AFTER SCHOOL i got that extra training which i didn bring any uniform there at all n being scolded by the CIs...they kns..i just detention by mr lim only then he wad...i just talk back n they duncare...our swuad needs to talk again..the hottest topic in npcc...hahas
do u find my blog bit strange??coz i see other ppl's blog..they just let the pic talk...talking bout today...i still group wif 2 girls..why i always bei hei guo..mengting n agnes..onli group that has 3 ppl but although 3 heads..still no brains..hehes
Mt got the chen yu thingy..n we r suppose to find something...
PE!!!!I REALISED SOMETHING...although sean tell me to ren ming..but i still hav faith...now there's just a little tiny bit of chance i cn GET OUT OF TAF N I M GOING TO..u better believe it man..
chemistry hw was damn easy...but its still not feeling good seeing they doing experiments wif each other...i jealous??!!NO WAY
the english remedia(was it spell that way??) is quite good i supposed..n the speech day training..i was like a lost soul after school...i colourless world...damn it!!

too tired to post bout today..wait to 2mrrow ba...

ok..i m so sry so those fuckin word i say but the teacher is to fuckin for me to say the other words...
basically..that was wad i did in the class...but wad i did outside leh..hehe...first..i told sean n meiting how fuckin this teacher is n sean however...dare to say but dun dare to voice out... lan..
then eat lunch wif sean n meiting later called by mengting to go outside the library to meet mdm chong..if i wan..n i did..then coz too bored..i walk away again..see meiting once i step out..she go modern dance uh...at third floor doing her homework...too bored n gone again..but this time back to the same old class...hateful daniel...
saw fiona huishin zhenyang yanxiang n junchao..why r they there...then zhenyang ask me to look infront...wakao..u think i blind ar??then they go n change...meanwhile..huimin ame as well n jus things got out of my hand...my ruyi disk is ruin by those freakos...being laughed at again but dun worryshe was the one doing all the talking...lols.
the speech they rehersal is slack..i WANA SLEEP...
after that run 5bustops..i encourage he others to run..but they dunwan...haiz..got the same bus as them though..i run fast leh...actually..running cn help me forget all the unhappiness..that's why i like running frm that day onwards...that day is...the day...nvm...
i wan to talk like zhenyang..i like to read his post..lame but meaningful...creative..couldn't believe my eys that he was in band3...dun worry..i will naturally be like u...watch ur back!!!

today go for the CIP...xl is there
saw minbin working hand in hand wif natalie...later walk home alone...haiz...why i m always alone..nobody cares...deep inside mii heart...cn anyone understand??cn ME, MYSELF.. understand??

today's np...
i first time using si jiu si the attitue...die, die lor...to go there...the f****daniel ask mii to stay back lahz...didn do hw onli maz...haiz...come late for np la..then they say i didn eat...i say i had already eaten but no one believe me...me i that hard to trust???ok so maybe i m, a little..volunteer for most of the commands..use wad i learn in choir to here...then they say'nonono'=.= .always cnt do the command...i made the squadmates stand in homat position for so long...i m so sry..but i relli did tried mii best!!the speech day rehersal is quite gd..but see hanlin there i fa luan..haiz...he wan fight wif shifu..but shifu say i cn take...but hanlin say wan to take on shifu..but shifu wan sleep!!??ouhh its bout the belts sparring..hope shifu win...but hanlin seems pretty confident he could take five at the same time!!??hahas..speech day...not looking forward to it...btw..m i or m i not a quiet boy??hehes...haiz..contribute 2 mii homework wif npcc's homework...damn!!


today's debate...(not school one)
night...go to fuchun sec..they tell us tohav a debate competition..sec3..frm other school also got one other frm woodlands ring...sec3..but i dunno his name sia...however..somebody chose me... it should hav been teacher choose wan..but a lot of boys...onli 2girls we hav 2 make groups of 3.. n they chose me..the teacher say...'u are so friendly...n they say wan u to join..u join la..' my mouth was like...n i was like....haiz...but we lose..the other 2 doesn't dare to voice out n u noe mii..of coz i voice out..but..i was like huh?wad the heck m i or he is saying? hahas


the feeling is back again..just wait for it to go away...btw..class blog created...

