just some pictures to label about myself-.-:

basically nothing much happened today...
yeah stay back withh meiting,
eating with bryan,
sabrina saying"i know u love me" to me,
tonnes n tonnes of homeworks,
looking at her secretly,
sating back for npcc,
took photos((:
BUT there's one important thingy that need urgent attention!!
zhaohong say something today which most of my squad + many many ppl agreed on....
Zhenyang's changing to a more guai lan face,
become over-serious?
lost his sense of smilez((:
n zhenyang then write a lot of things on the whiteboard...
which seems reasonable too =.=
now, the greatest problem is i m puzzled...
let's talk about my view shall we?
zhenyang....ur prority is npcc because that's wad u acheived the most
n hope to acheived better in this CCA
we r too, contributing our part to the unit
but why aren't we as serious as u n to be honest n true to myself,
most of the time i was playing down there...
the reason is purely because...
this is not the way i exceed myself in...
the most i cn do is just a good LOGISTIC..
that's the highest i cn go...the limit...
yes i'm still part of the family but then...
u know wad i'm talking right?
it isn't ur fault at all u know...
if we don't acheive well in this area...
or if that is the highest we could go...
why dun work in other areas?
think about it... ur prority is npcc,
what about ur academic part?
ur result is dropping dude...
n u had not been handing in ur work...
(ehh, maths rep here)
i agreed i dun do my work as well,
but i'm slowly changing right?
why? because i had decided to work to my academics...
(sean n meiting u two should know)
if u want to ask why ppl is not serious about npcc,
think about urself...
just because ur npcc acheivements r higher...
doesn't mean ur other areas r better...
if we could only work on one area...
why dun work on our prorities?
of course, the one we had wei zhi shu(unlimited) potential to it...
but then, we hope to do the best on both areas too
SO, we i came for npcc everytime without fail...
n u cnnt denied on the fact that i want to prove myself too...
i volunteer for the master parade thingy...
although shafiq said he want on the shooting day...
i had a chance to change...
but i want to prove myself...
too bad, i'm still not up to it...
the way i feel it...
this is ur prority...
not mine...

waliao..b'dae card for $11 or $9??!!
maybe i chooses thing too stylo le ba...
copy meiting's move...
listen to the price, walk away to the shelf...
n put it back to its original place...
not forgetting " so expensive" i walked out of the shop...
think....
wad more to buy for sean that pig!!!
somthing for him to eat le ba...
hahas he didn like to collect things anyways...
yeahh, jiu zhe yang jue ding!!


不在乎天长地久， 只在乎曾经拥有

Sabrina show the winson signal(kinda like batman)
but then nvr tell me wad i should do...
expect me to think bout it myself??
-.-
today saw her laughing...
actually its bout me...
haiz nvm...geography become tougher as the days gone by...
i'm dieing...someone help...
chaiwai teach me how to shoot...
its ok when no one's around...
but when there's someone..
i get tense..
n cnnt shoot in
T.T

these pictures r in backwards
sry for inconvient

i was tagged by shanxian....
looks fun? i shall not DO IT!!
just kidding...i also want to sabo ppl de.. xPP

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1)a handphone
2)linkin park album
3)a big soft toy i cn hug to sleep
4)just a treat to lunch
5)get 6 marks for "O"lvl

Answer the following questions :

1. The person who tag you is? Shan Xian.
2. Your relationship with him/her is? Classmate
3. Your 5 impressions of him/her? Lame....
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? O ya, invited me to betapod...
5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you? bye
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? *puke*
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? first, become a girl NATURALLY
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? do nothing
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? ehh her.
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is? pray hard
11.Your overall impression of him/her is? wearing spect. xDD
12.How you think people around you will feel about you? everything i didn think
13.The character you love of yourself are? alone at times
14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are? weakness is ur strength. strength is wad u hate the most
15.The most ideal person you want to be is? her.she's perfect
16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1)Chick
2)musfirah
3)Sabrina(language lesson!!)
4)Khairul(just want to see his lame ans n hav a laugh xDD)
5)Zhenhui
6)LeiXin
7)Sean(purposely put here xPP)
8)ZhenYang
9)Denis
10)Meiting(if she knows i'm here=.=)

