today, Atikah snatched my seat....Grrrr....most importantly, i cnnt open the DVD disk bryan send me...becoz i dunhav the programme...Grrr...
ok, things started out when i copy yanqin's homework...she still laugh at my jokes that's for sure...n bijie...she's not feeling well??talking to girls again..any problem?Grrrr...(for those who hav problem)
haiz...why m i still blushing when passing through her...why my heart is still beating so fast n i could hardly breathe...i wanna runaway, far far away n i want near, nearest that i could ever be, beside her that is..=.=(dun think wai wai)why?i thought this feeling had long gone since the day i told myself that we could nvr be n just starring at her n make her feel happy, dun feel bad..is gd enough le...
maybe love cnnt be easily forgotten...maybe love is a kind of feeling that will nvr fade away..nvr change for one person...maybe i m feeling love now... or maybe, love is a feeling that wouldn't be EASILY fade away, but i will fade away...after sometime n the 'sometime' was totally not today,maybe tomorow..maybe sean's right...wad's love anyways...who relli know love anyways....maybe this feeling is just pure like...well, wad i could say is, forever is a realli long time, till the end of time is also a very long time...so, could love face the difficulties of the rising challenge, time?i hate to admit it...but i think the answer is no.Nothing is forever in my dictionary, n i dunwan 'it' to to be forever anyways...things like friendships...yes, i would want it to be forever, but i'm not sure i gotten friendship yet)):wadeva the love means, i would like to experience it n got hold of the answer myself...just as miss siti say, u will know eventually.i'm not sure she has gotten the answers already, but she seems sure that her one was the right one.Frm her face, i could tell that her answer is love cnnt be forever..so frm my survey(frm quite mani ppl) love cn forever is veri inrealistic(i also think so)but some r also willing to believe in it((: well, that's something for us to believe in..i think that's also a gd thing, well, till the end they might get a bit disappointed IF that wasn't the answer...
ok,ENOUGH, back to TODAY. let's continue shall we((:Go to the class liaos((: mdm chong continue saying her lesson, i continue starring at her n looking the the crowds...(chaiwai stop saying)n yes, mdm chong, atikah has 'transformed' to winson..LOL=.=its a boring subject, n so easy for a change..need to pass up book tomorow(OH NO!!)):i haven even do one qns) n DAMN today bring wrong book..Grrr..i'm so DUMB)):
after the make up lesson, immediately it was npcc meeting..next monday hav npcc n i'm go shooting!!yeap!i got marksman!!((:pass by 2 marks..LOL...i hoped i dun pull the whole team down...i relli hope that way...ppl like zhenyang, shafiq, chao ying, jiaen, yinching ALL HAVE 80+/90 n me? onli 70+..how much difference was that!!??DAMN...okok back to the subject..i will be coming back after 1hr+(so fast) n had to do my logistic duty..now i know.. i'm the LOGISTIC HEAD...HEAD wor!!!i command ppl to take things(also must help them la)n just record down things that r taken...wOOHOOO cool!((:
teach meiting n sean how to do maths qns..musfirah n afif..in their own conversation? lol..i dunwanna be a gay n if suspecting who's gay, i'm the last man in ur list!!!so u r wrong firah!n i'm just joking...sry la zhenyang((:
eat at admiratly MRT station n meiting acted like first timer, taking mrt!!??LOL coz i walk up wif her to mrt station ma...n i follow up the act...hehe...there were so mani ppl, but i duncare..first time i duncare bout ppl's(strangers) view at me..gd!((: hav i changed?she said call me when she reach home...but nvr receieved her call until now leh...she gone missing??!!i think she forgot)):
last,but not least, i bit my mouth while eating...DAMN DAMN DAMN..it bleed like hell manz...haiz...nobody bothers anyways...cn filled 1/4 a cup liao leh...Grrrrrr...ARGH..
do u know why my blog song is Ni Bu Zai?
u should know now...unless u're an idoit!!!
or dunno how to listen to chinese...
cnnt play again...BORIN...still got the huge book waiting for me...if its book bout poem..i would heckcare bout this post...LOLs...
going to read the huge book now!!((:
my post is becoming longer n longer...


