i rmb-ED.. go take neoprint with sean, meiting, musfirah n afif
sean, meiting n i spilt money for the first time while
sean, musfirah spilt for the second time...
sean so GOOD!! la, help me pay $2..
borrow from meiting de though... xP
FUI: this is suggested by meiting de... Totally weird

then sean n musfirah left, leaves me n meiting
saw kelvin, shiyi,yvonne n lingjie there too..
sianz... got some photos... but didn hav time to upload..
sorry guys xD
ya btw, some funni things happen la...
meiting saw a beautiful decorative ma tong(toilet bowl)
got interested in it...
ps:anyone interested go mini toons shop there got sell xDD
plus she's considering whether to buy it for her cousins or not..
bless those cousins... ah mi tu fuo
then u know wad.. took out her calculator n calculate one lo..
say where did this come frm..
comeon.. a few cent+a few cents=10cents ma.. ayo

saturday go for the basketball thingy...
didn show my innocent looking face..
just see them play only larh.. but put my name down also..
haiz.. girls got last n boys got second last..
ps:anyone notice that we r the only class without basketballers? AND with our whole team malays?(the rest whole team chinese lo), O ya exclude shifu.. although his skin colour very black..
EXCLUDE ME TOO!! i never go to the match.. not even once..
now pretending i dunno them xP

i'm willing to follow u..
even until the enternal realm of darkness..
as u r the only light that could shine my world

gone to HIP again n..
wee feng dunwan to sit with me..
Elyn say i'm nosiy n he say i act cute..
so i changed my place to xianlin side..

News flash! tmr is going to be that mad woman's lesson
AGAIN!!! O.O""

go to cwp AGAIN...
buy things n took neoprints..
i'm not laughing.. bad shot..
nvm... tmr i, meiting n sean would be going to take another shot..
trust me this time!!

go back to school.. play abit of basketball..
then after those lihai ones come..
i run away liao larh!! i got zi zhi zi ming(know my limits)
then talk in npcc room..
go zhenyang house which is damn big..
saw thawit with her girlfriend..

zhenyang's place is DAMN cool!!
i would wanna go for a second try..
zhaohong's lorry too!!
DAMN COOL mans..

peace outz

Do u guys believe in distance relationship?
i don't quite do.. but i'm willing to try xD

let's start with today's programmes..
first play chess with sofian..
n i lose again, as usual..

then we go for the stupid english lesson
bloody hell, mrs raj looks damn an old freakin lady..
WITH MENTAL DISORDER!!!
too bad she's gonna teach band 1..
watch out band 1s!!!she's out there..
not to get me.. YOU!! :x

chemistry period..
bring first semester booklet n ended up staying up
great... look who's not looking at the cover page =.=

then we step out n play basketball xDD
its ok, until she showed up..
n i starting to "move"
distracted but move..=.=

reach cwp at 4.46pm..
n hav no idea how afif know i'm there..
met up with sean n sabrina n we r off..
to the seeker show..
its boring at first..
i tot its gonna be a normal life
then, the storyline changes almost at a blink of my eyes
it became a fantasy, a battle between the light n dark..
where the light, old ones seems so... powerless..
old ones r suppose to be powerful n sort right?
but they just acted like noob there mans =.=

after the show, walk walk walk or a while..
i didn eat.. last time at long john silver..
i didn finish up.. but i think i hav gained a few pounds..
i'm damn full that day so..
i will be concentrating on reducing fats for today..
LOL

took taxi home with sabrina and sean...
as usual, i'm always the last one down..
great.. i have to ford for all of them?
i quit!! hahas sean's 6.50 fly away liao
*flap flap*

i'm gonna prove my existence
to you someday...

woodcock is a lameo shit, freaking-lish weird man
If he's my teacher, PE teacher, i'll be the first to puke..

ok, done with topic sentence.
HIP today is so... DAMN boring..
probaly i changed seat again...
probably i become lamer than usual

anyways, been scolded by Mdm chong 2 times in a row..
well, its really hard to make her temper runs mad..
so wad do i do this time?
keep thinking cause I'm NOT telling :x

the physics experiment is also hard..
some even said easy..
results come out, they failed..
i B3.. so... who's the "easy" one here? lols

musfirah knew exactly where to find me..
i have no idea n i lazy to ask..
walk walk walk n go to her house to change clothes..
her brother is there too..
wah help me fold up jeans seh.. she's more pro..
i gotta admit.. or i'm too stupid? :x
this is a theorical question which doesn't necessary need to be answered
its either i knew already or is that i don't wanna know xD

take 912 bus which contains lots of my npcc squadmates..
THEY started to think wild....
lols. gotta wait for farah until she's pissed off...

then watch watch watch with 3 guys...
should i say idoitic looking? nope, they were quite nice actually ((=
just that something bout their attire..
with their height... they wearing that is like..
those babies trying to act mature adults.. lols
no offence dudes, peace outz :x

after the movie.. we go arcade..
even though they offered to blanja me..
i walked away without playing a game..
coz not in the mood for games mans..

Home, n sleep..
one more thing, i didn do my homework yet..
who's lending me? xDD

Gone to the HI programme just now..
how does this name come about?
teacher want us to say "hi" to them even though its holiday...

UNFAIR UNFAIR!!! Strongly object!!!
but I'm still the one who came to school the earliest =.=
gone up looking at Mr Oh taming his new toy xP
In the end, he failed xDD

first period, Physics!!!
unfortunately, Mr Oh cnnt showed us the toy...
then we'll just have to do correction then...
i saw her clear face, under the brimming sun..
i whisper hi, n heard no reply...
even though glass heart break, i still have to PRETEND i'm fine..
....stop dreaming....

sleep sleep sleep in physics lesson...
then, its geography where we go AVA room n combine class with 3-1
sit beside bryan n javin... they were fun x)
Mdm timah ar.. cnnt say that she's better than miss wong lar...
but then, her teaching style is different n i had a hard time adapting...
moreover, she had LOTs of work for us to do..
as a lazy bum... dunexpect me to do any one of her works. x)

A maths, stupid Mdm chong.. no qns ler anyhow come out one for me..
>.<>

Geography, combined class with 3-3..
sit with sean they all, outcast for 3-2
just can't keep my eyes off her >.<

mesmerized by her clear face,
shimmering in the northern lights
how i wish that's the end of time....

Gone to the HI programme just now..
how does this name come about?
teacher want us to say "hi" to them even though its holiday...

UNFAIR UNFAIR!!! Strongly object!!!
but I'm still the one who came to school the earliest =.=
gone up looking at Mr Oh taming his new toy xP
In the end, he failed xDD

first period, Physics!!!
unfortunately, Mr Oh cnnt showed us the toy...
then we'll just have to do correction then...
i saw her clear face, under the brimming sun..
i whisper hi, n heard no reply...
even though glass heart break, i still have to PRETEND i'm fine..
....stop dreaming....

sleep sleep sleep in physics lesson...
then, its geography where we go AVA room n combine class with 3-1
sit beside bryan n javin... they were fun x)
Mdm timah ar.. cnnt say that she's better than miss wong lar...
but then, her teaching style is different n i had a hard time adapting...
moreover, she had LOTs of work for us to do..
as a lazy bum... dunexpect me to do any one of her works. x)

A maths, stupid Mdm chong.. no qns ler anyhow come out one for me..
>.< then i shocked until nothing to say...
omgosh... its so diu lian de lor...

Geography, combined class with 3-3..
sit with sean they all, outcast for 3-2
just can't keep my eyes off her >.<

mesmerized by her clear face,
shimmering in the northern lights
how i wish that's the end of time....

Didn't do much things today...
just stay n rot at home...

As usual, my thoughts run wild again...
i kept thinking.. wad if most ppl hate me?
wad if... i'm a hateful person without me actually knowing it?
i don't relli know who actually r my friends..
well, let's just say they didn proved it out obviously...

it just seemed so hard to ask anyone out...
they all got other plans for themselves...
maybe i'm too selfish.. maybe i'm desperate for a BEST FRIEND
a BEST FRIEND as in he/she will come to school together..
n waited for my lesson to be over n go home together...
i just dun feel the sense of belonging...
i just feel that i'm the only one needing them..
i wanted it to be such a way that either of us cnnt lose other one..

i wanted a close relationship as friends..
but it seems that its too much to ask...
everytime seeing me alone walking towards the gates..
i cnnt help it but to curse the school out loud...
maybe things will change for the better as time goes by..
let's hoped it shall =))

I have stayed in that school for almost 3 years...
i think i learned a lot, after so much..
happiness, pain, joy n sorrow..
i think these school had it all planned out for me..
i gained new friends..
n loses old friends...
its unbearable, but they had changed so much..
that THAT is not the person i once knew anymore..
what could be blamed? for such affects?
growing up?
i hate growing up.. why can't i be just like before..
why do ppl changes under different circumstances?
i admit, i DO change.. but not as large as them..
until i duneven know them!!!
their heart , thinkings n mindset is far more different..
they r just wearing a mask, hiding those hideous sights
they r just not innocent anymore..
i'm not myself.. evermore...

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Accepting

No matter what a friend says or does, you try your best to understand it.And your friends feel like they can tell you anything. You don't judge. You know that friendship is a journey - with a lot of ups and downs.If you and a friend grow apart, you get over it quickly... and leave the potential for future friendship open. You tend to have many friends from many walks of life. Anyone you meet is could become a friend.In fact, you are especially interested in people who are a little different than you. Seeing life from another perspective is something you cherish. Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else with their secrets You really can't be friends with: Dogmatic, stubborn people Your friendship quote: "Love is blind, but friendship closes its eyes."

its getting harder n harder to tame my com these days...
nvm bout that, i'm frustrated n sad..
i feel bad bout sleeping through the time i was supposed to translate sabrina's aaron for her..
sorry, really, very, extremely sorry bout the excuse >.<

there's a $2 sale at cwp...
the only bookstore i knew will be moving out ler..
that is the sign.. a sign to make me know that i have no need for books

but then, how could i have forgotten such an important thing!!??
i hate myself for that know...
nobody have been tagging today...
>.<
i'm really addicted to tags frm others le ba!!!..
hais hai hais..
sian sian sian

i think i told u,
once or twice,
but u take everything,
except advice
now there"s a rumour,
going around
the way u do,
with everything burn in town
was it for fun!!??
was it for money!!??
for me.. It's the last straw! honey!

i dun love u ...anymore,
get ur knees.. off the floor
call me up...want somemore?
get off the phone!!leave me alone!!

i'm sick n tired, of all ur trickks
dun make me laugh, u make me sick
Now all my faith, True Love's gone
And IF i get AIDS, i know who its frm

n when i go, i'll still miss you..
i dun love you... anymore

guess u guys wanna know bout MY results!!!
nvm , i shall revealed it right infront of ur very eyes!!
right here, right now, right this moment, right this.....
ok, enough craps, let's start winson's result post O.O

English-C6
Chinese-B3
A Maths-B3
E Maths-A1
Chemistry-B4
Physics-B4
Comb.human.-C5

total, 2Cs, 2B4s, 2B3s, 1 A1...

Level position improve! 164-57!!!
Class position improve! 33-14!!!
when i saw my name up at the board, i tot i was gonna lost it..
coz, up at the board, meaning top 8!!!
marks only la.. but damn many ppl got same marks..
mati, go all the way to 14th position >.<

Sean-fairy, go up n claim the $10 prize bestowed to him
Sabrina.. Pfffft!! get the same marks as her...damn many As..
meiting-still dare say....

as u cn see, i'm not retaining, going to sec 4e2 next year..
aiyer.. principal go scare ppl one de...
hate it >.< owed sean one drink... nvm, he owed me one as well
saying wad, A maths cnnt get A=.=

stayback for interclass netball
as expected, we lost..
netball to civilise for us liao lar..
but nvm.. malek, redzuan, farhan they all say i did quite good this time round..
going bursting into tears le..
i dunwanna be the one draggin eevryone down like wadeva..
i must be stronger...

i must...
i still haven proved to her...

i don't know whether to cry or laugh..
things have gotten much more serious..
my parents still haven been informed yet..

i'm quite sure the retained ones r not gonna be me le ba..
but then, my score is like 64 marks for all subject..
i peek at the teachers results n i got a hell lots of B4..
i hate it.. B3 is much much much better >.<

she didn care bout me today..
n Elyn seems so cold to me these days..
*sigh* always throwing temper at specifically me?
Diaox =.= wahahahas

i think i gotta pretty addicted to ppl tagging on my tagbox..
just cnnt stand one day without anyone tagging xP

She today when i say bye..
she didn reply me..
m i that invisible?
i'm pretty sure i was quite "big" n obvious de lo..
did she mistaken me with musfira?
but she had her own already wad.. wad's there to misunderstand about?
a lot of ppl also give me that kinda eye =.=
pls larh...

anyways, stay back at npcc, cleaning out stuffs..
"she" give me quite an attitude manz..
but nvm..

LOLx, the most interesting one..
i stand up n make a speech..
knowing that the vice principal know me quite well...
i dunwanna say wad happen kays..
ok, everyone was like laughing when i say shhhh
too much noise la.. until they cnnt hear wad i'm tryin to say...
then they reply wad.. unhealthy food..
i follow meiyin lo.. we like unhealthy food
drinks r not unhealthy n tibis.. all this..
lols..
today was CRAZY!!!

ps: gen liang, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!! xDD

You Are a Blue Crayon

Your world is colored in calm, understated, deep colors. You are a loyal person, and the truest friend anyone could hope to find. On the inside, you tend to be emotional and even a bit moody. However, you know that people depend on you. So you put on a strong front. Your color wheel opposite is orange. Orange people may be opinionated, but you feel they lack the depth to truly understand what they're saying.