as u cn see mii tagbox is flooded so sry if u cnt see the replies...
yesterday the post is about...to sky sir
tomorrow is npcc ar...dunno wad we r going to do tomorrow..are we still being teached?or r we about the teach?=.=
today...the napfa dun went too well for me...as i was just talking there all the way..that was me right??heard sean that he dunwan to pass anything...suits him too...btw..bout mdm sili say in the book..i rmb it all in mii mind...so i just hav to type it of..sry if i made any mistakes
positive:very positive(means looking on the positive side las)like to see u smile but u seems to hav to goals in npcc(there goes the negative)
negative:do not hav a goal n aim in the unit..u cn do anything thing in the squad..anything small such as making laughter or happiness to the squad...most of it..do contribute...jia yous..dun giv up..u r my cadet..(n bla blas=))
now i dun seem positive right?so that means i dun hav any positive side left right...=.=...i m so dead...i couldn't become an NCO...seems i was the only one who failed...=.=

nth happen today..by i noe how zhenyang is feeling when he sees his tagbox
to sir jun jie:WRS npcc..is nth more but a CCA...no matter how much u hate it or wad..this is reality..wad ppl saay is saying to our CCA...not as our squad...ppl make comments on the CCA.. not on our squads...n i m a loner...do u noe wad loner means??loner means he only do things alone...n i had been like that in pri 1...ask if u dun believe me...so wad CCA's job is??learn to be more discipline n stuffs...but wad is the meaning of discipline actually??the debate competition..do u noe how happy i m when they say out things that i wana so much to say but just cnt make out the words??the passion...is the most important n basic...if u dunhav that..there's actually no reason for u to go there now...i m not like zhenyang...i believe n hav faith in wad i think is right n i tend to protect mii belief...although that doesn't seems right to anyone else..but i just cnt see it...n believe in it stupidly...so i m sorry if i said anything wrong n sorry for disappointing u n making u angry....scold mii wadeva u wan..as nothing will gets into my mind by scoldiing..n ppl tend to change..ppl will change..the phrase i said in the story of egg, coffee powder n carrots...ppl will change...i hate it too..but that's the way humans does...i dun giv a damn on NCOs thing sorry for being straight..coz if i m not being straight..u all will not be able to grasp wad i mean...everyone just say it all out at mii blog kays??any unhappiness...any thing u dun understand...any stupid beliefs like mine...everyone..just say...n sir jun jie..u listen i giv us the answer...giv us the passion back again...coz i think if everyone faced each other...u wun be able to say much...i PERSONALLy feel that..n i think we should...we SHOULD..say things out without looking face to face..as we tend to get scared or nervous...that makes things done much faster n get sorted out much faster...i still got lots of questions..but let me think bout how to ask...how to make out the words...after everytraining..a the end of mii entry..i will post one question..n everyone's free to tag!!
i m going through something i didn feel before...sry if i dun pay attention or always emotional..

YES!!!mii 102 posts!!!!hehes..so mani wor...let's start wif today results...i totally busted it!!!hahas...it feel good....the A1s are gd...but lack of Bs...haiz...okok..today carried fiona's bag down the stairs..as the cleaner is going to lock the door...i cnt believe...why all of them r so mean...they duncare n jus took it out n even do a pratical joke...but being persuaded by me..the pratical joke plan failed...thanks to the cleaner too..shanxain carries huishin bag. i think so..*slap*punch*pound* ,nvm....erm...they came n took back la...i also dunno how they got that information...then watch the debate...too bad we forfeit...but 3-4 WIN!!!!HURRAY!!!hahas...3-1 also win..but not mii problem...in that bus..the stupid $2 flew out of mii pocketr n dunno who go n took it...onli $2 wad...i heck cares...=DD
btw...today got miiself double counter by mengting n shifu...such a good partner...of coz i lose...haiz...onli 5days to go...