17.Who is no.6[LeiXin] having relationship with? Got ma?
18.Is no.9[Denis] a male or female? Male.
19.If no.7[Sean] and 10[Mei Ting] are together, will it be a good thing? Star couple leh..of course of course!! x)
20.How about no.8[Zhen Yang] and 5[Zhen Hui]? that's a big difference in their style
21.What is no.2[musfirah] studying about? erm..bass clarinet?
22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3[Sabrina]? i do not rmb wad time but i do rmb the content! she said "i hate u first!!"
23.What kind of music band does no.8[Zhen Yang] like? Dunno.
24.Does no.1[Chick] has any siblings? no, just asked.
25.Will you woo no.3[Sabrina]? I LOVE HER!!! LOLx.. see if i hav time..hahas
26.Is no.4 single[Khairul]? seems like it
27.What's the surname of no.5[ZhenHui]? Goh?
28.What's the hobby of no.4? ehh... ava?
29.Do no.5[ZhenHui] and 9[Denis] i think they don't know each other..
30.Where is no.2[musfirah] studying at? WRSS-sian.
31.Talk something casually about no.1[Chick]? likes to go out.
32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8[Zhen Yang]? feeling of competive?YES
33.Where does no.9[Denis] live at? Singapore
34.What color does no.4[Khairul] like? dunno.. yellow ba...
35.Are no.5[Zhen Hui] and 1[Chick] best friends? no.
36.Does no.7[sean] likes no.2[musfirah]? YEAHH..as friends =.=
37.How do you get to know no.2[musfirah]? classmates on sec1
38.Does no.1[Chick] have any pets? no
39.Is no.7[Sean] the sexiest person in the world? Totally! ((:

got some pictures that will be posted tomorow((:
cya!

chaoying said that although i had changed my dm to winson
frm the word loner, i'm still as emo as before..
m i really that emo?
hahas those guys r hilarious...
although zhenyang "scolded" us...
i feel like no improvements being made...
but i will make the first move..
i promise...
chinese get 99/100
DAMN! CHAO BUSHUANG but then chaiwai jealous...
-.-go steal my carl(my calculator's nick)
n meiting today go pour the mee soto all over the place...
zz, shifu's wrong!!! meiting is not always the rubbish collector...
she could contribute to rubbish too((:
haiz, must go n do those qns she asked me...
damnit!
wah today chao special one lorhh
somebody asked why i joined np...
hmm, because of a misconsception on somebody
that's for me to know, n you to find out who she is...
now?np is like a responsibility...
when u r married, there must be a certain limit before u say...
let's divorce...
same larh!!hahas

when's ur first kiss? =x now?hahas

i feel myself being more n more zilian day by day...
-.-things aren't the same when you r around!!..
things r looking auite good now...
n i dunwish to do anything to worsen it or wadva
this is enough, now i will just have to consentrate on my studies...
its going to the red light zone!!!
english 11/30!!! damn it! failed AGAIN!
but the teacher say that my english is gd
just that i hav shrink some of the important point
by right i cn pass de...
O.O!!!!i was like shit! everytime...
ok, going to sit with wahyin again...
who knows or suspect?
haiz, childhood memories r nvr to come out
EVER AGAIN

some encouraging words...
you leave me a dream...
its mysterious yet sweet.
when i opened my eyes,
u were there just infront..
with a colourful dawn we welcomed together((:
u are nvr there again...
regardless how real it is, its just a dream
u were nvr real
wishing u were nvr gone
wishing i had no recollection of the past
wishing the ending that's nvr real

Haiz junchao n yanxiang had suceeded in
making me tired like hell
so i will just let pictures do the talking for me.
so, first of all,
pictures(:

geography is damn difficult...
although i have ALL the QUESTIONS
but i still no confidence...
cry ba...cry ba...
sabrina keep saying i hate euu today...
ok, maybe a lot of times recently..
why nvr say i love you? LOLx hahas
I WANT TO TALK LIKE HER!!!T.T
Parade commander!!!
wahhahas
but cnnt seems to get the badge onto it...
n nobody seems to care bout it anyways..
sorry bout that genliang...
dunno why always did harm to genliang de...
rmb one time, i also fall on genliang's head...
n a lot more...but genliang is such a good person...
that's why he is made the vice-chairperson
overall is quite gd larh...
actually go infront n get the badge for 2 times leh..
nobody care bout me...