What Color Crayon Are You?

Yoooo!!
dunno her name is wad.. mrs kok or miss kok la..
i duncare bout it anyways..
but she damn fei hua lo..
ppl want to see and analyse for themselves..
then she talk talk talk n say "later i wanna say....."
but in the end didn say leh.. becomes packs of shits..

wah.. total 23 person retain leh!!
maybe i'm one of them!!??
its no telling who might be the one..
although 4 have already confirmed..
is the 4 retained ones retained again..
left 7 of us.. maybe me?lols

scared scared scared!!! but i cnnt let my fear get the whole of me, cn i not?
wah, she say something to me mans..
out of so many times of saying "hi" to her but it feels like i'm speakin to myself..
now she actually start a conversation on her own..
that time i was damn happy manz..
although its a short conversation
almost cried again.. feel gd!!^^
then my mouth became full of words

i did not forget to check if he is looking..
he will give me that kind of look like "stay away frm her or else"
i'm an insensitive person, to someone i dun actually know..
to him, in short, i dunno but i just felt that way leh...
that i'm not welcome..
the same kinda eye that HERRR n HIMMM showed to me..
as u cn see, he's not in the HERRR n HIMMM category ok..

hmm perhaps that's wad i wanna be with her ba..
i nothing more to aask frm her ler..
just friends ya know? hahas
n that kept me cheerful all day long that is until...
mdm chong say must hand in maths graph qns... =.=

later go buy wallet n pants with fira n sean..
they were nice!!^^ waited for me manz..
thanks ya~~!

the rest is for me to know n u to find out..
go out n celebrate my brother's b'dae..
almost forget that today's his.. xP
sry then, my treat!! xDD

wah today a bit crazy or wad la..
not me.. them!! (sean, musfira n bernard)
actually going to watch RE extinction today de..
but too bad today is relli not our day..

first up, didn sms sean ack even as i duno wad he talking in that msg..
ended up must go back home and took out clothes..
dunno whether its fortunate, or NOT, my father is not at home at the moment
they changed their clothes, n played my com which is damn lousy as u cn all see..
its illness had been deteriorated since the last time someone step foot to it..

they even help me choose the most suitable suit(which is also not good)
not clothes la.. going buy one since i have so many $$ not used in my pocket..
n a luxury of time i decided to splurge it all away.. ^^

anyways, we meet up with bernard n realise that we must produce an IC..
know liao larh.. but just kk only xDD
so the demanding cashier wun let us in..
we found an auntie to buy for us..
good auntie.. meet her when they r eating at food mall too!!^^
too bad her assistance had been futile as the security is still very thick..
we still need to check one more time to go inside..

sianz, i tot there's gonna be a match between bernard n them lo..
i was wrong.. just point middle finger n wad wad stare stare only..
not relli make much of a show.. LOLs xP

then we go play play at the timezone..
which i didn even touch..T.T
sianz.. coz i wanna play those shooting one mah.. but lazy ask=.=
no money too =X

then talk talk walk walk likedat only..
gotta go buy jeans for myself sometime these week..
anyone care to join me? =DD

sian sian sian.. dunwan to be at home become one lonely old man.. >.<

The All-American Rejects-
Dirty Little Secret

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It’s eating me apart
Trace this line back

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret

Who has to know
Who has to know

today go to swim after so many years...
i think about 3 years le ba..
last time i swam is when i took my gold test..
i passed, as usual of coz!
the woodlands swimming complex had been opened for u since this tuesday
so.. anyone interested, feel free to ask me out..
LOLs
there's still a playground n everything for ur info xP

i hate swimming..
especially the suit part...
yeah, exposure =.=
until now, i changed my mind..
my shen cai(body figure) hai okay ba...
no so bad mah compare to lots of ppl there showing off =.=

anyways, i still rmb how to swim..
i swam as if i'm a new born duck
ready to bring the water to life..
rock n roll mans..

there i heard someone kept calling ye ting..
pretty weird of a name dun ya think?
but reminds me of meiting.. diaox =.=

yeah n the people there r not much considerate for others..
most of them r bangala dash i supposed...
then they talk got alot of "ane ane" sound..
irritating mans.. n the children there..
siao, keep splashing water on my face..
think i wad? drain issit?

it was a disgusting trip..
i was down there coughing but after much hesitation..
i accepted UR request..
u know the sticky sticky thing that comes out of ur mouth when u cough right?
i felt that on my lips when i was going back up...
of coz wipe it away la n it was so.. eewww >.<

AIIIIICHOOO!! great.. now i'm down with flu..
wad more impending disaster awaits me?
i shall find out.. Woots! so excited >.<
maybe that's in my report card i was going to get back nxt friday
i HOPE not, i PRAY not >.<
pls make it be other things kays? lols=.=

my parents didn seemed to be informed bout any parent meeting session or anything..
maybe i wun need to retain..
*put my hands together*
*close my eyes n concentrate!!*

i can't stop thinking about you...
who exactly are you?
invading my life like that..
i'm gonna forced you outta the mindless brain of mine >.<

wah, sry for not updating recently...
but i doubt anyone cares
anyways, have gone a few places these days
hmm, first up, land division HQ in somewhere one
i was "norminated" to try out a "once-in-a-lifetime"opportunity"to try out
CAS (chemical-agent-suit)
everyone laughed n cheered like hell...
arboden, its not them who's doing all the wearing=.=
riverside sec are also there but compare to them..
we r MUCH MUCH more energetic n restless
FUI:these is NOT a compliment xP

let's see the pictures shall we? (:
credits shall go to chao ying's blog
the ppl there r all me.. i was the star of the show ain't i?
dunno who took the pic, becoz there was so many fans that took photos of me like hell =DDi trying out the mask.. its quite cool inside there actually.. but the straw.. very in-the-way.. there were times it stuck onto my nose =.=
the free-sized pants... not relli free-sized but the rope tied around me acted like a belt.. n the pants r RELLI BIG O.O
the jacket is cool, the coolest thing i would wanna wear.. they kept saying i'm the boss or wadeva.. becoz they were helping me wear it like i was somekinda big shot xDD
erm.. actually i wasn't supposed to took out my shoe.. the mask la.. make hearing very difficult >.<
i'm kinda cool ain't i? acting like matrix or wad.. diaox xDD
took photos with the gang! see my hand gestures? its a machine gun.. i dunno how to pose.. so get smack on the back by chao ying when she's on-the-way back to her seat =.=
i'm the only one who suggest whether we could take a ride in the motorcycle or wadeva..
ps: its damn heavy mans.. couldn't even lift up, how to balance sia!?
i've built a time machine.. those r my comrades

ok, this is where i go today.. bukit bedok...
sians, see forest for the morning hike where i'm not going during the camp
have been standing on the rain for the whole morning..
emo again ar.. duncare bout health le..
just lost faith in you manz...
wee feng trying to run away from my ultimate camera
emo-lish wee feng
the hand is mine though, but its not me who took the pic
ba gua(eight diagram) on the ground.. blessing us with hop.. but nvr stop the no. 1 obstacle, rain.
is that sun!? ouh false alarm... just shiang's hp in night mode..=.=
was a beautiful scenery.. its still raining though


wah!, angelic enough?



looking down above the mountain


cn anyone guess wad's this?
this is a book!!?? its gigantic!!
we were suppose to go up de.. but for safety reasons..
its a LONNGGGG~~~ way down


time is traveling faster than light
though u were irresistible in the past...
u were not, now...

firstly, I'm gonna vent my dissatisfaction against my results..
my last paper, social studies had been given out..
n i, for the 2nd time, failed freak'in-lish bad..
F9 leh... 18/50.. waliao...
source based 13/25
structural 5/25
waliao, nothing to say in structural liao lo...
then the teacher, mdm adawiyah still want me to write wadeva shits??!

nvm, meiting is entirely all same like me..
which i was like, the last in the class perhaps?
even Elyn win me lo.. beside the languages subject la..
boohoohoo~~~ ppl want cry liao larh..
first time failed in EOY la!!~~~

now my stupid result became,
1A: which makes me standing proud as a peacock
3Bs: the Bs r quite high so it becomes my middle, average marks..
2Cs n Ds : that idoit fool! english no need to say.. its expected.. but chemistry n humans too!!?? i was like As for almost all for the terms lor..

my overstated statement
the A n Bs will STAYED as A n Bs.. the english C let's hope it remain C6.. the rest Cs n Ds are totally gonna shoot up to Bs i think...

conclusion:
i only have one A for these whole term T.T

today is not good..
first start you lao shi give us the stupid vid to see..
sean n meiting were not there so i cnnt talk...
beside me were jieying n shanxian..
cnnt talk even more =.=
so i sleep lo.. being caught die die must be scolded by that damn teacher..

n the CCA points hor..
they were only like "+ 3 marks for u la..kan ni so ke lian"
likedat only..
sians... 14 marks is RELLI not my standard...

the rest of the lesson i jus wanna sleep..
that is until elyn volunteered me to go to the netball thingy..
ouhk, she promised me that i will be substitute but in the end? substitute is other ppl
i become main..

*press fast-forward*
the first game, 3-2 girls vs 3-7 girls!!
its fast.. asmita's damn good..
5 minutes.. how many ball again?
5!! xDDD
then the guys section..
i'm WD=wing defender..
n they send me to in charge of boon kiat..
i was like :O.. denis lim boon kiat still cn la..
i did a LOT of fouls.. but too bad judges r not professionals..
couldn't detect..
but boon kiat's the man!! he detect that coz i heard him curse n swear
the time they lose..
it was a tie.. but then shifu threw the ball first time in liao..
when its yao quan's turn got lot's of pressure.. cnnt blame him..
girls loses to 3-1.. n then fight with the other grups..
she looking as if i'm a stranger... or not..
she using the same face as wad the others see me as..
things r just weren't the same!!
me n her okays!!!O.O
i dunwanna it to be like this anymore..
k the game is blocked by mrs kok..
dunno why.. its over ba.. the game..
=.=

today our class went to east coast..
the trip is damn long..
emo with zhen yang n then fell asleep in the bus..

when i wake up,
just nice, time to go out liao
we sat at one stupid shelter..
where we have the "nicest" music being played..
since today's not a school holiday...
i do not ecpect much ppl there...
n sure enough.. nobody cn bother about our games experiments

our group has javin, which is regarded as a physic genuis..
HOWEVER, he had NOT been performing to our expectation..
keep on pushing the blame to geography =.=
time, when by...

we gone so far that teacher chased us to come back on...
pretty stupid uh? ppl r playing games already...
then javin start shooting the tides...
while i played volleyball with shifu
which i had absolutely no idea how to play..
n shi fu is not a good shi fu either =.=

finally, i gave up n leave him to play with his mengting -.-
cycling next... with javin again..
spent $6 which is suppose to be 2hrs but we only have half an hr
nvm, i got $$$$ xDD

so we cycled.. accelerating n decelerating..
sometimes i overtake him..
n he nvr got to come back up again..
leaving him behind.. dunno how he will catch up
then lend bicycle to shifu, n there goes my $$$$

wad did i do over the meantime?
play UNO with Elyn, Yan Qin n Bi Jie..
they were quite good actually.. maybe i'm too lucky ^^
keep saboing elyn.. making her draw until like siao..
n yan qin keep prompting me with so many pair up cards..
without 5minutes, within 4 rounds of my turns..
me had already game over...
would like to play again but.. aiyoyo
better to win n stay WIN
Lols...

go n eat macdonals which we
me n javin AGAIN, exceeded the buget..
Obviously.. wad more? javin LOST THREW away the recipt...
but nvm, he forded $7 for OUR meal..
me, wee feng n he himself.. while i only forded like $3-4?
wahahahas

get back to the bus again n she was sleeping..
i slept too, knowing that's the best thing to do in this kind of situation...
when i woke up, the first thing i heard is...
shifu n mdm chong discussing about the pairs in our class
ok, some i already know but dunwanna say..
shanxian n fiona, bryan hew n hui shin, wee feng n calisa, xianlin n elyn..
wow, some even my sources cnnt detect..
i thought eli n redzuan cn de.. but hardly.. haiz sian sian sian..

then it was good night for me all the way until we reach the woodlands ring gates
then i zhenyang, zhaohong, chao ying, jia en, yanxiang, gen liang play dunno wad..
football+netball+captain ball with just one ball...
hmm, u try merging the 3 games together ^^ lols

then its was lecture in NP room all the way..
dunno why maybe i slept ba..
keep talking craps until ppl laughed n feel amazed by me..
diaoz
need to do maths hw.. damn damn damn
why i didn do something in the first??
grrr

LOOK! at elyn's fiery eyes.. Diaox =.=


who's pointing towards the sea?


the view



the sun



know wad's this? oversea city bank


open at woodlands branch!! i help them do publicity


this is the balloon after 15 minutes of playing


when i let the air out.. the balloon is like flying like crazy


get ready to fly pilot!



see i very careful one.. detach it with no prob at all!

i'm free religion thank you =.=

i behaving like someone
i totally hate to the utmost core..
why is my heart filled with jealousy, envy
when i saw someone with the girl...