do i still like her??think so...
Loner signing off~

today must go for the wad wad thingy wor!!)):
the make-up lesson.i wonder...why is it even called 'make-up' lesson...just remedial cn liao lars..so ma fan..=.=
let's start((:i woke up at 5.45am(used to waking up so early)(for ur info, i dun use alarm clock)n brush my teeth n sleep again.LOL, wake up for wad?of coz sleep again lar!then wake up at 8.20.i'm late u know...need to take mrt there for like at least 15minutes n i haven pack my bag n wadeva..things like that.so i multi tasking n reach sch earlier than sean.HEHE(:
well, on my way there, i saw mr whelan...'s duplicate...first i thought is him u know!!! 0.0 then check it out n find that he is just as fat as him, wearing same brand of clothing as him,now onli i know that his always wearing the blue shirt n dark pants, is actually FASHION!!!WOOOW!!hahas.out of 100% of mr whelan, i giv him 99.99% where did the 0.01 percent go? well, he looks more like a chinese..maybe he is one!hmmm...
saw meiting n yanqin in sch...i was asking myself why m i onli talking to meiting!!??lol.sean haven come yet...until 9.01am.. where 9.00am is there time of assemble..Zzz..
bryan nvr bring my game here...teacher talking wad i also dunno then at the end of the lesson, being scolded by the class not listening the teacher(mdm chong) say wad u know?next time i wun raise my voice ar..daniel lim has given us sheets of 'tracing paper'(bryan say he no money to buy paper)wahahahs
walk all the way to cwp..how i make my way there i also dunno..just follow my heart n see where it leads to...chase lots of buses btw...LOL=.=
i felt so alone...i went to the library n borow those thick thick books...woooow..i dunno i could read that!!((:
i feel so alone until jaslyn appeared out of nowhere wif 4books full of hamsters(she keeping one maybe?)n hit me on my shoulder as she normally will...thanks..u hav been a GREAT help!!((: i thought no one will be in the library after exam...well, i was wrong...saw shikin going up to the third floor too((:
saw bernard, huiwen n clarie in cwp..omg..i catch me wif such thick books 0.0...sean came...after calling me...when to popular n, sean owed me $10 again.(:+interest $1(:
go library again....do maths hw...sean so easy also dunno...then in this lesson...i was like looking everywhere except the whiteboard-.- but when it comes to doing...i suddenly know all..not suddenly la...but did tried to use my logical skills n did quite a few check n errors...why my brain so weird de...study n had worse result..Grrrr....
talk bout ppl we r hate of...did i....nvm
today's over

i'm waiting to rot dudes!!!
haiya..just came back frm walking
nobody's there T_T

why do i feel so much guilt?
why do i feel like such a jerk?
why i suddenly wanna be a nobody n just nobody....
AHHH....i so envy of bryan(lee btw)....
why i like so envy of him....
his result so gd....
he is so quiet type de(well, that also means u r independent)
i m so dependent on sean n meiting on schoolworks....
so dependent on Genliang n Zhenyang for npcc...
so dependent on sofian for the homework...
I"M A JERK!!!!why cnt i be independent for once!!??
DAMMIT!!!
there's absolutely nth good bout me!!!
no wonder i hav no friends!!!!
at least onli a little!!!
n i dunno wad's the truth anymore...
ppl r talking ppl's badwords behind their backs...
who knows i might be one of their badwording targets!!??
haiz...wad should i do now??
u see!!i'm asking ppl again...
ARGH!!!i need to find a solution....
wad's the TRUTH!!!!i wanna know the TRUTHH!!!!

nvm bout that...
u know...o always wanna be in class 2...
i always wanna..i has always been a dream since i join 3e2...
i think of it veri cool...(ya,i'm still young)
when i m in 1e4...i always see 1e2 as my dream...
'those ppl r so cool!!!>0<
those ppl r so together...
maybe...if i mmeant if..i m in that class
maybe i wun be so alone anymore...
maybe i cn hav more friends?"
but i changes when i when to 3e2...
till then i know..it was just a class afterall
i m so childish back then..but nevertheless...
it was still a great class fill wif mani ppl's personality
n mani ppl's feelings, dreams...
n those ppl will someday bond together as one...
maybe..bonding needs time...
n if we hav more time together...
maybe...we will hav an understanding between each other n somehow bond together((:
i wished that will come true((: really!true!
mani ppl miss 2e4 last yr...(although sean dun)):)
but in actual fact...i do miss...
somethings r just not meant to be say n proved it wif action
saying is nth right?
i'm so regret that i didn do anything to bond togetherness...
but not this time!