DAMNIT!!!!
ANGELIA TAN SAY MY SUMMARY IS ONE OF THE WORST!!!!
now u see the point of so "hardworking" every single day?
i mustn't fail liao lorhh
2 failures!!!!
1C!!!!
1B!!!!
the rest all unknown but then...
wish me gd luck on coming geography...
i pray hard that the result for those unknowns
were not that bad cn liao...
if i make through this stage...
i meant the sec 3
i sure chiong n maybe, out of 100%
i hav 0.0001% chance of going to same poly or JC
WADEVA IT IS, its my dream for now...
if i cn met zhaohong so many times...
since i know her until our parents knew each other...
I WILL DO THE SAME!!! to her lah (not zhaohong hor just an example=.=)
i will chiong so hard in these days until u will start asking...
"R u possessed?", "Yes, i'm"
"Wah! u got fever?", "no, a normal sickness"
"have u gone bonkers?", "Yes, n uhh, no, this for ya to decide"
lastly...
i will do as well on my NPCC career
BE tough, n a NEW life will be formed...
the stakes r TOO big..
to me so, GET OVER IT!!
N START STUDYING!!!
wish me luck!^^

this post is rated as R21~~!!! for gross
pls leave if u r unwell or wadsoever
my notebook

pictures?
maybe tomorow ar..
oh damn!!i relli want to thank one person...
who is u-know-who-r-u, for making that chance for me...
i'm still a shy chap, afraid to open up my mouth to her...
n damn u finally make some gd use of ur mouth dude...
she is damn beautiful as ever...
n using the same casual tone i heard more than halfyear ago...
things CAN be wad they used to...
i started to believe in fairtales once again...
hope tomorow cn be the same...
To "someone who's name is not to be said":sorry but ya all's secret is out...
n thanks to meiting...
n "thank" much dude, for making my the parade commander in my casual remark..
but i'm sure my only hope, zhaohong,
will not give in my the lights of you, young innocent boy...
i will letcha know, i've my limits too...
there's no limiting reactant...
if that's correct, i will be the only one correct in my class...
in class 3-1 n 3-2 perhaps xDD
but it will nvr happen coz highly possible, its wrong x(
i cn be a good parade commander too!
just that i dunwan to..
n my laugh control...
omg...



i hope things r the same...
just like how today u treated me..
n that feeling will nvr change...
forever
*pray*pray*

phrase of the day:Lonliness is a Way of Life
T.T no one wanna go out with me...
oh it was sad...oh it was sad...
it was sad when no one goes out
with winson...
oh it was sad...oh it was sad...
it was sad when no one goes out...
with winson
to cure is fragile heart n lonely heart
it was sad when no one goes out
saw junjie's msg n i was like at least before got right?
i nvr have such treatment before ...
cnnt dun go out...
stay home sure die one...
serious ok...
although it may not seems like i'm a loner..
to some extent...
well, u guys r wrong to the edge dudes
things aren't wad it seems to be...
wad it should be like...
things r always opposites..
i'm done.
when u say anything, i say ok.
when u r sad, i cheer u up.
what have u done for me...