why m i being like HIMMM..
what the hell is wrong with me?
why do i have to kept offending ppl?
as if everyone had offended me likedat..

i dunno wad the hell is wrong with me..
why couldn't myself understand myself?

i have started thinking..
bout the future years..
but wait, that's not me..
usually i will just take one step at a time

after secondary school, i think i will go to jc..
n then university to enjoy life as a U student..
or i will go poly, which have almost 0% chance of going higher..
or maybe i will stick to my old plans..
going abroad to further my studies..
since i was just so insignificant..
that nobody will even realise that i was gone...

i think i experience a lot during the years in singapore...
hmm, come to think of it..
i actually do make some friends...
either good or bad...
kind or evil
simple-minded or devious...

will anyone notice me?
i'm just leaving behind footsteps..
nothing more.

sianz sianz sianz...
someone ask me out leh..
rotting at home liao larh..
if it continues, i think i die even earlier than i retain>.<

Change blogskin again!!
i like that picture actually..
but dunno how to changing the pinkish colour on the words..
hate that>.<
i'm bored like hell at this cage....
someone pls ask me out leh..
i got luxury of time on my side..

yesterday gone out to discuss bout the camp proposal...
haiz, more n more this kind of proposal crops out,
i think this is the end of me liaos...
anyways, i didn do anything or say anything there..
which make a huge significance to them...
just kept my mouth shut n let them do all the filthy work...

ok, i'm just joking there, dun be too serious on me...
yeah there's junchao, yanxiang, genliang, zhenyang, zhaohong and not to mention chaoying which came the latest,(after i came) and leave the fastest..
but she got do something significant so nvm..

things we discuss on the proposal will be strictly confidential..
so pardon me for no talking mostly bout that subject...
after the proposal thingy, i went shopping..
for food of coz!! i'm totally runout!
find find find n settle it off under the mrt trail..

i also got hold of a balloon too!! some picture of it..
but i intend to upload it tomorrow
lazy now nia...
another day grazing at the grass outside my window..
HAIZZZZ

take a look at my stupid results=.=

English:
paper 1: 29/60
paper 2: 27/50
Total: 50.9%

Chinese:
paper 1: 37/70
paper 2: 52/70
overall result: 67%

Chemistry:
paper 1: 19/40
paper 2: 50.5/80
Total: 57.9%

Physics:
paper 1: 23/40
paper 2: 57.5/80
Total: 67%

A-maths:
paper 1: 51/70
paper 2:preferred not to be disclose =.=
Total: (N.A)

E-maths:
paper 1: 77/80
paper 2: 69/80
Total: 91.3%

geography: 28/50
Total: 28%

See see see! my marks are damn lousy lo...
only left social studies... which was like damn no one passed in the beginning...
my only subject that has been an ok grade only..
of course its E-maths la...
haiz going to cry already if these keeps up x(
today Mrs Chua give me that stare which immediately gave me a jeer!O.O
Mr Bruce also but thank god he's transferring schools from next year onwards^^
npcc is tiring, n bloody not fun
zhaohong interrupt my "in-charge"
*angry*
but nonetheless i found myself important in the unit..
for the first time (:

yeah we gotten back some of the results by today...
Firstly, Chinese..
as u cn see, i write romance in paper 1 so i dun expect to see results..
yes n i didn.. totally failed my compo by 1=.=
then get back the paper2..
luckily, 50+/70 (forgot lerh) which is enough to pull my marks up to b3..
ppl losing me de... become winning me lo
shit, i shouldn have write romance lo..
hao pen you bu yao xue wor!!!
kids must learn frm MY mistake..
overall marks teacher say liaos...
i got 67/100 for godness sake, n i was like shit..
huishin's place should have been mine..
no place for fights.. i know she also want to know my marks as well..
i was also one of the "potential" A2 there..
little did she know, the real A2 is just beside me..
BRYAN LEE YO!!!

issit mrs zarina? ok wadeva..
she's very guai lan lo.. like GL..=.=

when i first see into her eyes...
she was like telling me..
"u r in deep shit babby"
get back english lerhh.. not in expectation >.<
sian sian sianzzzz!! only got 27 marks for paper2..
but its over 50 so i pass for goodness sake..
the first time i pass, some will go n fail...
those whom i sms or msn them...
worrying bout my english result..
n they was llike sure pass, no worries for their english de..
in the end.. 19/50 ar.. 20/50 ar...21/50 ar.. n those who there kk..
i dunwanna say but i must say..
shifu, u didn see this coming didn you..xDD
22/50=.=still dare say me wun PASS=.=
in the end nothing to say le ma..
still thick-skinned as usual...
say would i pass or not coz i only pass one time english..
LOL Confirm fail de.. but dun say out larh..
mrs angelia tan say plus the daily work n all,
i pass my CA borderline lo.. now for the SA1 failing result..
hmm i need to pass by one mark in this test..
got confidence in my paper 1 more than paper 2..
i tot paper 2 die lerhh heng also pass..

mrs zarina say its the MOST easiest paper..
great... that's wad i needed to pass right?

then its maths..
i dunrelli wanna know that subject's marks know..
but then, coz i didn have full marks for paper 2..
it was like such an easy paper..
i dunno why lurhh n become afraid..
ok back to the marks subject..
paper 1 i get 77/80 marks n paper 2 get 69/80 marks..
damn hell, so low mans... i wanna cry liao lurhs
sure got a lot winning me..
that means i'm unable to hide the undesirable black past...
where i suddenly do very badly for 2 terms.. ok la not SO bad..
hais.. 91.25% uh... weak sia...

then was the chemistry paper liao...
i was shaking my whole body there know..
i totally dunno wad miss siti is talking bout in class
i didn read anything.. most importantly...
i have no idea wad the qns wants..
things r going like wad the mid yr is getting.. E8..
40% but heng all is A1s!!! quite high de can actually pull up that subject..
totally hate chemistry exams..
n also hateLOVE chemistry Test!!^^
now where was i? i think i get carried away by the marks prob..
ok luckily i get a 57.9%.. all because of ME
FAILING MCQ!!!miss siti is like mcq is the thing that pull most of ya's marks up..
BUT IT PULLED MY MARKS DOWN!!! cnnt believe it..
25% chance i cn also fail=.=
got one qns i write there some stupid chemical which i also dunno..
but 1% is better than none ma..>.<
as usual, its wrong=.=
n the teacher even put there "HAHAHA"
grr, that's an complimentinsult...

then then then is the physics paper..
let's wrap this up.. 30 mins gone for blogging...
>.<>
kns section B i got 27.5/30 nia!!!
n they pull me until so low..

kns kns kns!!!
not happy with my results..
duneven have 2 As..
only 1A, 2Bs, 2Cs..
i'm not performing to my expectations...

this kinda results.. will it ever reach top 10!!??
top ten seems so near, n yet so far away>.<

damn damn damn!!
today is fuckin' bored...
but i learned one thing...
but its not one thing, its many..
lols, know that commerical?hahas

nvr EVER show ur hp infront of zhao hong...
it will get confiscated...
no matter how i cry.. how i react, how i explain..
she still.. hais hais haisssssss!!!

the coach, rmb? the china one?
yuppie, its herrr..
noticed one thing, she say" pay ur concentration"
when it supposed to be "pay attention"
diaox..but she reminded me one thing...
i must prove to him i cn make a mark too ya know?
at CCA? i know zhenyang is the chairman..
but ppl dream also cnnt ar!!?

then we talk bout naruto..
when taking the pic..
informal one, i snatched the Gai posture..
LOLs.. i was the only one who think its cool..
i guess...
aiyer!!! now got more hates ler...
dunno why they wanna me to hate themm...
or i just hated those who r just like me..
or i'm becoming like them...

cnt they be a normal student..
to just sit there quietly?
or be likw me..
which is to stare at the teacher...
no effectO.O
=.=

mum chasing liao..
tomorow hmm, studies again!!
GREAT!!~~
hahas good luck guys!

今天也好有感觉所以，又再次报上华文字了！希望大家不要见怪噢！
数学测验真的很难很难。。。大概是因为没时间做完吧！艾。。。大概输了28分。
对自己十分的惭愧，开始询问自己有没有那种能耐，开始对自己没信心。不知道能
不能将分数变得更高，甚至是升上中4都难。。。虽然话是那么说但我也不是对我自
己那么没信心啦！当然，我还是残留着那么一点点的把握。。
哈哈！大家就等这看吧！看我怎么死=。=
哇！感到一个新的感觉。。。又喜欢上别人了妈？哈哈哈！果然世上是没永久的爱
情。。。就是因为这样，我现在才那么有活力！！！哈哈哈
人就是和动物不同！人，是为了感觉而活着的吗。。。他们是有感情的生物。动物
呢，是因为他们活着，所以才。。。
到此为止吧！晚安^^

相爱不如相知，爱她不如祝福她，与她喜欢的人白头谐老，永不分离，永远幸福，快
乐。。。我只希望每一天都能看见她的微笑，再也不声望什么了。。。也许是我口
是心非，但我真的是感到无比的不甘心。。。我不想从朋友变成陌生人，更加不想
失去她，但只能这样安慰自己。。。

明天就是最后1向考验。。。希望我不会再为这件事而影响了我。
我还想向她证明我不是一无是处，我也能够成为一个。。。。

today was FUN FUN FUN!!!
but we r suppose to go there to study right?
yeah wadeva xDDD
in the end only sean gain frm this trip..
the minimal one..
knowing how to do alpha beta lols..

i think the one gain is fira la..
hahas know how to trigger the alarm...
we talk bout the monkey..
the hippo.. the turtle..
dram VIP(Very Important Pig)

i didn talk much..
still covered by yesterday's thing ba..
gonna burst outta tears very soon..
com is not getting the hang of itself..
keep blinking..
n so does my eyes..

this is the first step of making our com DEAD..
Mrs Nogh be the tester let's think...
"... if u r found... u will be DOOMED to hav chattered!!"
wow.. lols.. need buy present la..
but laziie.. xDD

then at the shop..
they keep sitting on the sofas..
n taking shots...
USING THE SHOP"S CAMERA!
suddenly..
alarm is tigger by fira...
i was like.. erm, do i know you?
she was stunned n rooted to the ground lo..
it didn stop ringing.. even the time when we left the shop..
everyone's looking omgosh..
so much for low profiling eh?

we slipped out of the shop..
n KEEP TERRORISING THE TOWN!!...
lol, powerpuff girls come out..
diao..

next time we u go to that cwp shop..
may the forces be with you...
shoot shoot shoot!!

I NEVER EVEN TOUCH PHYSICS ONE BIT
last time i touch a lot ar..
wa siao.. first time de fail n very very lan...
fail by 0.5 marks LORHH!!
its a lot to me k..
but this time i totally As the paper ok..
believe it guys!! its easy but a lot say difficult..
becoz i nvr study de jie guo ba..
die die also must not study ok..

dun study get GREAT result..
my style isn't it?
wah still worring bout retaining...
walk home today again,,,
sian sian sian..

relli low on sms liao but some ppl still send me sms
no choice but to reply xP
but then, sry if didn reply k...
doesn't mean anything de lah...

continue watching naruto!! ^^

Today n yesterday go library with firah...
suppose to be with 2 but then...
always got one nvr come or leave early..
haiz haiz.. so play play with fira's hp lo..
more fun than my one... want her to send mee...

yesterday wor.. chemistry test!!..
i didn bring easers..
her again.. to think i will actually go n beg for it...
5 minutes before the test starts..
totally.. _____ her manz..
wtheck.. ya lo.. actually thinking of it..
b4 shafiq stopped me..
n lend me his 2b pencil n easer..
won't make the same mistake again

chem paper is damn difficult...
as usual..
ouhhh, i think i gonna fail..
AGAIN.. shit again lo..
everytime A1.. 1 fail must come out..
balancing equation.. 50 marks liaos coz EOY mah count more mark..
so at least should have na dao 50 ba...

walked home...
a lonely road manz..
haiz.. i need songs to accompany..

then today, maths...
its quite easy i should say..
but then mengting cried..
coz cnnt understand first qns..
cnnt blame her la.. she's not suited for this qns..
feel sad for her too..
haiz must read more english books..
heng i got watch channel 5 news..
sometimes they got talk bout that one...
n also heng my father is ex-salesman..
everytime jisng jisng de shi hou got say dao...
but percentage i got not a nice number leh..
i wrong too issit>.no way.. T.T

this is the only chance to win mengting...
THE ONLY CHANCE!!...
12 marks manz.. n 1 got like 3 qns dunno how to do..
add together 6 marks ba..
mengting that one is crazy de..
the rest sure all correct..
that means i only got 6 marks to lose..
n paper 1 i MUST get FULL MARKS for godness sake..
I MUST!!! FOR THE NAME OF WINSON!!..

bloody hell..
RASENGAN!!CHIDORI!!
DIE DIE DIE

blogskin got problem again...
hmm, cnnt seem to find my left margin...
stupid computer!!>.<

We are on th climax of Exams..
seeing ppl changing their Display Msg to things..
that's wad i'm trying to not remind myself of..=.=
cn i really go frm 3E2 to 4E2? no hope =((

those who r far more worse than me..
in order to protect their reputation..
their identity will be rated as confidential...
Pls guys, zi ji xin zhi du ming..
somethings no need to be spoken out loud..
their were as confident as usual...
but in the end same thing...
fail fail fail..
wad is actually frightening is that..
they cn actually laughed n tell ppl their ans..
which is reasonable n sensible..
which make us think that.. omg, i fail ahr?
but in the end.. ones who failed r them..