life in 3e2 cn be quite a challenge...

n i may be too confident n say the wrong thing at a wrong time...

n life is quite bad(get beating up everyday was no shit!)

but other things r wonderful too((:

someppl r interesting((:n i meant both the open minded ones n the close minded ones...asmita n jaslyn r interesting...sofian n chaiwai is too((:

n mani mani more!!!i know they hav their friends n we r just classmates in any ways of looking at it...but at class...we r a team...we r friends/teamates n that's the whole magical thingy bout class bonding right??

hoped my wish will come true...not...i will make it come true myself xD

packs of lies...Grrrr....)):
Loner signing off...grrrr...

DAMN DAMN DAMN ANGRY!!!!
ok, he will be the sixth guy i hated most n if i hav DEATHNOTE he will be dropped dead by now.
let's start wif yesterday first.
the class cleaning was like omg...why i couldn't stop grazing at her...why i got a feeling of running away when she's near...why i m so trauma over her...why i will even cared bout her...
i was like cinderella...everyone dunwanna do...making a mess at around the bucket of water...DAMN DAMN.i just go off for a leak n also lazying around but when i came back...teacher caught her sight on me n tell me to clean the water over the bucket...THAT"S NOT CLEANING, N I"M USING A PIECE OF RAG, NOT MOP!!!everyone was SO stupid...they could undertsand wad i was even trying to do...r they idoits??someone even asking me wad m i doing...damn, they dunhav logical thinking skills.btw, my physics pass all becoz all logic,smart eh?since i dun read, dun listen, dun even know, there's onli one explaination n that's logic...those stupid idoits that failed probably dunhav any common sense(jk)
get back my results
EL-D7(u should know wad that means)
CL-B3(damn losing to huishin is no shit!)
A-maths-B3(DAMN, left onli that 0.1 mark)
E-maths-A2(Damn, left that 0.3marks)
Chem-C6(damn, left 0.5 marks)
Physics-C5
C. H.-C5
the comment say wah!display eagerness in his learning wor!(bullshits)approaches teachers when in doubt(ya but no doubt right?LOL)need to widen his circle of friend, that's for sure!((: haiz, becoz of that english, i hav no choice but to take in the last 10 position.DAMN!!!!
bout npcc, first time the name of NCO wor...now i totally LOVE logistic...like sweep the floor tidy up the room...n other squadmates standing under the sun..WOOW!!!totally cool!!((:i was like taking my time to walk n wadeva,totally not like the npcc i THINK it was..HEHE!!!
talk to mdm chong bout my result, first i saw bijie's mum n jiayi n jiayi's mum...wow..jiayi's mu was like so quiet n wadeva then bijie's wad like..hahas..talk to her n those ppl i lose to...I WILL WIN...I HATE LOSING!!!
no peggy, back to today,tt bloody ass hole bullied the poor cat...i should call him an abused!!!
well, i saw him when playing badminton...one yr didn play le...n my brother play for onli one yr...then he was like so pathetic...all my shots hit him(head legs wadeva)n he couldn't do anything to stop it...ANYTHING!!!that's when he came out...making that sickening bloody fucker's laugh...he also veri rude...coz he was too lousy...every shot he surf was totally an out...so i stay still...hands grapping my other hand. n u know wad he say i was? crazy.i heard that i almost kill him...i walk up to him(u thought run ar??)n smacked his fuckin face using the racket...he was like onli 10 yrs old n hav to chance of retailating, even if there's, i wun let him.he is still making that sickening laugh after the smack-EDafter bout 5mins, he go n bullied one cat... i was like how could he man...i stop him, pulling his oily hands(trust me, he's very fat)out of the void deck...i told him the reason, n warn him not to mess wif the cat or u r messing wif me(yea, i cnt believe i said that)n u know wad he call-ED me?idoit...that mother fucker...i was like strangling him wif my racket liaos n he was still laughing...wtf..he relli sickening to the gave manz...DAMN..walk away ler....
why would someone wanna be together wif someone?
Love n Like is like heaven n hell apart, according to their meaning to me...
like...if the person die..u cry, u sob, u heartbroken...
love...if the person die..u lost ur will of living...
somethings just cnnt be express in words