Phrase of the day: A new life will be borned for every deaths
from today onwards i will be promoting my PHRASES OF THE DAY!!!
things i learn everyday...self reflect towards it...
zhenyang isn't perfect...
everything does hav its flaws...
so that makes competition against many many things...
coz they weren't perfect...
today first time trying jumping frm storey 1
1st floor is quite high if u intend to look down...
things aren't so calm anymore...
but i still jump...
maybe i will die, maybe i wun...
haiz who cares...
but i didn, phew...
i think i broke my legs...
i was covered with bruises, wounds n all
but i seems sastified by the physical suffering that could in turn
lessen my emotional sufferings...
now i know, emotional sufferings r much much worse...
how r these true when i saw it before...
how ppl cried n cried...
n why someone uses penknife to cut their hands n things like that...
i didn feel any painess overall...
maybe these two pains r two sides of the same coin...
n now that there are balanced...
i felt more free that i ever could be...
wad m i thinking when i was juping down...
the feeling, nvr disappear...
when i landed on my 2 feets...
which were unable to support me as i fell,
HARD to the ground...
i feel alone...
feel helpless.
perhaps, a new life will be borned...
by the death of me...
the insignificant me..

my maths result...
its horrible...
the worst i had ever seen...
dunthink that u saw me like duncare...
*slapped* ARgh..time to wake up!!
i want to study liao larh!!!
n u all r going to help me...
control me...
my motivation:
i want to be someone
who is qualified to tell her i love her
i want to be someone
who she could be proud of...
i want to be someone
she dreamed of...
that's why, i want to be perfect.
my mission:
stated there
my vision:
a responsible, resilience n selfless individuals
LOLx
but its something like that x.x

u guys are going to control me...
nagging me to study...
coz i want you to...
in this moment, this time!!
i sincerely thank you if u listen to this post...
n tell me to study...
coz onli me...
i couldn't hav done it alone...
there's too much obstacles along the way...
pls guys...

one more thing...
my enemies n family...
had been saying that i'm hateful...
m i relli that hateful?
i also want you all to help me reflect...
pls! be my mirror...
then i cn see myself...
see wad more i cn improve on...

i m serious now...
no more joking round, i tell myself...
let's be zhenyang the second..
my role model...
i must work towards it!!
N overcome it!!!
be better than him!!!
that makes him not just my "role model"
but "rival" as well
watch out dudes!

OMG!!!!
it is either i m crazy or i'm madly in love...
almost in everyday...
she appeared on my dream...
n speaking to me like always before....
so i nvr ever forget bout her before ain't i?
it has been so long...
so long since i had a dream that as always, appeared right infront on my very eyes..
the REALITY, FOR TONS OF MONTHS....
n i think this dream isn't going to come true neither...
maybe i wouldn't even lived to see it happen..
situation is like so bad until i think i cnnt be salvage..
wad is gone is gone...
just live with no regrets...
let's talk bout today..
i online at 2am while no one is onlining..
except james which did nothing but just online...
nvr reply somemore...
aiya, xi guan jiu hao..
msg Elyn, which seems like she's asleep as well,
realised someone giv me a gdnight message..
thanks ya!
meiting called me so early in the morning...
just to ask me wear what to school...
why dun ask her precious btw?
LOLz
then today..NPCC all gather there liaos...
when i realise I'M LATE!!!
DAMMIT!!nvr polish boots, nvr season berri n just dash out of my house...
the UG ppl r there already...
everyone looked as prepared except for me
the gong gong one derre...
mdm chong come jun chao faster run...
waliao i sore throat leh..
morning sickness mahx...
later larry say the command...
n yes, we were sortta forget bout it liao...
marching in...
i m very afraid,
but also very excited n elated...
couldn't help myself but to laugh...
i hav no fear of the crowds...
the thing i fear most...
is myself n her...
i dunwan to show the pathetic face of mine towards her...
i dunwan her to feel remorse or wadeva...
i want her to feel the feeling we hav like last time...
things aren't too bad after all...
i still whisper...
That's for sure!
my confidence is slowing picking up on me..
NO PROBLEM AR!!!
hahas
then was the "concert"
first was the bay ambassadors...
saw her but then...
my eyes..
just look at her all time round...
she was amazing...
much much better than whoever that's at the stage...
i m totally memerise..
BUT WHY did they PUT her in the BACK??
middle back somemore...
i almost cnnt see her...
pls larh...not like she very tall like that know...
the others i duncare...
ELDDS maybe a little...
i mean...
why that could get the champion?
if i act how?
n there were people MUCH MUCH BETTER than me...
which means to say that there were like 100 maybe?
better than theirs...
all joined different CCA?
cnnt be wad...
nvm...then she moved out again..
for the stand up for singapore?
when the songs goes all the way to stand up...
everyone jump...
she also jump...
i m still recalling her action...
nvm later u all say i pervert how..
then follow shifu to causeway..
Ms Low nvr treat me...
BIASED!...
why shifu cn i cnnt?
i dunsee how shifu help leh?
then why she nvr tall me to help?
almost forgot...
hurray for the blog that has been entered 1000hits!!
thanks for all ur support!!(=
i relli sincerely ty
=.=
i still...