I m going to follow zhenyang...challenge me if u wan..winners just only had to be ONE..Jia En..i m not gonna let u see us killing one another to put it that way...guess we are borned to be foes..but i wun admit lose...i will become the most emotional just to make things fair...hahas..jkjk..just copying zhenyang's challenge note..hey i do not bad right!!!.to zhenyang...i really want u to lead...maybe there's isn't anyone better than u le..u r one of the lamest person i ever seen..but u r the best zhenyang ever...u r the coolest.. although i support liang liang..i will be happy if u get the post of chairperson too guess our squad just dun hav the bond...guess u cnt feel it...but u will be able to change it..cuz u r ZHENYANG!!!jia yous
today..
i see jaslyn cried...dunno wad happen i dunno how to help...haiz..then the mdm chong volunteered mii to take books..all thanks to that mengting..thanks a lot!!=(the english..all failed...by 1mark..SHIT!!!!i forgot the format or getting a 18 wun not be so difficult liao..dunwan to go home..talk wif james..help jaslyn carry her water...n cheer her up...then in the bus..saw yun kwang n gina...tough luck..hahas..jkjk..
first day in NCO camp...i dunwana go..then mdm chong called me...then i go...lols....but come there very suai leh...i was in that bus...waiting to be skinned alive, repriminded by my squadmates, NCOs, CIs, even mii own form teacher...but as winson, as an npcc cadet, as a student in WRS, as an ex- student in siling, as an ex em3, as a child of yu tiong seng n chan goot cheng(mii father n mother), as a bigger brother, as a mature teen, as a loner, as a human, as an earthling, as woodlands stayer, as a going-to-be ssingaporean, as an ex-malaysian, as an immigrant, as a passerby, as a friend of sean, meiting, musfira......., as an example, as someone who doesn't fear, as someone who noes fen sheng shu, as a copyrighter, as a criminal, as her...i brought up mii courage n step into the school....before i actually step inside i saw nerissa...as i step inside...i saw kai..as i peep inside, i saw mii squatmates, as i walk inside, i saw fu yuan, walking towards me...on the blink of an eye, fuyuan had changed into mdm sili...bout shafiq...best of luck for him...they(squatmates)saw my book(snoopy)n they laugh...how dare they laugh at...Grrr....looking at my hand...thinking liao...Mission impossible..i was at the back..cnt fa hui..hahas..the next time got our legs tied...wif junxiang n nuraini..but EVENTUALLY, we made it...lecture in PT..the pic was funny xDActual PT was slack...maggie mee...59sec cooked..hehe...gd..yumm...lecture again...saying something bout being a leader...i duncare..the games r lame..the centipide is lame...trying to get onto sir keeyong's legs...mission impossible..
centery duty at 3am...drank loots of milo..sang ting mama de hua...PT again..liang liang PT Ic!!then...with our sweaty body, our trustworthy schoolshoes, our PE T shirt, our long track pants, we change to half u n do the stupid...lameo...DRILLS wif our hot n stuffy clothings...while teaching sec 1s...we spilt into groups.. wif zhenyang n chao ying...i could be very emotional hor..but they think i m funny??lunch..i eat half of zhenyang's third packet + miine myself..lecture again...jail scene...wor...JIA en beat me in emotionality competition..by her funny comedy=)...we are told to think of a new obstacles...haunted house!!!chaoyang's hair...liang liang's sleepwalk n my errie laughter...i think mine is the most scarest..hehe...
last day...thinking of her in the night..thinking of u..asking zhenyang whether he got think bout piggie or not...asking yanxiang got thin bout'her' or not...but they say not...haiz...i dunno wad came to me as i become the PT Ic..zhao hong too...but she did a better job..of coz...the test on drills..i WAS seriously..but i realised..when i was serious..i dun do anything correct...too bad...the compass sir sky taught us...had already been taught...i n zhenyang lost...sry zhenyang..i noe u wan to win genliang...so sry...the barbercue..i dun say things much...ya..btw..jia en become joker again..i wonder why she entertain everyone but i dun feel like that's entertaining??the BBQ..a loner will just step aside..

i noe where is wrong le...actually..i changed the name liao..but if u type deepdarknessmaze..it will still show up!!nvm...that day..i mean tues day...
shi fu treated mii roti prata wif eggs..=Dthen sean came to school wif a spectancles that makes him looked..more 'sean'
the computer lab was the first stop...shi fu make me sit on the cpom beside him..it was really unfortunate..relli unfortunate..as beside mii was the 2 gals...jkjk..she say why she didn msg mii back le...not talking to me directly...n the instructor is so...making mii wanting to talk back to he...he locked the keyboards...haizbut so wat? i still cn use...then they 2 laugh...lols...the spoting the difference...i failed badly...the worse ones...the wad seeing the box..i passes greatly...yeah!!.. i m always not good at spoting the difference...tough luck...i gottalose to most of them in the end...wif the 2 combine scores...those score losers(of coz on the second activity)say they want to beat me up or sacastic remarks...that wat my class is like...that wad make them strong...coz they wana win..they dunwana lose...
the finding all the stuffs i got 7!!!lent frm ppl de lahz..of coz
recess...play game wif yanxiang n luqman..
thefibis game is boring...but how come they r so excited for it???mii eyes were fixed on hers...waited for the fibis to come to mii hand..n it came..for 2 times...
the quiz...easy dao xiao de lorhh..make byran lee laugh until..frm saying..the father will raped the daughters n the mother will raped the sons if they r together in the funni way
meiting n shifu's fight...the pic i upload it someother day
i walked home le..i hated miiself...i always takes things for granted even though i conatantly reminder myself not to...i know of her importance wheni loses her....i nforgot it once i gain it again
haiz...will she forgive me..
btw the dag still barks at mii
she is still hitting me...
got a feeling that everyone's hitting mii
Lonergoner