ok, i changed my blogskin....
to one of the death note AGAIN...
i'm just sick of the navigations skin n decided to try out something new...
well, the part where putting ppl to several group was totally confusing...=.=
ok, now i know that somethings must not be put up n somethings cn be put up...
is that right??
so that's difference between a dairy n a blog...
humm...somethings r just out of date n ppl forget bout it...
so things cn be forgotten!!!
someppl just dun giv up n kept on reminding everyone bout it...
everyone still laughs at it, that's for sure!
i cnnt not admit that i was this kinda ppl...
someppl wanna be one of a kind...
nth much to say...
mani new concept n way of living i had just thought n decide bout...
this will be my ideals...
signing off~

STORY OF THE YEAR LYRICS

"Until The Day I Die"

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go byI race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die too
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

fine, today was so borin....
first the omg thingy...
we r talking bout the u-know-wad n it showed gross pictures of penis n vagina...OMG
n the last part it even showed u how to put on a condom...
i was like WTF!!??then the video showed that it was a fake one...n the presenter commenting on it like wad...check if there's any hole??OMG
the recess.DAMN.
talk again, bout the thingy thingy we r gonna do the times afterwards... they say clarie name out of so so so mani..she is so 'lucky'hahas..."clarie...chua"wahhahas..then the time when they wanna pull out Elyn n mengting O.o
chemistry lab...jaslyn is so omg...want to do everything la..then let her do...hahas
NPCC!!!!ok, i'm the confirm-ed LOGISTIC...coz i'm TOO lousy n drills n other parts i guess...T_Thaiz...but they do say bout the importance in a logistic who was ME which make me feel kinda great((:Logistic, who others hav the chance to experience this??NONE!!!WOOO!LOL as if it was so great likedat...hahhas

maybe i m stupid....
maybe i m a blockhead....
its just the way i'm suppose to be
or borned to be....
i absolutely DETESTED that 2 guy!
FUCK OFF IDOITS!
the social studies we having the sri lanka thingy
the A-maths we r listening to miss KOK speaking
the Chemistry the jaslyn pour the water to my u-know-where accidentally..DAMN IT!!!she should hav look behind n handle the water wif care....thankful that its just water...not the solutions that miss siti giv me...or i dun think i will hav father day again...=.=staying away frm her frm now on((:
the recess...FUCK OFF!why i hav a sense of killing him...i actually imagining that i do an npcc drill to the fuckin him while he was lieing on the floor n his head smashed like a water meleon as all the blood spilled all over me n i was there laughing...LOUDLY...wooow...i m weird....
the english..too fast finish work...wad to do?watch video bout the seven wonders of the industrial world..bout the ppl trying to do the canal thingy through the palama then face wif mani difficulties such as diseases like yellow fever, floods n rock slide...
the physics...too bad he was not able to finish =Plent bryan lee's physics notebook=P
the npcc...wor...so mani things to do...NCOs was not a gd task afterall...i thought i was able to scold ppl...but as a logistic...i was like taking care of the stuffs in npcc room n nvr even hav the chance to SEE the juniors....DAMN..n they say it was great being a logistic...BORED U TO DEATH sia....

+Alive+
For crying out lord I'm running from a comedown
God forbid i know i've been a letdown

Reaching for the sky while leaving in a gutter
Kicking and screaming i am singing bloody murder
I'm alive when i'm vulnerable
I'm out of control, i'm losing my soul
I can't be your angel when i'm living like a devil
Can't be your lover when i'm living like a rebel
Don't want your pity and i don't want your help
Don't try and save me go take care of yourself

I'm alive!

Sick of the pain I'm sick of the sorrow
Sick of today i'm sick of tomorrow
I'm addicted to the misery in my head
I better stop before i end up dead

So i climb to the top just to fall to the bottom
And i climb to the top just to fall to the bottom


wow.that dream....
i'm a kid again.....
wif myself...
n mani others....
i dreamed that i'm not alone...
((:

Linkin Park-Runaway
Graffiti decorations

Under a sky of dust

A constant wave of tension

On top of broken trust

The lessons that you taught me

I learn were never true

Now I find myself in question(They point the finger at me again)

Guilty by association(You point the finger at me again)