TODAY!!! the geography paper..
no hope but all i read were all tested..
all inside the thing..
so just zhao copy all i could..
altogether is like i studied for 60 minutes the most ba..
cn get 25 marks i cn be like laughing to myself liaoz..
nvm la..
all humantities last time..
D7 one time for both geography n SS..
the rest i got all A1s^^ or A2s^^
failed in mid yr for SS?
i totally As the paper for geography..
so if this time fail.. probably will make that all balancd ^^

A maths paper i don't know how to say..
judging from the first few qns..
yup its damn easy. for logarithums la..
but then the rest all i don't know wad the F'in Hell r they talking bout..
T.T I gonna chiong for paper 2..
hmm only A maths paper 2 in that day only right? i guess.
since i don't hav the timetable with me..
but sure seems that way!
i gonna concentrate so much i gonna die..

but i WILL get A1 n take back my maths EXPERT title..
i will CLAIM back since its been so untouched for so long..
nobuggie.. WINSON'S BACK!!!
FOR MORE ACTION!!..
watch ya back guys.. i gonna so win O.o""

haiz..
so many papers dao i yan hua(eyes grow flowers)
didn relli study much but i think the maths paper is like damn easy lo..
i doing the last qns liao then see the time..
i was like.. huh?? keep checking whether the paper is sec3 de or not..
Yes its sec3, no mistake bout that...
redo 5times to make sure there relli isn't any flaws..
but i doubt there isn't any flaws ler..

Elyn n shiyi kept talking bout phone no.?
lols.. see which one's memory gd enough...
i cnnt rmb any of the ppl's phone no..
except sean's n her's..

jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai...
aiyoyoyo.. but Social studies i wan dan liao la..
the SBQ i damn kiasu...
every qns one page...
filled up one page liao cai an xin..=.=
but as usual... SEQ is so not my long winded pi hua..
i can only do barely 2 pages with leaving line..
when see other ppl's work i was like siao...
but then again... i'm the only one doing healthcare..
Coz she told me bout the healthcare...
only one time n i was like, the first thing in the morning i got recite to myself liao...
wow, ai qing de mo li...
if she say more ar..
maybe i dunhav to worry bout my geography too liao lo..
Aiya no time to do more liao...
so let's chill out n crashed the damn paper off the floor..

sabrina's maths was like.. so pro lo..
dunno why she still wanna ask me for da answers...
geography, n A maths is gonna tested tomorow liao lar...
sian sian sian ..
all my worst subject..
some to think of it..
did i have a best subject?
nope D:

Wish her all the best ba...
pray that she wun fail like me..
LOL... that will NEVER happen O.o""

Change blogskin AGAIN to remind myself not to commit suicide..
i'm under large large pressure... n i think i'm gonna lost it..
breaking out of this stupid shell n do wadeva i wanna..

today go for the maths lesson...
ppl were like..
wah, so easy ask for wad?
n james was like,
wah, so diff. but no ans..
how i know i'm correct?
is that a bad thing, of a good thing?
sai weng shi ma, yan zhi fei fu...

Xianlin might be bad in english chess..
but i gotta admit...
shi fu jiu shi shi fu..
eat dao shanxian no chess piece liao...
cannot remain to see the ending..
but no worries, the winner had been decided..

Elyn finally been able to rmb the pen..
haiz, gotta buy another pen now uh?
why can't she just lend me for that whole week?
i'm running outta ink mans..

then i sean, meiting go library..
damn funni lar they all..
so easy also wanna ask me=.=
n when we eat our lunch, we realise a pig organ soup..
suited for sean!! xDD
still eat the same with meiting...
don't know why we standard one ..

damn stress arh...
want to cry liao larh..
but don't want to study
hee^^

Yo! first time winning sofian..
in the game of chess...
my forth time playing(believe me, i got count)...
always playing with him n finally win..
luck ba, couldn't end our second game but i know he's gonna lose..
lol we both have same chances of winning xDD

get meiting to fold the piece of book for me..
wah ecilpse leh..$34!!
THAT's how much i cn pay if i saw one good book =DD

has she gone back to her original style?
I don't know but i'm beggin its not.
realise that sean's n meiting's standard had somehow..
Drop drastically frm the top of a cliff to the bottomless pit..
lols, another descriptive style of writing..

waited for then who had so much questions of maths installed for me..

p/s:sorry if i didn reply any of ur sms..
i'm running low liao..
preferably to use it in more urgent situations. xDD

i was like doing damn...
NOT hardworking...
i feel my standard dropping..
i know there's a conscept..
i know everything..
but dunno the formula..
wad's the use..

E-maths required ur brain to turn...
n someguys just dunhav the ability..
while some r RELLI good at it..
this is life, either u have it, or u don't...
its meaningless to gasp something that's no meant to be urs...
the moment where u have to use force,
u had already lost..
just sit back n relax, let nature take its course..

everything will end after sometime..
there's a beginning, there's an end somehow..
just that, the way ur ending may be different a bit..
but who could see the different?
oh ya, someppl r not living for others..
they lived for themselves eh?
letmee ask yaw, who feed u milk?
who teaches u?
who show u how to bang sai?
who cook for you?

somedays u will be just as them...
now u r living OFF them ok...

class is a chaos, especially 4 period of free period..
but i kept on doing maths...
i know i'm very guai larh...
hmm, don't know why but she may have changed place..
FOR A LONG TIME..
i hate her mans..
why does she change place in the first place?
kns, busoong lorhh..
no like i was the one who started it first..
xiang dang nian(not very long ago larh)
i change place with malek..
her kns face n *@#$! words...
that's not quite welcoming ok..

why should i be welcoming to her then?
but well, i couldn't just follow her..
its just not my style!!
don't care bout wad others think..
don't care bout anywhere else..
n have my beauty sleep...
its too troublesome to quarrel n everything..
as a lazy person, i just wanted my life to be normal...

go poly, go university..
get an ok ok job(office one),
stop living off my parents at age 25..
get married with an okok wife
with 2 childrens..
1 male, one girl...
living to 50years old n die..
is that too much to ask?

i think that is.. nvm la!
Elyn is so cute..
leaving her pen with me for so many days..
n constantly didn take it back from me..
i saw her going home..
se even say bye but this thought nvr cross her mind..
LOL.

is that called a drive?
no life. boring~

i'm totally convinced that i lost my drive...
things seems so uninteresting...
going to my lalaland is the first place i ever wanted to go..
exam coming already but didn even prepare one...
i hate losing.. i HATE being the LAST...
i will win, for i'm winson..
or at least, not getting the last!?
well, not studing will be a total gone case for me..
but still, i wun study until i got the mood to...
sian sian sian, geography coming...
that stupid subject!!
err maybe i gonna start on Maths first...
as in when? well, it depends.. xP

english i fail fail fail larhhs
today first thing play english chess with sofian..
its my first time playing..
n i'm not so bad.. managably kill all the pieces in sofian...
but coz donno that the soldier when go to the end will become any piece..
i've overlook that, n the rest of the pieces get killed when exchanging..
she talked to me again..
well, it doesn't seemed much of a deal these days...
i'm through but don't know why...
somehow or rather, deep within my heart...
i know my hatred still implies..
i've absolutely no control over it mans..

geo lesson is a score of a time...
miss wong how old already? still play this kind of game..
shanxian speak up, with sufiyan they all...
while shafiq be the opposition team, with atiqah they all...
so who m i with? dun make me repeat myself...
this kind of situation, I'm neutral know...
but somehow... something in "there" is buggin me...
it has been totally unlike myself at that time...
wad happen to me anyways? why i suddenly become...
nvm, manage to welcome miss wong back...
with me n sufiyan sitting on top of the chair outside the classrooms..

bryan is great at playing chess...
but i didn say he's good as sofian..
well, i guess better players dunhav to kill...
they protect, protect, n they lost..
with all the game over, with so many pieces on the game itself..
pro ARE pros.. chinese chess also... finally have some drive..
but the communication line break, back to me again,..
lazy for everything=.=

ya still got one thing to talk...
ok.. i know this post is damn long...
but i got one very important thing to fa xie!!!
or else i will lost my mind..
ok.. i'm already crazy...

but hor damn angry lo...
u know wad my f****** say ma?
he F***'in B******* say wad, help me go down n buy things..
i was like ok, sian diao, who will be happy doing this kinda things?
n he started with the fighting scenario
lao pa"ASK YOU TO DO LITTLE THING U ALSO DON'T WANT!!I DO HOUSEWORK N ALL LEH!! WAD DID YOU DO UH!!??"
Me:(housework he want to do himself one, if not, i'll be doing it at home)(he didn do anything else.. ok.. help my brother to wash his dishes ba)
lao pa"SEE I GIVE YOU COMPUTER, HANDPHONE.. N I DOING NIGHT-SHIFT VERY TIRED ONE LEH!!!"
i was like...
WTF, COMPUTER MOTHER BUY ONE LARH!! HANDPHONE I BUY ONE LARH!!N HOR!!! WHOSE THAT IDOIT WHO HAPPILY LAUGHING THERE N TELL ME... I CHANGE TO NIGHTSHIFT LAO WOR WITH THAT HAPPY FACE...
LIKE MY FAULT LIKEDAT...
that's my limit..
BOOM!!

ok chilled now..
probably seen have bruises
muahahhaas

yesterday forgot to type..
ahyer, MR JACK CHONG!!!
kns lo.. say my name infront of so many ppl ok..
hell, "say winson, crush the paper!"
coz i was concentrating on something else..
n then like xiao dao lo..
waliao even natalie sitting beside me de laugh lo...
diu lian larhs... Grr..
will nvr forget one..
n today damn xiao xia..
lao ngoh ask calisa" you malay?"
i was like bursting out of laughter!!
hahas yup, she's a malay^^

sian sian sian...
wrong format, wrong word, wrong vocab, wrong grammar, WRONG GENRE!!!
oh great, now i'm sure my MT will also fail as well...

meiting nvr pei wo...
alone again liaox...
go library n saw shiyi they all...

haiz, praying next tests will not be THAT difficult..
especially Maths, A-maths, Geography, Social Studies, Chemistry, physics..
yup all subject are my weakness..
I DUNWANNA RETAIN!!!!
MY DETERMINATION WILL NEVER DIE...

ok, cut the chase,
today started with the english paper1..
i was determined to succeed, that time..
sean, meiting, zhenhui sat down n
we do all we cn in that period of time given to us by god
i'm quite confident of my standard actually..
regardless of failing countless times...
i dared not imagine or go n actually COUNT for myself..
but wad i know is that.. its A LOT!!!
maybe beyond your wildest imaginations!!
having courage to stand up countless times...
hmm, i'm starting to think i'm not somebody who could be easily reckoned with..
ok, stop being full of myself here...
ok, i saw the paper n i immediately chose one topic without ANY DELAY!!

Fear, hmm, coz i recently being doing one word title..
so i decided on it!!
hearing bi jie from last time say..
if ur compo doesn't contain any scars,
but u biao xian(showed) out, that's a piece of masterpiece..
used every single vocab i cn think of...
n in other ppl's eyes, i'm still a loser...
showed them my draft..
n so many grammar mistake..
most of it is gone de...
but everyone always say the same thing...
i cnnt express well, but i know wad i want to express..
vocab's quite good..
its all the same =.=

paper 2..
that one i die..
i don't when the paper start..
i just know when i did finished...
calisa was like so fast..
shifu also...
sianz.. is it that easy?
well, i left 40 minutes of free time after checking...
but when i ask ppl their ans..
i was like Oh Ya! again...

dead dead dead, there has been 4 wrongs in my compre liaoz..
i dunwan to think of more..
someone help?

Aiya!
damn danger arh! tomorow english exam liaos...
die die also must get 60 marks for that test mans..
At LEAST must get 56 marks to JUST PASS!!!
teachers dun seemed much concern bout our grades..
i meant english teachers..
i was like failing..
zhenyang was like failing for all three semesters..
n teachers duneven say a word...

what does these all means anyways?
everyone will surely get into sec4?
so there's no need to worry bout?
if u all r not an all-round failure,
they wun let u retain again!!??

well, its hopeless to speculate wad they r doing...
as the conclusion will be futile..
that's a good word. Humph.
coz not enough proof to support ur findings..
like as if not enough evidence so cnnt sue him likedat!

i think i done all i can le ba!
ask teachers to give me extra work..
regardless of that teacher is Angelia tan..
which she gave me a pass..
saying that my compo the language usage is good..
but failed to understand the topic qns..
which means i was outta point then..
16/30. hmm..
now concentrating on compre...
that! needs Urgent attention!!

JIA YOUS WINSON!!