things weren't the same...
but my feelings nvr change..
just like the situation...
it will nvr EVER change.

let's talk bout thursday...
still dun manage to tell her bout the song...
my group with james..just behind her..
n james tell me to go nearer to him..
does he know wad he is talking bout?
i think he doesn't
mdm chong nvr come..
so there copying homework^^
the last last last last last last week homework...
e-maths?yyeeaaahhh ^^
then farhan, elyn, elizabeth, sufiyan stayed behind
elyn forget to bring home e-maths book..
oh hor....
then farhan, 3-1 one, sufiyan use the fire extingushier
blast on the rubbish bin n the sufiyan's bag
now FULL with yellow powder..
that time i'm with my phone..
should hav took some pictures while i hav the chance..
LOLs

Stupid idoit blogger...
or should it have been my father...

IDOIT!!!

go delete my posts...

yesterday's post was bascially bout the conflict...

n u know my kind is i would not repeat myself...

so too bad...

my father beat me up AGAIN TODAY

for not WIPING MY FEET??

n BEAT ME UP WHILE I WAS NAKED??

(coz just came out frm bath ma)

wad the hell is this??

ok, investiture was totally boring...

talking bout jeremy's "love life" with her u-know-who

as we r teaching wee feng wad's love like?

stupid right?hahas
many ppl disagree with the teachers picking...
Oh YEAH i'm one of them!
although it doesn't seems that way but
i'm not cool with that arrangement
i could have done better n some just totally sux to the core..
i hav no IDEA who i hate....
why i'm not up there uh?
any reasons?Grrr...
n everyone started comparing their position since then...
i'm just a "commoncer"
so this things r not for the hell shit me...
n i forgot to take A-maths txtbk frm np room
go up to the staff n find mdm chong..
but the thing doesn seems lkike its working.,..
CHEAP SCHOOL
n i ended up playing the pressing thngy
while later i found out that it still works
n no one wanted to reply me?
Ms Chew came out n gave me "the eye"
oh shit, i want to pee...
mdm chong came out later n tey r gone...
yanxiang n junchao play with my bag...
forcing me to go home with them...
ran away with my bag n i didn chase them...
they say i should have chased
n i'm wasting their time??!!
wad the fuck?!
Today:
yeah she is so attractive today...
AS USUAL...
n hor..saw her teeling shanxian to send her ther runaway song..
she said is the i want to runaway de..
he send huishin de...
i know that song ok...
why dun she ask me??!!
i finally managed to forced out its from linkin park-runaway
everyone' back on their chairs..
m i that so detestful?
failed my physics test by 0.5 marks...
wtf??!
first time failing but seems so comfortable...
shifu got 6 n he's like sleeping there...
Elyn when she took back the paper...
9!!! n she's there laughing like siao...
this fail until xi guan de ren...
grr...
she's staying back but wat to do??!! got air pistol...
better liaos..from 14 marks to 24 marks...((:
the best in the NCOs =DD
but then...i finally know how to
aim while i got the last shot on the black part...
which's 9 marks n the best is 10...
k, better better luk next time...
everyone shut up when i shoot...
zz
calisa owed me $10
dunno enought for them or not...
onli got $40 with me that time larrh...
so long nvr talk this way to her ler...
oh i feel so BLESSED =DD
despite beaten to a pulp by HIM x_X
spoiled my mood...
but not gd enough xDD