I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth

Instead of wondering why

I wanna know the answers

No more lies

I wanna shut the door

And open up my mind


Paper bags and angry voices

Under a sky of dust

Another wave of tension

Has more than filled me up

All my talk of taking action

These words were never true

Now I find myself in question(They point the finger at me again)

Guilty by association(You point the finger at me again)


I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth

Instead of wondering why

I wanna know the answers

No more lies

I wanna shut the door

And open up my mind


i'm gonna run away and never say goodbye

(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)

i'm gonna run away and never wonder why

(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)

i'm gonna run away and open my mind

(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
I wanna run away

Never say goodbye

I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

i wanna run away and open up my mind
i wanna run away and open up my mind
i wanna run away and open up my mind
i wanna run away and open up my mind

inflict pain on ur butt is like a leisure to me....
i'm ur 'pain in the ass'....
in true fact....
i hated u as much as i despise u....
dun u even had brains to interpret tt wad u do was wrong?
terribly wrong....
u r gonna pay for this...
somehow or rather...
I HATE U!!!!!=X

life is just like that...who cares bout the truth n lies??they r just something that affect things from carrying out smoothly.

ok, i totally hang DEAD frm the running...the ppl there were like omg..*biting my fingers*i started to run wif all the pros..who got the first??i dunno his name leh...wad wad how..coz i heard him say to teacher that that pronounced as 'how' not 'hew', chaiwai, guanwei n ME!..i totally lost it...everyone was there..i m so...stage fright..LOL=.=ok...i was the nearest to the 'peep' sound..n that was the position i m the most comfortable wif...but DAMN..i saw chaiwai running away frm me..clearing the distance apart frm me n him...it was like so omg...then i mumbled some bad words but i just stop moving my hands as running usually do...then i turn back n look at the others...PHEW..they were still behind me AT THAT TIME...then the wad wad how...SOOOM!surpasses chaiwai...then i was like HUH;((...so early of when the race started n i was losing out...omg...making the turn...guanwei is like..wooow...i just turn my head n waved to sean n now THIS!!!ok, i wanna start running again when mengting tell me to jiayou...i actually make a good hand sign n say ty backz...i turn back n saw guanwei haven pulled out the distance i last saw him..so probably that was his fastest speed...i was laughing to myself when the crowd overwhelmed me again...omg...i saw 'someone' pointing at me...that fuckin face...then i turn towards the crowd n was like running the way to the finish line...everyone is saying that i m not serious n that wasn't my speed...i should hav took up a longer distance run so that i hav more time to be not concentrating...i relli should work on my focus...

The ppl were all laughing at me...the calisa n elizabeth ask me wad the hell i m doing...ok, i sort of like added in the hell words...redzuan n the others were all laughing AT ME!!!well, replied as just enjoying the one minute of fame...n they were like diaox...hahas..breathing heavily...running n doing anything else on the same time was relli not my fort...she came back n the fuckin face ask her whether she got see how i run or not...DAMN...

meiting was like ARGH...she run on the first three leh..but calisa n elizabeth catch up n surpass her...sean win guanwei...u know why??sean's meiting win guanwei's manting...WOOOO

yanqin was so gd...i nvr thought she would run that fast??or is the competitor too weak??coz when i running wif her in the 2.4...her speed seems normal...but her walking home speed...i SAW IT!!!DAMN SIAO...was like ZOOOMM..hahas...but the winner is still jasmine...haiz...

ok, enough talk bout sports heats...

let's talk bout things on school.get back A-maths paper...haiz...onli a B4...that means...i got 1 A2, 2 B3s,