Life is so boring...
humans r even worst..
why things dun interest me at all?
why things r always so predictable?
why everything is within my gasp?
nothing interest me now..
maybe i will just rot at home..

killing...
hmm, imagine seeing..
a person's eye exploded,
u r smashing his brains..
pull the trigger right at his throat..
imagine blood spattered everywhere..
bone n skin fragments lieing over you..

that's quite interesting,
if its shown in real life..

hope something unexpected will happened..

i won't say anything coz if i said,
i would have EXPECTED it..

sian sian sian...

began more n more obvious to me that...
zhenyang is an attention seeker...
in class that is... LOL.
n clearer and clearer to solve the mystery behind redzuan..
oo, BIG NEWS!! ^^
it appears that i have dropped in standards...
not listening to teachers n doing homework ba...
holy shit.
my bastard brother stole $3000...
i'm not joking...
he a piece of asshole shits..
nvm, lets get TO the point...
today got that mid autumn something..
n i was like carrying a WHOLE lot of books n files...
if i hadn't covered them up using the files...
that would have been A LOT bigger ok...
then "he" the shen mi ren(mystery man) ask me to..
give flowers of two gal...
i say ok lo.. delivery man only wad..
wad's the big deal?
little i know is that, delivery man is a BIG deal.
first target, manting...
keep wanting me to tell her his name..
waliao, yinching bu zai(not in) i could speak with no worries..
or wadsoever..but then oh well...
she dun accept or should i say..
she gave it back to me? hahas
at least i gain a $2 ok hahas.
second one..
wah so many friends there mans..
n wu hui(not black) i give one..
n also didn accept..
=.=that's bad.. for a beginner..
but at least i holded manting's hand, or she hold my hand..
*nosebleed*
ok this one copy sabrina de..
hehe ok, i'm back to myself again..
ONCE again, but human change, dun expect me to be like last time!
heyy couldn't not admit, she is a chio bu..
or else she wouldn't hav known so well how to handled in this situation..
n her friends like not seeing this for the first time..
lols.
physics make up lab session hor..
actually i got that right one..
yan qin n her friend say in 3rd floor..
i was going there when i met james..
who's going to the robotics lab.
hmm, talk to him but then, forgot everything..
bout the 3rd floor that is when shifu came sooner after..
great.. we walked around like forever until shanxian came
n zhi dian mi jing(show the confusing sutras)
we ran and ran but there r still someone later than us...
great... the experiment was so easy that i could fart on it..
then was the siting with the girls n talk time..
girls r amazing creatures..
unlike male who made things so obvious for other ppl..
unlike those mature ladies or women..
coz their next move was so predictable..
girls r so annoying that they became a joy..
coz its so difficult to guess wad they r thinking...
ok enough of that..
i speculate no one's able to understand wad i'm tryin' nae say.
back to the topic on today,
the girls treat me food..
biscuits to be exact, n saw an exciting moment..
boonhao actually being gan diao by these girls..
wah dunsee them laugh laugh laugh..
actually at jiang hu shang(long yellow river there)very powerful one..
or is boonhao scared of mrs kok..
wah like they say her name boon hao was like..
-.-sneered a bit.. laugh to act shuai but i cn feel an underlying tension..
now boonhao's name become boonhua liao..
girl power is not to be covered..
pei fu!^^

today go for the Ne Yang poly thingy..
teach us how to do cosmetics...'
how made de, but brand is"do not use"
lol. three substance frm our brand,
lip balm, sun block, n one wash face one...
calisa boliao leh.. ask everyone want to try her lip balm or not.
so much for empasizing on "DO NOT USE"
we will preserve the liaberation of side effects which..
u all cnnt sue us on legal coz of the contract.
Nobody will buy it..
but we intending to give one to mrs whelan..
siva too i think...
ya there r groups.
i'm with guanwei, hongyi, fiona n calisa..
redzuan want to follow elizabeth leh..
i feel something going on there...
CHECK! o.o
BEWARE!!
well, its nice....
but its even nicer when it contribute to my CCA points..
^^must hav counted into it...
it must hav!
didn do much actually..
stared..
watch..
wash..
play a little..
stir a little..
hongyi copy wad i say a little..
eat a little(ling jie eat a lot!!)
i consider little liao lorh as compared to those hungry ghost.
didn talk much.
feeling empty inside..
looking at the sky..
wow getting more n more like meiting while meiting...
getting more n more unlike her.
-.-
n we all went home..
nothing much.
sianz-.-
exam coming... more sianz..

awww
LOVE is in the air!!
duntell me bout the sources..
i dunwanna know..
teachers r busying preparing for the sec 4s "o"
they think sec 3 is gd now uh?
not a chance!!
dunno why but meiting n sean kept picking on some stupid qns for me to do..
recess also must stay there teach meiting..
with her stupid qns..
n stay back to make the lantern..
but hey hey hey ppl will think..
they r not on my class u see...
then if i help them means that i'm a traitor of my class.
XD maybe i'm a spy! O.O""
lols. sean got a lot of ppl like wor...
hahas.talked bout who like us..
zz. heard bout the wen wen girl again...
guilt swept pass me...
when i heard her name..
i was like, ouhk, how do they know bout the malaysian anyways?
i should lhav forgotten bout it already!
coz i written that situation out in a chinese compo...
in sec 2 i think...
n when i wrote something...
i forgot that something...
why they had to remind me..
which set me thinking...
why last time i was like constantly bulling her with my friends!!??
i hope she wasn't hurt ba...
last time saw her when taking mrt..
she's still cool, waving at me too..
kays gtg bye!

ppl r so busy in preparing for examination...
since when they r so harworking uh?
things became more n more clearer..
i shouldn't think bout her..
with him round, always give me that kind of face..
that _____ i shan't say it..
maybe it relli IS true ba..
wad the others hav telling me these days...
he relli IS that type of person..
can't he just relaxed a bit?
even i, the most insensitive person in the world.
k, i had some prejudce(dunno how to spell) against him.
BUT i wun make my emotions take control of me.
u sux.
can't chilled out yoz...
not like i was tryin' nae steal his gf likedat manz..
wad's with the gestures n ignorance?
u relli r fake...
coated in wad wad wad skin(i know my english very bad)
at least i was tryin to use wad sean use to improve its chinese!!
we sux but nvm, we got ourselves to depend on..
its time to be indepedent..
i dun need her anymore..
i think it through, but ur attitude sux.
no one's gonna steal ur girl that is.
coz there's a new her on me list.
mind you,
i'm not ur yan zhong ding(middle eye nail)
dun pick it on me fool.

gonna failed for my chem test...
just know bout it in this morning when shifu inform me..
no time to study..
duneven have the book with me
Dead, that is..

haiz...
sad sad sad larhhs..
friday hor, suai suai got diarreo(dunno how to spell)
go to toilet sibei many times!!
because of her simi rotten apple..
keep getting more n more jealous n du lan nowadays..
although i shouldn't!!! i AM forbid to!
time limit is gaining on me..
the exams is round the corner..
n all i do is to stand by n look at it coming..
english, hmm, 9more days uh?
seems like no test at all to me..
n npcc that day worhx.
not feeling well ma still..
ask me to do tedious things..
could they as least lessen my workload a bit?
wad if i was gone?
wad if i leave no trace at all n flown to other countries?
wad if...?
if is always a thinking qns, not a fact.
today...
saw her walking up the bus when i came..
i was bout to miss her, going to school that late..
almost late for the change up period..
but she was still there..
disappointing maybe?
as usual, cnnt keep my eyes off her..
n watches the bus slowly grind their way out the slope.
our school is relli on low buget lorhh
hahas, then back to npcc.
should go there for some stupid service day or something..
which is also not reflected on my CCA sheet.
2 times liao..
grr, must scold her liao larhh.
actually i was only partner with a girl peiying at first..
but zhaohong say cnnt so little ppl..
in the end spilt to two groups,
each with 5+ ppl.
then ghanshiang want me in his group.
made a swop again.
then waliao, ppl scratching back hor..
mr paul tan think i was raising up hand..
volunteering myself to act like asking him some qns..
to say the truth, i was relli quite well in acting..
should have joined english club when i hav the chance..
coz last time, i thought english club got english dance,
chinese one got chinese.. misinterpret the word so didn take.

fought with my father AGAIN tonight..
dunno simi daji, he always tryin' pick a fight with me..
too bad i ain't no pushover..
talk until he sibei dulan..
then nothing to say coz i say all the dao li(destination mark)
he onli cn keep quiet..
n i talk until i no kou shui(saliva) liao hor..
he give me that gong gong face..
wa, talking to him very lang fei kou shui ok(wasting my saliva)

no one had been tagging lately..
not even my darling T.T
lols. back to some serious actions

the teachers damn stupid...
so many things forgot to include on my CCA record..
other CCA like band n dance cn easily get in 20++
i came for all the trainings,
mei gong lao ye you gu lao ok(no merit also got credit)
then they give me a pitiful mark...
pls larh, sean anyhow work also cn get like me sia..
then i check,
wah, the things not included cn filled in 5 forms!!
i was like wtf!!??
when i wrote until the 4th paper,
ppl were like begging me to stop writing..
of coz i dun listen to them..
but my memory bad, must hear Zhen Yang's written things,
how leh?
btw zhenyang also get 18 onli lorh, n ITS THE BEST FOR NPCC..
having to go for those cssp larh,
NE camp larh,
junxiang go for the national day thingy larh..
Still onli got 10++ onli wor..
NPCC like shit manz..
shouldn't hav join..
ava anyhow do also kena 10++ liao..zz
lao hu bu fa wei, dang wo shi bing mao ar?(copy frm jingyi de)
(tiger if dun act like one, worst, meow, ppl will treat it as a sick cat)
having writting down so many participation in competetion n everything,
i'm sure i cn AT LEAST score A2 for that report.
n that's gd enough for me..
20 marks i think... some day might turn down..
must think of that as well ma..

u love someone,
u must wish her to be happy...
not cursing n swearing against him..
in the dark( not me)
i'm trying to get used to it..
not to change anything al'

finally the end of my life is near...
going to EOY liao n my english is still...
-.- failing grades...
i MUST GET to sec 4..
damn u will nvr see me repeat..
ok, today is damn hell..
english teacher, angelia nvr come..
chemistry becoming doing survey...
geography was like expressway liao...
i dunno wadeva she's talking..
die liao larhh

first let's read through some mails..
TAURUS - The Tramp Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes
to give a good fight for what t hey want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to
help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A
caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most
attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
i'm 15 that's why this is so true to me.. wahh..lols

9 Words Women Use

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to
watch the game before helping around the house.
3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and
wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)
6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.
8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying F$%K YOU!
9.) Don't worry about it, I got it : Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it
herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.
this one of coz i made de..
make frm my experience towards a girl
believe it!! its SO true


life is becoming better..
well, let's dun mention my results,my books,my table k
life is better..
with friends aside me..
i think i cn better study..
with someone around watching me..
i relli need to be watched 24 hours round the clock mind ya..
learn new verbs.. humph,
when's my spelling test?
lolx. k didn copy but manage not to be scolded by Mr Oh
heng manz.. coz that time, i heard shifu's voice..
then i got the perfect answer up at the board..
has shifu gone to heaven already?
HE CN GO TO HEAVEN!!??
lols, saw shafiq n cheated him..
said that mdm is already there liao..
he scared n dun ever want to go in..
nvm lo.. his that thing will be there lo...
why cn he skip anyways? he was the one who telling me not to skip..
DARN.. F you..
lol then they talk bout a lot of jokes n stuffs..
i was about to raise hand when mdm say, 'game over'
darn darn darn.
luck's not shining but, life's winning.
i'm done.

looking at the title...
u might think this entry is damn boring..
who m i kidding? no one read entries nowadays..
nvm, today started with a bad hair day for sean..
n also, a quite all well copying week AGAIN for me..
shit, i nvr change did i not?
being with those fuckin' teachers, i think i became more...
unfairness.i felt more unfairness..
Angelia Tan, u all should know, especially when i ask meiting to bring back n do..
she got 15 where he common standards is nowhere below 18..
Celia Wong, instead of adding my marks, she actually,
minus off marks frm Elyn.waliao. n n i lost one mark because of wad know?
coz i hav no space to write the explaination of diagrams so i write below,
indicating 1) 2) n 3) but then, they minus a whole 1 mark...
i cn get the best for humantities if i want to dude..
but those jack ass just dun let me...
i feel like crying more than before..
crybaby.. haiz...
i even cried at pulau ubin... SHIT!!!
now "she" saw me cry liao..
issit relli ashamed? crying infront of ladies?

fuck-ups. now back to my story bout today..
first is chem lab training which jaslyn dunno do wad...
we got the wrong one i think.. but better than some of them anyways.
then , english which meiting got just pass. yeah, i told ya.
recess!! darling, i hate u first!!
keep sean's milo with me all day.
now its still in the freezer..
let's dun talk but maths, physics, n MT
those boring sub shall we?
oh yeah, one more thing..
SHE SUX.. HATE HER..
HE SUX.. HATE HIM..
suck-ups, better off dead u two!!
some ppl just so hard to get along manz..
i should hav become more like bernard,
n those fuckin words came out of my fcukin mouth before..
i would like to type ur name down but i wun..
IDOITS MORONS, u think u great!!?? u just better than me in some sub..
for instance, ENGLISH!!>.<
u SUX GREATLY, n everyone know u SUX.
just that they dunsay out, doesn't mean it dun exist.
Mother fucker, u r a pain in my ass.
late late late, those idoits dragging me outta nowhere..
n i cnnt believe i actually played with them..
u guys r wasting my precious time.
i demand for a refund.
those suck-ups just SUX,
ALOT.

FUCK OFF LA YOU!

the time has come..
for me to accept my destiny..
i meant the holiday has ended..
time for them to scold me lerhh..
i keept saying i will change..
i wun copy anymore...
but that doesn't entirely right..
i had been busying these days..
with stuffs u wun wanna know..
so i'm done now.. time for me to pay the price...
or should i copy again?
become the before old me?
i decided to burn midnight oil n finish it up..
hope i cn do that..

i had no expectation for tomorow...
i felt entire emptiness in my life..
now i felt..nothing

i think its time for me to grow up...
seeing others moving on to greater heights..
matured during days of hardships..
develop their own careers or interest..
knowing wad they should or wanna be..

me? i'm still the same old winson.
regardless of how many challenges i faced..
how many sufferings inflicted on me..
i m still so immature..childish..
hearing things like
"winson is the most childish person in our squad lorhh"
"if u matured i popo/ah gong liao lo"
"stop crapping winson"
"dun be lame or childish. ppl'll nvr respect u in this state"
so that's the comment i got..
continously for the past few yrs...
ppl fully live their best..
cherish their memories n moving on.
i'm still a cry baby..
fifteen but emotionally hurt...
by friends n sort..
dunwanna talk bout it..
but ppl r asking me..
digging the wound right inside me..
they were killing me..
keep talking bout her name..
keep asking me wad feelings i have for her now..
their concern r being much hurt than console..
but i told them, i'll get over her..
although "will" is a future tense..

i still holding back on my past..
perhaps i should abandoned it..
every single memories..
to have a brand new me..
a decisive, confident, successful me..
perhaps i will nvr change even when i grow old..
i'll become "lao wan tong"(childish ah gong)


problems r so irritating n i usually ran away frm it
leaving it behind while it accumulate itself..
i dunno who to trust anymore..
i dunno who's my friends..

as wad asmita say, some r just her hi,bye friends
m i her hi,bye friend as well?
relli confuse bout life..
she's like the lamp shinning through my room,
telling me the solutions for this problems..
but she's gone now.. so m i lost?
the feel of lost stinks!>.<
i feel like a child, lost in cwp...
everyone's doing their own stuffs,
no one actually ask bout who i m...
no one actually bothers...
i cried.


yesterday's a long day,
first i go to make-up lesson..
learn much more things than classes..
i'm paying attention to teacher maybe..
redzuan n the others took out the tcher's sweets..
while she's outta class to revive the computer..
maybe i should expose them of their prepostorous deeds..
well, i didn =P
asmita is relli great...
her smile can wake the dead!
laughing awake!!O.O
she's always so cheerful...
barely realise that this is the girl who cried seeing her mid-yr results..
sit with her while at bus 912..
talk bout lots of things..
hi bye friend n sort..
i was just thinking of saying something just now..
but oh well, i forgot so nvm.. xD
then i go for the terrorism thingy..
i was late becoz of that F**** mrt!!
say wad not meant for passenger? oh yeah?
i saw someone in there!..
shafiq n chaoying were later than me so nvm..
its raining heavily..
making me emo again...
in the table, didn talk much..
not like me.. heard her name..
well, that's a common name..
but zhenyang n shafiq both turned n look at me..
i was feeling sad n trying to avoid her name!!
WHY DOESN"T ANYONE UNDERTAND!!??
WHY EVEN STRANGERS HURT ME!!??
ok chill, then i stand up..
tell the fuckin' idoit
"look, somebody's tryin' na calm down here by going to this event VOLUNTARILY,
n why dude? coz he wanna work himself to death by avoiding prob"
the above weren't true..
in actually fact, i covered my head n started...
k now for the later part..
the food is quite appetising..
hmm, the questions were quite good..
god damn it..
the fat little guy ask,"there seems to be a little commotion down there"
"the guy with the deep in thought posture(me)pls if u hav any qns"
coz i was thinking to say..
"putting so many cameras in school was invading our privacy.. woodlands ring sec, my school is a GREAT example..it has camera everywhere.. but wad's the use.. theft n such crimes still occurs. wad more? student think they were being watch, a typical jail. we weren't criminals, why should we be treated like one? why would we be sort of like "serving jail term" just because of some mather fuckin' idoit who ran round stealing other ppl's things"
HOWEVER, i wasn't able to say that..
wtf, everyone was like looking at me "deep-in-thought"
i was like dead..
ok, manage to laugh off my probs..
took chaoying's free ride home..
oh yeahh(:

pictures r not now yet.,.
lazy to upload, but going to..
after i finihs my hw of coz..
dunwanna copy anymore.. just work myself to death..
death? oh yeahh i will pei ni one dunworry meiting

today...
wah, topics girls manz!! but today is exceptional..
i wun be talking bout "her once..
k i mention it AGAIN..
nvm..yesterday..got one girl ar..
frm st. nicholas girl sec hor.. wave n say gdbye to me..
she say"BYE!!WINSON!!"i was like..
excuse me do i know you? coz i was half-way through the road..
sean n meiting should know.. i jaywalk.. is relli walk one..
as if i owned the road likedat but damn sua sua no road accident((:
then i walk back again n my squadmates started crossing the road..
i followed them of coz.. n at that time..i still wondering..who called me arh?
then she say "BYE BYE WINSON!!" again.. waving her hands high up in the air..
i was like turning round n see if anyone beside me that she maybe talking to..
but there was only jiaen beside me n she's not responding..
they suddenly become very quiet as if they dunwan me to know them..
i tried to walk back up to the other side of the road while yinching stopped me
n dragged me to the other bus stop.. i decided on going back again..
then the bus came..all was like so.. immediate that i took the bus..
tough luck! The bus took a WHOLE big round..
n junchao, shafiq, n yanxiang got a taxi without our consent..
GRRR.. nvm they got $$$ i also got $$$ but dunwan to use on such..
so..i nvr actually replied the nicholas girls..
today..
again!! everyone started talking bout..
yinching flirting with the juniors n his classmates..
genliang flirting with squadmates..
n waliao.. winson flirting with STRANGERS!!??
during the lecture.. they told me "she" was looking at me..
but when i turned back.. she already.. acting very good..
perhaps i did the same in class toher too..
back to the topic..
i changed seat with jiaen..
cnnt bear to sit next..
nvm. then jiaen told me..
somebody was turning to look at her..
saw that it was not me..
n she heard a winson being called..
n great commotion going on there..
yanxiang, genliang, junchao, jiaen all heard..
couldn't all be wrong could it?
genliang wouldn't hav gang up with them to cheat me ba..
then i ask one qns..
"who is going to undress for the unconsious female victims?"
a sensitive topic but they manage to see where i m..
frm jiaen"when they saw u hor, they say norh, him him HIM"
Ouh.. i ask"they chio ma? got wear spect or not?hairstyle wad de?"
then i manage to get the following information..
1)Chio bu x)
2)didn wear spect.
3) sgt rank(higher than me x[ )
these r the onli 3..
didn get to see them again coz..
we decided to WALK to chua chu kang mrt
it was quite an ADVENTURE!! x)
got a few pic but some deleted by yanxiang n junchao..
fuckin assholes..
the pic will leave it for tomorow..
for now.. let's just settle down..
coz there's a REALLY long they tomorow for me..
night everyone!! =DDD

A lie had just been exposed yesterday night...
i cnnt believe i'm so stupid...
so foolish, idoitic...thinking my "friend" wun lie to me...
he say" he solely want to help me"
maybe if he told me the truth...
things might had gotten worst or..
he think that it might have gotten worst..
i dunblame him...
coz the stupid bloddy bastard in other words, ME
still believe in this friendship...
i still believing in it..coz i'm a loner..
i need friends but nvr get any...
i want friends..
this yearning had corrupted me to..
make my belief in friends stronger..
but he would hav to break it...
maybe this was the first time i was actually..
CHEATED!!!
i was cheated without my consent!!
i actually shi suan becoz of this belief i hav in you!!
ARGH!!
NOOOOO!..
i was like..
when i learned bout the truth, frm my sources..
i was.. no...it cn't be him.. he had no reason to..
but at last..he admit it himself..
i cnnt believe it!..
ok, i'm sort of losing myself here..
so was it that u ask me things..
so was it that u concern bout me all of a sudden..
all beczuse of guilty consious in urself!!??
of u r reading this post..
i dunrelli blame you..
instead i thank you for "solely trying to help me"
u did something right..
keep it up!..
n.. dun make her sad..
or else i dun fang guo ni..
she's happy, i'm fine.



stupid police knowledge today..
fuckin bitch, FUCK OFF!..
wah she's damn idoit..
n hor the stupid sir hor..
i cnnt open the door he say like"you nvr eat rice issit?(chinese)"
mother fucker..
then when he , "try" to open for me..
he was like using his full strength..
i saw his jaws dripped open..
later i say..nvm la..
n open the door for HIM
"thanks anyways, 'but i think u nvr eat enough rice"
ps:i eaten 3 servings of rice today..he dare say?
waahahhahas

I feel so alone..
no one's there to accompany me..
lessen my painfulness..
my mind is in a whirl..
just by looking at you..
walking off my sight..
drops of tears ran down my cheeks..
from that moment..
i realised, understand, learned..
my life is nvr complete without you...
i still cnnt straightened my thinkings out..
even now, my thoughts r being polluted by you...
i still got a mindset that..
even the sky falls,
even earth crumbles..
that instance, my thoughts were only of you..
i cnnt stop myself anymore..
but wad cn i do?
i'm willing to do anything...
but wad's the right thing?
should i keep straightening out my thinking?
before i even friend you?
or should i annouced...
frm this day onwards, i'll start wooing you?
or should i just keep quiet...
as a stupid person in school...
who have no friends...
a loner..?
or should i friend you?
n in return secretly loving you?
or should i make myself even better...
study harder..
getting better grades than anyone..
having qualified to love u openly?
or should i dunstand in ur way..
give you my blessings n walk away?


i dare not wish forever..
i just want one minute..
i just want you for one minute..


the death of one is the born of another..
perhaps, life IS likedat..
perhaps this is fated..
perhaps, i was fated to bear these pain..
i dun blame you, actually..

recieved a sad news..
i'm so sad..
i wanna cry..
no one's here for mee...
maybe, that's the best ending for us..
maybe..
we will meet other ppl better
maybe this is all fate..
maybe we will learn something from this..
maybe,
life's not just bout games n stuffs



every beginning has an end
n this marks the end

You ready?! Lets go!
Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about
It's like this y'all (c'mon!)

[Chorus]
This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

Mike! - He doesn't need his name up in lights
He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic
He feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him
But fuck em, he knows the code
It's not about the salary
It's all about reality and making some noise
Makin the story - makin sure his clique stays up
That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin it up! let's go!

Who the hell is he anyway?
He never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leavin them star struck
Humbled through opportunities given to him despite the fact
That many misjudge him because he makes a livin from writin raps
Put it together himself, now the picture connects
Never askin for someone's help, to get some respect
He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach
And now when it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

It's just twenty percent skill
Eighty percent beer
Be one hundred percent clear cause Ryu is ill
Who would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flames
And I heard him wreckin with The Crystal Method, "Name Of The Game"
Came back dropped Megadef, took em to church
I like bleach man, why you have the stupidest verse?
This dude is the truth, now everybody be givin him guest spots
His stock's through the roof I heard he fuckin with S. Dot!

[Chorus]

They call him Ryu The Sick
And he's spittin fire with Mike
Got him out the dryer he's hot
Found him in Fort Minor with Tak
Been a fuckin annihilist porcupine
He's a prick, he's a cock
The type woman want to be with, and rappers hope he get shot
Eight years in the makin, patiently waitin to blow
Now the record with Shinoda's takin over the globe
He's got a partner in crime, his shit is equally dope
You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

Tak! - He's not your everyday on the block
He knows how to work with what he's got
Makin his way to the top
People think its a common owners name
People keep askin him was it given at birth
Or does it stand for an acronym?
No he's livin proof, Got him rockin the booth
He'll get you buzzin quicker than a shot of vodka with juice
Him and his crew are known around as one of the best
Dedicated to what they doin give a hundred percent

Forget Mike - Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard
It seems like he's never got time
Because he writes every note and he writes every line
And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind
It's like a design is written in his head every time
Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme
And those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed?
Ridiculous, without even trying, how do they do it?!