i feel i hav living to the fullest everyday..i m not leaving anytime for me to feel sad angry or happy...i wanna lose myself..i wanna lose my soul..this is just too hard for me to bear..just play the time out of my fingering hands
haiz..added a total of 6 marks!!!but still veri low=.=
first, my english, FAILED!!!!onli got 18 marks n was like omg..the onli thing that cn console me is 32ppl fail in my class n counting..n there were no ppl above 29/50.. hehe xD
secondly, my chinese..i cnt believe that my paper 2 got like omg..added marks to be same as huishin..who is the top for paper 2..which also mean i got top in paper 2..but paper 1 pull me down..overall i onli get 67.5,same as shifu..english also same!ARGH!
thirdly, my e-maths got so low for this test u know!!!i added 3 marks in coz of the caculation n marking mistakes but this doesn't change mani things u know...got 66.66666....7hahas..so lousy=.=
forthly,my social studies..1/3 of the class failed..n i was one of them..i onli got 14/30..missed by one mark..mrs adawiyah say will go n find something to pull up my marks to pass..dunno real or not =P
fifthly, PHYSICS..i cnt believe that i do that well..but 'that' well doesn't meant 'WELL'..just a way of saying..n 31 ppl failed i was like..YES!!in my heart!!the original marks was 54..but i kinda make arrangement n become 55.5.hehe=X
sixly,CHEMISTRY!!that subject was so dead!!!i got 44.5 but added 0.5 marks to become a 45..a D7..i like it!but still veri low..14 person failed n i was one of them...SHIT!!!!
sevenly,Geography...MY THE ONLI A2!!!DAMN..but mani ppl got lesser marks than me..which made me grow marks on the top..18/30..i was like...wow, since when my geography is the lead??
right here...my failures marks i got...n wad i do to console myself??stuff everything to the bottom of my heart...in other words..I DUNCARE..i lived carefreely..so wad cn anyone do bout it??
i think i myself is boring
do u?

DEAD CELL
Born with no soul, lack of control
Cut from the mold of the anti-socia
Plug them in and turn them on
Process data, make yourself the bomb
What is your target
What is your reason
Do you have emotions, is your heart freezing
Seizing this opportunity to speak
Ya didn't say nothin but turn your fucking cheek
Dead cell
Sick in the head, living but dead, hear what I said
Learn a lesson from the almighty dread
Jah nutty warrior, nothing's scarier
Kids are getting sick like malaria
Situation get harrier, throwing up all types of barriers
I'm tellin ya the kids are getting singled out
Let me hear the dead cells shout dead cell
Stop pointing fingers cause we are the guilty
Of clean cut lines and truth that's filthy
Believe what is the root of the word
Out comes lie when it's cut into thirds
I don't belive what my eyes behold, No
I don't believe what my ears are told, No
Sezin' this opportunity to speak
I'm saying something don't turn your fucking cheek
Dead cell

ok..the blogskin is changed...
n the poem bout addicted...
i put it in though it was not pair up gd wif my blogskins...
today was a long day~~~
tough luck!failing sux!!!

damn..one offline n it deleted all the things..shit!
ya..wil be changing my blogskin soon..n anyone of this weekends..or even tomorow!!!LOL

ok, fine!i'm blogging again XD
today i came to school earlier than usual but still no enough time to finish my correction on the maths...n infact, do all the exercise there...heng mdm chong didn come..wad happen!!??LOL
ok..the adawiyah showed us the video clip which she always say..'nice hairstyle' n everybody laugh..well, it was a century old, but probably in that time, its considered 'fashion' n the video clips a pack of studens do as the indian tigers brutally in treating those on sri something..LOL..they r so lame..but based on the video effect...they were good..
since mdm chong didn come, they all hav a free time wif lao ngoh n mr roy..that old pig ngoh getinto our class, n took out the modern dance student..she was so bias.. DAMN..they wer talking bout me n fira...DAMN DAMN DAMN..should hav been shanxian or calisa but couldn't they talk when i'm not around n dun keep asking me any qns which i will reply as 'its complicated' n omg omg omg till recess sean n meiting disappeared n pop out durin the hall...
DAMN..i hate daniel lim!!!she go up to my desk n check my book..duhh, of coz all blank..wadcha want??
when i go to the 3-3 classroom as usual, they say i looking for fira?..why their attitude changed all of a sudden??perhaps when the news gone out..ppl will treat it as wuite hot topic to gossip n jisiao me..LOL n clarie ask so loud..LOLs..should hav been louder(i m not shy liao right!!??)
npcc n band is so dear frustrating...i gotta take attendance although is not much problem..someone thinking that i'm slacking...wtf..i dunhav the ability so dun CB lars...u think i wanna be useless??u think if i cn achieve bigger things i dunwanna go n achieve??u think i m a person wifout ambition??u r wrong..totally..i gotta keep track on my ideals n ambition...my mission n vision...i wanna be like u guys..so i m envy towards u all..n working hard to achieve it...
DUN CB THERE LIAO CN OR NT...i dun do then dun do la..life is full of unfairness n u will just hav to accept it..accept ur fate dude...how old r u manz..be mature a bit
u just hav to look towards things on different perspective, things will come out smoothly..this will be in my next post
today i thought band go home liao when the announcement is being made...n got home wifout sending her home..sry..a misstook..i had just made a wrong assumption..OMG
life will be better
wif u by my side
the more days to come
i hope its even better
i hope i'm not asking for much~~