[Chorus - repeat 2x]

[Outro - Mike Shinoda]
Yeah! Fort Minor
M. Shinoda - Styles of Beyond
Ryu! Takbir! Machine Shop!

hey guys,
first thing first...
we had the bloody netball...
with the fat round aisah running round in circles...
tha jia li hai one bealy manage to scores goals but she still did..
suprisingly as at first half, as soon as she hold's the ball...
WITHOUT slipping the ball off away from her hands again(slippery maybeor the ball dunlike her)....
it marks the end of the first half...
that whelan more pro!! hahas, at least she got zi zhi zhi ming...
know that her skills are that lan that, cnnt even become like mrs aisah...
then it was the soccer n basketball,
which sean, meiting, sherlin n i did nothin but just blank talking at lao ngoh's suprise turnover...
maybe there's a singapore's extreme makeover which hadn't be shown in singapore maybe...
then we go to have our class party which the other class started already n poor 3e2...
want to wait for mdm chong n mr oh before we cn da chi yi dun...
Are we a bunch of morons or a loyal n faithful class?
well, i gotta admit, genius n fools were only one line apart...
but i still like the class!!!(: as i prefer to think oursellves as loyal n faithful...
since i m famished, i grab some food frm all the classes our there...
which my class r very unhappy about...
promoting 3/3's food i guess..hahas
then it was the runaway ms low..
where the game instruction was to find her N jeremy see N mr paul tan
jeremy n paul tan were easy, not even a challenge...
but miss low was damn difficult...
espically i was handling with miss low's present while running high n low to look for her...
tough luck... we ran all round the school after sean's friend told him she's in the staff room...
We cleared the game!!! no sweat dudes n babes,
i hardly use my one percent!
now for the concert which maiting went running about for her things...
RELAXED MISS WOON!!! THE THINGS R WITH MEEEE!!!!!!!
n she set's off crying like hell...
while sabrina said another..."i hate eu first ar! n i know u love me" again
since when this become our good morning phrases?
i kinda like it btw...
wakao, the concert was damn long...\
i was like waiting for power rangers to showed up but then..
power rangers turns out to be mr siva...
oppes! student visa...want the credit card visa? yes he's promoting that..
n D.L, Jack Chong, Mrs Kok, n wadeva wadeva...
cnnt believe it!!my testi were actually right up there!!
dunno what the hell m i thinking out n wad have i written there...
its something good i hope...
sean n meiting was you yu bu jue when i influence their mind wtih black acid...
finally, they were completely influence n agreed to runaway with me...
we made our getaway, 12.46 SHARP!
the two security guards were there guarding...
Ready...All set...GOOOOooooooo!!!! n we made our escaped!!!
the bus come so fast until i duneven have time to say cheese...
everything was happening so fast n bomb! the bus closed its fuckin door...
we r safe...for NOW....
my commrades, siqi, Andy, xiaoting, n leixin were waiting for me there...
saw many ppl... richard, lynn, wen hui, her yun, katherine, yao zou, jeff, n sumo
yeah still good with them but they seemed...small..compared to the past..
i grown!!wahahahastaller than them wor...
Alot of them smoke now...
zhaohong came late..cn see the gate closing btw....
n constantly meeting sherlin in causeway...
i end off...

am i asking too much?
i dunno anymore...
anyway there's nothing wrong with today....
just that some feelings came back again...
just thinking about it...
i dun relli have any friends i could talk to...
yeahh, i'm still Loner Dude eh?
i n her had nothing to say to each other...
that's wad i observed...
n dunwan to change bout...
Mother tongue lesson...
ok, i saw yesterday..when i was sabotaged by the tacher herself..
dunno why suddenly say out my name n make a role ...
change roles from reading the story to an uncle...
coz she think my voice is more suitable for it...
had i change or had the other ppl change?
i mean, what's with all the ignorance i get dudes?
nvm.. PE... nothing much..
just looking at...something...coz teacher nvr give specified instruction...
Maths, changing set to sitting more...
towards her...
still didn say anything...
lastly, got out results back...
n its bad, Bad, BAd, BAD!!!!
fucking bad u know...
failed english AGAIN!!
Grr... but i win a lot! of ppl ok.....
next time i will fo a LOT BETTER
power rangers GO!!

just some pictures to label about myself-.-:

basically nothing much happened today...
yeah stay back withh meiting,
eating with bryan,
sabrina saying"i know u love me" to me,
tonnes n tonnes of homeworks,
looking at her secretly,
sating back for npcc,
took photos((:
BUT there's one important thingy that need urgent attention!!
zhaohong say something today which most of my squad + many many ppl agreed on....
Zhenyang's changing to a more guai lan face,
become over-serious?
lost his sense of smilez((:
n zhenyang then write a lot of things on the whiteboard...
which seems reasonable too =.=
now, the greatest problem is i m puzzled...
let's talk about my view shall we?
zhenyang....ur prority is npcc because that's wad u acheived the most
n hope to acheived better in this CCA
we r too, contributing our part to the unit
but why aren't we as serious as u n to be honest n true to myself,
most of the time i was playing down there...
the reason is purely because...
this is not the way i exceed myself in...
the most i cn do is just a good LOGISTIC..
that's the highest i cn go...the limit...
yes i'm still part of the family but then...
u know wad i'm talking right?
it isn't ur fault at all u know...
if we don't acheive well in this area...
or if that is the highest we could go...
why dun work in other areas?
think about it... ur prority is npcc,
what about ur academic part?
ur result is dropping dude...
n u had not been handing in ur work...
(ehh, maths rep here)
i agreed i dun do my work as well,
but i'm slowly changing right?
why? because i had decided to work to my academics...
(sean n meiting u two should know)
if u want to ask why ppl is not serious about npcc,
think about urself...
just because ur npcc acheivements r higher...
doesn't mean ur other areas r better...
if we could only work on one area...
why dun work on our prorities?
of course, the one we had wei zhi shu(unlimited) potential to it...
but then, we hope to do the best on both areas too
SO, we i came for npcc everytime without fail...
n u cnnt denied on the fact that i want to prove myself too...
i volunteer for the master parade thingy...
although shafiq said he want on the shooting day...
i had a chance to change...
but i want to prove myself...
too bad, i'm still not up to it...
the way i feel it...
this is ur prority...
not mine...

waliao..b'dae card for $11 or $9??!!
maybe i chooses thing too stylo le ba...
copy meiting's move...
listen to the price, walk away to the shelf...
n put it back to its original place...
not forgetting " so expensive" i walked out of the shop...
think....
wad more to buy for sean that pig!!!
somthing for him to eat le ba...
hahas he didn like to collect things anyways...
yeahh, jiu zhe yang jue ding!!


不在乎天长地久， 只在乎曾经拥有

Sabrina show the winson signal(kinda like batman)
but then nvr tell me wad i should do...
expect me to think bout it myself??
-.-
today saw her laughing...
actually its bout me...
haiz nvm...geography become tougher as the days gone by...
i'm dieing...someone help...
chaiwai teach me how to shoot...
its ok when no one's around...
but when there's someone..
i get tense..
n cnnt shoot in
T.T

these pictures r in backwards
sry for inconvient

i was tagged by shanxian....
looks fun? i shall not DO IT!!
just kidding...i also want to sabo ppl de.. xPP

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1)a handphone
2)linkin park album
3)a big soft toy i cn hug to sleep
4)just a treat to lunch
5)get 6 marks for "O"lvl

Answer the following questions :

1. The person who tag you is? Shan Xian.
2. Your relationship with him/her is? Classmate
3. Your 5 impressions of him/her? Lame....
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? O ya, invited me to betapod...
5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you? bye
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? *puke*
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? first, become a girl NATURALLY
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? do nothing
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? ehh her.
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is? pray hard
11.Your overall impression of him/her is? wearing spect. xDD
12.How you think people around you will feel about you? everything i didn think
13.The character you love of yourself are? alone at times
14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are? weakness is ur strength. strength is wad u hate the most
15.The most ideal person you want to be is? her.she's perfect
16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1)Chick
2)musfirah
3)Sabrina(language lesson!!)
4)Khairul(just want to see his lame ans n hav a laugh xDD)
5)Zhenhui
6)LeiXin
7)Sean(purposely put here xPP)
8)ZhenYang
9)Denis
10)Meiting(if she knows i'm here=.=)

17.Who is no.6[LeiXin] having relationship with? Got ma?
18.Is no.9[Denis] a male or female? Male.
19.If no.7[Sean] and 10[Mei Ting] are together, will it be a good thing? Star couple leh..of course of course!! x)
20.How about no.8[Zhen Yang] and 5[Zhen Hui]? that's a big difference in their style
21.What is no.2[musfirah] studying about? erm..bass clarinet?
22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3[Sabrina]? i do not rmb wad time but i do rmb the content! she said "i hate u first!!"
23.What kind of music band does no.8[Zhen Yang] like? Dunno.
24.Does no.1[Chick] has any siblings? no, just asked.
25.Will you woo no.3[Sabrina]? I LOVE HER!!! LOLx.. see if i hav time..hahas
26.Is no.4 single[Khairul]? seems like it
27.What's the surname of no.5[ZhenHui]? Goh?
28.What's the hobby of no.4? ehh... ava?
29.Do no.5[ZhenHui] and 9[Denis] i think they don't know each other..
30.Where is no.2[musfirah] studying at? WRSS-sian.
31.Talk something casually about no.1[Chick]? likes to go out.
32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8[Zhen Yang]? feeling of competive?YES
33.Where does no.9[Denis] live at? Singapore
34.What color does no.4[Khairul] like? dunno.. yellow ba...
35.Are no.5[Zhen Hui] and 1[Chick] best friends? no.
36.Does no.7[sean] likes no.2[musfirah]? YEAHH..as friends =.=
37.How do you get to know no.2[musfirah]? classmates on sec1
38.Does no.1[Chick] have any pets? no
39.Is no.7[Sean] the sexiest person in the world? Totally! ((:

got some pictures that will be posted tomorow((:
cya!

chaoying said that although i had changed my dm to winson
frm the word loner, i'm still as emo as before..
m i really that emo?
hahas those guys r hilarious...
although zhenyang "scolded" us...
i feel like no improvements being made...
but i will make the first move..
i promise...
chinese get 99/100
DAMN! CHAO BUSHUANG but then chaiwai jealous...
-.-go steal my carl(my calculator's nick)
n meiting today go pour the mee soto all over the place...
zz, shifu's wrong!!! meiting is not always the rubbish collector...
she could contribute to rubbish too((:
haiz, must go n do those qns she asked me...
damnit!
wah today chao special one lorhh
somebody asked why i joined np...
hmm, because of a misconsception on somebody
that's for me to know, n you to find out who she is...
now?np is like a responsibility...
when u r married, there must be a certain limit before u say...
let's divorce...
same larh!!hahas

when's ur first kiss? =x now?hahas

i feel myself being more n more zilian day by day...
-.-things aren't the same when you r around!!..
things r looking auite good now...
n i dunwish to do anything to worsen it or wadva
this is enough, now i will just have to consentrate on my studies...
its going to the red light zone!!!
english 11/30!!! damn it! failed AGAIN!
but the teacher say that my english is gd
just that i hav shrink some of the important point
by right i cn pass de...
O.O!!!!i was like shit! everytime...
ok, going to sit with wahyin again...
who knows or suspect?
haiz, childhood memories r nvr to come out
EVER AGAIN

some encouraging words...
you leave me a dream...
its mysterious yet sweet.
when i opened my eyes,
u were there just infront..
with a colourful dawn we welcomed together((:
u are nvr there again...
regardless how real it is, its just a dream
u were nvr real
wishing u were nvr gone
wishing i had no recollection of the past
wishing the ending that's nvr real

Haiz junchao n yanxiang had suceeded in
making me tired like hell
so i will just let pictures do the talking for me.
so, first of all,
pictures(:

geography is damn difficult...
although i have ALL the QUESTIONS
but i still no confidence...
cry ba...cry ba...
sabrina keep saying i hate euu today...
ok, maybe a lot of times recently..
why nvr say i love you? LOLx hahas
I WANT TO TALK LIKE HER!!!T.T
Parade commander!!!
wahhahas
but cnnt seems to get the badge onto it...
n nobody seems to care bout it anyways..
sorry bout that genliang...
dunno why always did harm to genliang de...
rmb one time, i also fall on genliang's head...
n a lot more...but genliang is such a good person...
that's why he is made the vice-chairperson
overall is quite gd larh...
actually go infront n get the badge for 2 times leh..
nobody care bout me...

DAMNIT!!!!
ANGELIA TAN SAY MY SUMMARY IS ONE OF THE WORST!!!!
now u see the point of so "hardworking" every single day?
i mustn't fail liao lorhh
2 failures!!!!
1C!!!!
1B!!!!
the rest all unknown but then...
wish me gd luck on coming geography...
i pray hard that the result for those unknowns
were not that bad cn liao...
if i make through this stage...
i meant the sec 3
i sure chiong n maybe, out of 100%
i hav 0.0001% chance of going to same poly or JC
WADEVA IT IS, its my dream for now...
if i cn met zhaohong so many times...
since i know her until our parents knew each other...
I WILL DO THE SAME!!! to her lah (not zhaohong hor just an example=.=)
i will chiong so hard in these days until u will start asking...
"R u possessed?", "Yes, i'm"
"Wah! u got fever?", "no, a normal sickness"
"have u gone bonkers?", "Yes, n uhh, no, this for ya to decide"
lastly...
i will do as well on my NPCC career
BE tough, n a NEW life will be formed...
the stakes r TOO big..
to me so, GET OVER IT!!
N START STUDYING!!!
wish me luck!^^

this post is rated as R21~~!!! for gross
pls leave if u r unwell or wadsoever
my notebook

pictures?
maybe tomorow ar..
oh damn!!i relli want to thank one person...
who is u-know-who-r-u, for making that chance for me...
i'm still a shy chap, afraid to open up my mouth to her...
n damn u finally make some gd use of ur mouth dude...
she is damn beautiful as ever...
n using the same casual tone i heard more than halfyear ago...
things CAN be wad they used to...
i started to believe in fairtales once again...
hope tomorow cn be the same...
To "someone who's name is not to be said":sorry but ya all's secret is out...
n thanks to meiting...
n "thank" much dude, for making my the parade commander in my casual remark..
but i'm sure my only hope, zhaohong,
will not give in my the lights of you, young innocent boy...
i will letcha know, i've my limits too...
there's no limiting reactant...
if that's correct, i will be the only one correct in my class...
in class 3-1 n 3-2 perhaps xDD
but it will nvr happen coz highly possible, its wrong x(
i cn be a good parade commander too!
just that i dunwan to..
n my laugh control...
omg...



i hope things r the same...
just like how today u treated me..
n that feeling will nvr change...
forever
*pray*pray*

phrase of the day:Lonliness is a Way of Life
T.T no one wanna go out with me...
oh it was sad...oh it was sad...
it was sad when no one goes out
with winson...
oh it was sad...oh it was sad...
it was sad when no one goes out...
with winson
to cure is fragile heart n lonely heart
it was sad when no one goes out
saw junjie's msg n i was like at least before got right?
i nvr have such treatment before ...
cnnt dun go out...
stay home sure die one...
serious ok...
although it may not seems like i'm a loner..
to some extent...
well, u guys r wrong to the edge dudes
things aren't wad it seems to be...
wad it should be like...
things r always opposites..
i'm done.
when u say anything, i say ok.
when u r sad, i cheer u up.
what have u done for me...