ok...let's talk bout today
that shit mengting tell me to print her pic for the CME project for her...i agree to help her..but she gave me this kind of shits...
first she sent me 35 pictures n ask me to print it out...coz i'm going out later.. i say let's meet at 12.30 instead of 2pm which she mention as she wanna stay back home n eat..i tell her to go cwp n eat she say ok..i print it out..goin out..on the way.. she told me she is going to eat at home b4 coming..i was like WTF..hadn't we discuss this prooblem b4??!!perhaps she is just trying to get me out of her way..then i waded for her in cwp at about 15 minutes..when i sent her another msg that i wa frustrated liaos..she didn come..wtf...i walking round..thinking why i care so much bout her cme project dude which is like more than her...shit...i scolded her pig!!!ok..next was thepart where i go to my relative house...yea that was just busted..my mood was just busted by her fuckin face..of coz what add on was my brother's fuckin words...
ok end off~
DAMN!
even if i cnt see u
even if u cnt see me
i still hoped our heart beat together as one
n always will be

the exams r like ok this days...
dun relli concentrate on them...
but i woke up at 2am just to study...
yea, that's called last last few hours..
first paper, english was quite easy..both paper 1 n paper 2...but i still cn fail=.= paper 1 i write bout wad i also forget..its a narative anyways...coz i without fail, always choose narative..hahas...paper 2..siao liaos..got to causeway n study wif denis, chaiwai, redzuan..n talking bout stuffs so nvr study at all..go earlier..to somewhere..=X
next day, chinese paper 1 i write until so ..touching story...the story bout no. 2 n me...bless me wif gd marks!!!coz the story is true sia...,then the ss..it was so easy...i thought i will get A..coz almost all qns i know the whole passage in ss book..but then again, i saw ppl like using the pages like siao...n i onli use one page for one SBQ n SEQ..damn...tt day also gone somewhere=x
OK, THAT DAY...I TOTALLY BUSTED IT!!!I FORGOT TO STUDY GEOGRAPHY N MY MIND WAS LIKE BLANK...DAMN..I GO TO SCHOOL EVEN IT HAVEN OPEN..N MANI PPL SAW ME..I WAS LIKE WTF!WAD R U STARRING AT??!!BUT I GOT MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO WORRY BOUT NOW!!!THE CHINESE TEST PAPER 2...HUMPH..QUITE MANAGEABLE..BARELY CNT FINISH THE PAPER..COZ I LOOK AT THE WRONG TIME N THOUGHT TT IT NEEDED TO HAND IN BUT 10!!BUT ACTUALLY 10.30!!!LOLs..STUPID ME..DUHH...SLEEP THERE LIAOS...AHAHAHS.THE GEOGRAPHY PAPER..I CNT BELIEVE MY EYES THAT I LOOK AT THIS QNS AS IF I M FRIENDS WIF THEM..ALL RUSHES INTO MY MIND AS I WRITE DOWN THE ANSWER UNTIL THE LAST QNS..WHICH IS 8MARKS, THE FEELING DISAPPEAR..WTH..
7/5/2007,
the maths test...i wanna say its as easy as shit...then i say the opposite..prepared to be slaughter by chaiwai
8/5/2007,
the chemistry test...was as difficult as shit..,i wanna kill that F-U-C-K-E-D mrs whelan...this is the first time..i studied but i think i failed...DAMN
9/5/2007,
the maths test was also easy as shit except some qns...damn...the physics test.. they were forcing me to kill them all sia...n the MT listening compre..duhh..tt faithful day..i got the most amount of sms n msn at the same time...stead onli wad.. fira~~~LOL=.=
10/5/2007
my last test!!!damn difficult..i woke up at two n sms her..she didn reply after 3sms..relli as dead as a log...LOL..she called me unprepared...she wanna wake the whole family up ar??heng i was like falling down frm the chair n run to the phone..she taught me a lot...ty..wifout u..the log qns i defintely dunno how to do de...but i m still gonna fail or get a b3?lols..A1 i think its immpossible.hais go out wif sean, meiting n fira..not to mention sean's freaky laugh when i reach the 3rd floor..damn..the news get out like bats flying out frm hell...go sunplaza..n things likedat...sry..too sleepy le...cnt send her home that day..zzz
11/5/2007
no need to go to school so go out wif her n met LOTS of ppl there...damn..SENT her home...lol
12/5/2007, which is today..go out wif her again..n this time wif 3-3s playing interclass basketball practice..n yes..i m a spy..hehe...i also play..third time playing...shoot 40+ balls, n 10+ got in...dunno why sey..when sending her home..those guys say mr n mrs YU LOLs..wth..she's a malay..how cn she hav a surname?? even IF she's married?? i dunno, heard frm mediacorp...LOL..buy 1.5litres of water...
today's a great day..for playing..
n tomorow will be even better
right guys!(follow hamtaro 1..cnt believe i actually watch that)

so its true then...
so its not a lie then...
but still dunno why shafiq cn talk i meant sms to calisa for so long
so mani things to talk bout???
wahhahas
make it through the fall
make it through it all

today go causeway n sunplaza after A-maths test...
it was fun but then...i feel so sleepy after seeing that book at the popular in sun plaza...it was bout poems...how they could actually think about that??so gd sia... so feeling n meaningful.someday i m going to be just as gd as they r!sry i onli remember the feeling, forgot the words liaos..lols
confession...
actually hor...
i m veri envy of u all leh...
i envy shifu so being so interesting
shanxian too...
i envy meiting for speaking up n not afraid to be herself..
eg.meiting clearly show that she go toilet study de...i too...but i didn tell them n instead laugh at meiting but actually i m laughing bout me, n only me.
i envy sean as he knows so mani things n had so mani things to talk about...
i envy fira as she live a carefree lifestyle n frm her tone i know she's a heckcare person...
i envy asmita for maintaining her cheerfulness all the time.
i envy bernard for his ma ren de zhao shu
i envy shafiq for having so mani contacts
i envy genliang for having so gd relation wif friends...
i envy zhenyang for his lameness
i envy jaslyn for she acting like a kid
i envy mengting for beating ppl up for no reason
i envy EVERYBODY!!!!
THE TRUTH IS I JEALOUS OF EVERYBODY...
i m a gd for nth jerk n the mother fuckin asshole in the school
i had nth to be proud of n i m not even an average kid...
i hate myself!!!DAMN.
u took away my soul
i hav no soul

today go causeway n sunplaza after A-maths test...
it was fun but then...i feel so sleepy after seeing that book at the popular in sun plaza...it was bout poems...how they could actually think about that??so gd sia... so feeling n meaningful.someday i m going to be just as gd as they r!sry i onli remember the feeling, forgot the words liaos..lols
confession...
actually hor...
i m veri envy of u all leh...
i envy shifu so being so interesting
shanxian too...
i envy meiting for speaking up n not afraid to be herself..
eg.meiting clearly show that she go toilet study de...i too...but i didn tell them n instead laugh at meiting but actually i m laughing bout me, n only me.
i envy sean as he knows so mani things n had so mani things to talk about...
i envy fira as she live a carefree lifestyle n frm her tone i know she's a heckcare person...
i envy asmita for maintaining her cheerfulness all the time.
i envy bernard for his ma ren de zhao shu
i envy shafiq for having so mani contacts
i envy genliang for having so gd relation wif friends...
i envy zhenyang for his lameness
i envy jaslyn for she acting like a kid
i envy mengting for beating ppl up for no reason
i envy EVERYBODY!!!!
THE TRUTH IS I JEALOUS OF EVERYBODY...
i m a gd for nth jerk n the mother fuckin asshole in the school
i had nth to be proud of n i m not even an average kid...
i hate myself!!!DAMN.
u took away my soul
i hav no soul

mrs whelan is no.2 daniel lim is no.1
shit,hate what the two teachers is talking n both scolded her!!!i veri ji chou de... dunno why leh, same as my dao zhai techiques
killed them!!!husband n wife
maybe if they were husband n wife, they might know their own personality which make them so hateful.I LIVED FOR THAT DAY TO COME!!!!
next post will be bout my confession,dunno why feeling gulity all over again.no like i hav gulity concious or wad!!!
the chem paper i totallt busted it><
buai guys!

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