Phrase of the day: A new life will be borned for every deaths
from today onwards i will be promoting my PHRASES OF THE DAY!!!
things i learn everyday...self reflect towards it...
zhenyang isn't perfect...
everything does hav its flaws...
so that makes competition against many many things...
coz they weren't perfect...
today first time trying jumping frm storey 1
1st floor is quite high if u intend to look down...
things aren't so calm anymore...
but i still jump...
maybe i will die, maybe i wun...
haiz who cares...
but i didn, phew...
i think i broke my legs...
i was covered with bruises, wounds n all
but i seems sastified by the physical suffering that could in turn
lessen my emotional sufferings...
now i know, emotional sufferings r much much worse...
how r these true when i saw it before...
how ppl cried n cried...
n why someone uses penknife to cut their hands n things like that...
i didn feel any painess overall...
maybe these two pains r two sides of the same coin...
n now that there are balanced...
i felt more free that i ever could be...
wad m i thinking when i was juping down...
the feeling, nvr disappear...
when i landed on my 2 feets...
which were unable to support me as i fell,
HARD to the ground...
i feel alone...
feel helpless.
perhaps, a new life will be borned...
by the death of me...
the insignificant me..

my maths result...
its horrible...
the worst i had ever seen...
dunthink that u saw me like duncare...
*slapped* ARgh..time to wake up!!
i want to study liao larh!!!
n u all r going to help me...
control me...
my motivation:
i want to be someone
who is qualified to tell her i love her
i want to be someone
who she could be proud of...
i want to be someone
she dreamed of...
that's why, i want to be perfect.
my mission:
stated there
my vision:
a responsible, resilience n selfless individuals
LOLx
but its something like that x.x

u guys are going to control me...
nagging me to study...
coz i want you to...
in this moment, this time!!
i sincerely thank you if u listen to this post...
n tell me to study...
coz onli me...
i couldn't hav done it alone...
there's too much obstacles along the way...
pls guys...

one more thing...
my enemies n family...
had been saying that i'm hateful...
m i relli that hateful?
i also want you all to help me reflect...
pls! be my mirror...
then i cn see myself...
see wad more i cn improve on...

i m serious now...
no more joking round, i tell myself...
let's be zhenyang the second..
my role model...
i must work towards it!!
N overcome it!!!
be better than him!!!
that makes him not just my "role model"
but "rival" as well
watch out dudes!

OMG!!!!
it is either i m crazy or i'm madly in love...
almost in everyday...
she appeared on my dream...
n speaking to me like always before....
so i nvr ever forget bout her before ain't i?
it has been so long...
so long since i had a dream that as always, appeared right infront on my very eyes..
the REALITY, FOR TONS OF MONTHS....
n i think this dream isn't going to come true neither...
maybe i wouldn't even lived to see it happen..
situation is like so bad until i think i cnnt be salvage..
wad is gone is gone...
just live with no regrets...
let's talk bout today..
i online at 2am while no one is onlining..
except james which did nothing but just online...
nvr reply somemore...
aiya, xi guan jiu hao..
msg Elyn, which seems like she's asleep as well,
realised someone giv me a gdnight message..
thanks ya!
meiting called me so early in the morning...
just to ask me wear what to school...
why dun ask her precious btw?
LOLz
then today..NPCC all gather there liaos...
when i realise I'M LATE!!!
DAMMIT!!nvr polish boots, nvr season berri n just dash out of my house...
the UG ppl r there already...
everyone looked as prepared except for me
the gong gong one derre...
mdm chong come jun chao faster run...
waliao i sore throat leh..
morning sickness mahx...
later larry say the command...
n yes, we were sortta forget bout it liao...
marching in...
i m very afraid,
but also very excited n elated...
couldn't help myself but to laugh...
i hav no fear of the crowds...
the thing i fear most...
is myself n her...
i dunwan to show the pathetic face of mine towards her...
i dunwan her to feel remorse or wadeva...
i want her to feel the feeling we hav like last time...
things aren't too bad after all...
i still whisper...
That's for sure!
my confidence is slowing picking up on me..
NO PROBLEM AR!!!
hahas
then was the "concert"
first was the bay ambassadors...
saw her but then...
my eyes..
just look at her all time round...
she was amazing...
much much better than whoever that's at the stage...
i m totally memerise..
BUT WHY did they PUT her in the BACK??
middle back somemore...
i almost cnnt see her...
pls larh...not like she very tall like that know...
the others i duncare...
ELDDS maybe a little...
i mean...
why that could get the champion?
if i act how?
n there were people MUCH MUCH BETTER than me...
which means to say that there were like 100 maybe?
better than theirs...
all joined different CCA?
cnnt be wad...
nvm...then she moved out again..
for the stand up for singapore?
when the songs goes all the way to stand up...
everyone jump...
she also jump...
i m still recalling her action...
nvm later u all say i pervert how..
then follow shifu to causeway..
Ms Low nvr treat me...
BIASED!...
why shifu cn i cnnt?
i dunsee how shifu help leh?
then why she nvr tall me to help?
almost forgot...
hurray for the blog that has been entered 1000hits!!
thanks for all ur support!!(=
i relli sincerely ty
=.=
i still...

things weren't the same...
but my feelings nvr change..
just like the situation...
it will nvr EVER change.

let's talk bout thursday...
still dun manage to tell her bout the song...
my group with james..just behind her..
n james tell me to go nearer to him..
does he know wad he is talking bout?
i think he doesn't
mdm chong nvr come..
so there copying homework^^
the last last last last last last week homework...
e-maths?yyeeaaahhh ^^
then farhan, elyn, elizabeth, sufiyan stayed behind
elyn forget to bring home e-maths book..
oh hor....
then farhan, 3-1 one, sufiyan use the fire extingushier
blast on the rubbish bin n the sufiyan's bag
now FULL with yellow powder..
that time i'm with my phone..
should hav took some pictures while i hav the chance..
LOLs

Stupid idoit blogger...
or should it have been my father...

IDOIT!!!

go delete my posts...

yesterday's post was bascially bout the conflict...

n u know my kind is i would not repeat myself...

so too bad...

my father beat me up AGAIN TODAY

for not WIPING MY FEET??

n BEAT ME UP WHILE I WAS NAKED??

(coz just came out frm bath ma)

wad the hell is this??

ok, investiture was totally boring...

talking bout jeremy's "love life" with her u-know-who

as we r teaching wee feng wad's love like?

stupid right?hahas
many ppl disagree with the teachers picking...
Oh YEAH i'm one of them!
although it doesn't seems that way but
i'm not cool with that arrangement
i could have done better n some just totally sux to the core..
i hav no IDEA who i hate....
why i'm not up there uh?
any reasons?Grrr...
n everyone started comparing their position since then...
i'm just a "commoncer"
so this things r not for the hell shit me...
n i forgot to take A-maths txtbk frm np room
go up to the staff n find mdm chong..
but the thing doesn seems lkike its working.,..
CHEAP SCHOOL
n i ended up playing the pressing thngy
while later i found out that it still works
n no one wanted to reply me?
Ms Chew came out n gave me "the eye"
oh shit, i want to pee...
mdm chong came out later n tey r gone...
yanxiang n junchao play with my bag...
forcing me to go home with them...
ran away with my bag n i didn chase them...
they say i should have chased
n i'm wasting their time??!!
wad the fuck?!
Today:
yeah she is so attractive today...
AS USUAL...
n hor..saw her teeling shanxian to send her ther runaway song..
she said is the i want to runaway de..
he send huishin de...
i know that song ok...
why dun she ask me??!!
i finally managed to forced out its from linkin park-runaway
everyone' back on their chairs..
m i that so detestful?
failed my physics test by 0.5 marks...
wtf??!
first time failing but seems so comfortable...
shifu got 6 n he's like sleeping there...
Elyn when she took back the paper...
9!!! n she's there laughing like siao...
this fail until xi guan de ren...
grr...
she's staying back but wat to do??!! got air pistol...
better liaos..from 14 marks to 24 marks...((:
the best in the NCOs =DD
but then...i finally know how to
aim while i got the last shot on the black part...
which's 9 marks n the best is 10...
k, better better luk next time...
everyone shut up when i shoot...
zz
calisa owed me $10
dunno enought for them or not...
onli got $40 with me that time larrh...
so long nvr talk this way to her ler...
oh i feel so BLESSED =DD
despite beaten to a pulp by HIM x_X
spoiled my mood...
but not gd enough xDD

Now to update my days of suffering for these 4 days...
which includes, today too O.O
(everything is directly taken from the dairy,
some parts r changed or removed due to the censorship license.
sorry for any inconveniece caused)
(handwritten by blood)Day 1:
dear dairy,
everybody in the class were asked to carry their chairs to the hall for the student leaders investiture...
"she"s in it ok...
n wad the hell, i'm imitating sean's handwriting
n mr Oh showed us a sketchpad to make our houses one..
would LOVEE to see hers someday
pack n checked our bags...
prepared to go to Pulau Ubin.
dunno wad i will gain from this trip...
my heart is filled with anxiety n curosity...
some kinda sad feelings merge to my vunerable heart...
i missing her....
took the boat..
mmmm..longing to sail the sea once again.
cn't believe i'm actually thinking of mengting that time=P
she once braved the stormy seas with me...
shouting n argueing at me...
of coz, also with other pairs if they wanted to disrupt our fight
bickering trip, but was fun(=
i walk all the way at the front,
begining to bring back memories of the routes i needed to take..
every step, a new meaning came to me..
on the way there, jia tian explained to us some of weird phenomenon,
which gain lots of infomation to my general knowlege..
reached there, we began to seperate to our own grouping.
i'm with junxiang, which will onli stay half day due to bay ambassador
he was no fun, as i walk up n talk to the others from jurong east schools
dunno them but managed to make them laugh n diaox=P
pitch tent wasn't an easy task...
my group mambers r all so gong gong..
i didn learn campcraft also better than them..
the CIs there made us do like bout 50+ pumping becoz of the time limit..
n those stupid ppl for not counting the logistic properly
finally get to change tent..
mine was group 6,
but i slept with group 1...
its not very good...becoz they told me my actions were cute..
like sean, these r not compliments...
got a lot of nickname as soon as i go there...
wad cutie larh, fighter larhh, n someone called me darling =.=
camp songs n stupid...
the flea fly missed out the part where we sang the songs of buddism,
when someone died...
btw...the camp group sux..
coz u know why, the ppl were shouting such like they were buasong
i thought why they bu shuang..
coz they were suppose to keep te camp spirit, not destroyed it...
especially u, "lady"
after a long day, finally get to sleep..
dunno how mani push up i'd done but then,
forgot all bout it=P
Gd nightez,
i couldn't missed my sleep..
looking at the moon, i'm missing her
End~

Day 2:
woke up every early to do PT...
someone woke me up coz i sleep quite well xP
insects bits were common but i cnnt believe they actually could pass through the clothes accessories,
sucking my blood..
leaving behind tiny holes n bloods over it...
just great...
Zhaohong, Junchao, Yanxiang, not forgetting me were the casuality of th day..
All of them think i was just fooling round...
ALL OF 'EM!O.O
too bad...
coz we were doing sit up, jumping jags, clutches, push up etc.
AT THE WET MUD
wth, i want to womit mans...
hurry up n run liao larhh
nxt activity, rafting...
Yanxiang's raft was too weak...
that's why gotten pushed down by the waves..
i was one of the first going rafting...
coz i was sitting on the spa, i cnnt balance myself n kept on falling..
learn bout a new girl in the process...
Amanda gal...
then was the wet weather activity as it starts to rain...
we were told to design n make a stretcher,
mutipurpose 1, Yanxiang's VS mine again
i win lar of coz...
i kept on talking craps while one of the CI called the gal who called me darling,
zhiqi i think, ask us wad we do in the night...
omg...pls larh//u instuctor leh...
become 'famous' there lorhh
the game was fun, but dun mux me wif her...
she's oklarhh
look like one of the harry potter's charactor..
no, not hermionie
the ministry of education...
the one who be the new prinicipal that one...
not that she's that bad ok just that,
she looks bout 60% like larhh
stupid CI..hahahs
zhaohong cried!!??
she's ok when i asked her..
fine then...ya shared food with zhenyang n yanxiang..
milo maggie mee...smells great!!

Day 3:
the ppl were quite done liao..
now for the centry duty
their english i sure all fail one...
all pronouce wrongly de...
one very fun de lorhh
but forget...haiz..
coz going home liao wad...
those ppl so no strength...
peg also cnnt pulled out...
get out of that sickening face..
called my "darling" darling..
LOL
then HOME!!(=

will be psting ttoday in tmr..
coz connection failed..
see ya