the first start of the day...i realise i dunhav long pants n uniform for school...haiz...i fan the whole house...n found liao...but woke all mii family up....hehe..next..i got myself hanging wif a dog at 3rd floor...it turned n stared at me..like i offended it likedat...it sniffed at mii foot n barked at me..its too small..so cnt bite me..hahas..n it think i m scared of dogs??the dog relli think that?? coz i stand there n use a devil stare...it take a step back n keep on barking..hahas..but the owner came la..n esort it away..saying it bad dog??
well...the details i wun talk bout it..just to say that..wheni saw her bag..while during pushing up... i hate myself more than like..ever...those who saw mii at the 'obstacles course' pls tell mii wad was i like..i siow there le
after school..saw yanxiang..then suddenly rmb must pass up e-maths yellow book..so quickly go back n ask for mengting's book...on the way saw gina, yunkwang,n huimin..n huimin say she is talking to her...then ask mii whther i wana talk..lols...n then, i saw samuel, who click mii hand..i m actually suprise that he still rmb mii..say bye to sophie n suphie..wahahas...james bond's no. n bye to jaslyn n asmita(by a funny shaking of hands)..then saw her..dunno wad XL say to her...but i couldn't be good... i go causyway afterwards...saw meiting while at the gate n kelvin, shunxiang..n lao da's peng yous taking MRT...go to admiralty n saw mengting, nerissa,guanwei, n mani mani more...chai wai n him playing yu-gi-oh again, i also wana play...but didn bring mii deck..hehe..saw the hanlin(now then rmb his name is gao hanlin)n talk to him, of coz talk bout our height..no need to say...n mengting too...the source of our conversation you mei you...he is the rumoured bf of mengting ma...n he say mengting dun dare to beat him...dunno how he die 2morrow las...hahas..anyways..i miss the MRT door by just a step manz...i hate the sound..'doors closing..beebeebee'i hate it i hate it...n i dramatise there...all the ppl in the mrt looked at me..hahas
at causyway point, saw chaoying n her friends at first n while picking out the stuffs of books n a book store...i again saw yunkwang, gina, n huimin...what..yun kwang 1 ge bao liang ge ar??hahas..anyways..i go comic connection n saw chao yings group again, saw some birthday cards... n rmb 2morow is jie's birthday...she i going to kill mii for sure coz i didn buy maz...in the end i also didn buy!!wahahas SRY JIE..then going back still see yunkwng they all...just heard yunkwang n gina stead...haiz...must update myself lahz!!!
after tt go siling pri bustop, thinking...thinking...until mengting suddenly appeared n tell mii to giv her XL's hp, n i get her hp..lols..go buy cai liao then go home cook!!!

ouhh...sry..i just noe that..other ppl had problem as well...seondary sch life is interesting i think... i get in touch wif smoke-rs...become bad...become good again when times come by...become sad...become not confidence...become happy....
learning new thing..whether it is bad or good...i think i discover a new feeling in mii heart...that's also good...although it brings much pain n sufferings...
well...also gaining new friends...new shi fus....new meis...new jies...new di...n no kors la...new enemies too...new kind of hurts being inflicted...either physically or mentally....learn ice skating(i wonder that was call learning)learned stunts that can do wif mii hand..learn bout this blogger thingy...learn more bout miiself...be more sensible after u done something wrong, that's wad called learning frm our mistakes right?...
more jokes being cracked...more logical sense in maths...more english vocab...social studies governmance knowledge..learn the feeling of like n dislikes(ai hen fen ming)read more books(CSI,The divide)more animes being watch-ed...the feeling of having a gf?...bring about joy n concern between two schools...
Loner sense of thinking has-d widen over time....i m becoming friends wif enemies...becoming friends between mii friends enemies n mii...the friendship thingy...friends forever?dun think so...but willing to try anyways...kept in mii heart all sorts of negative things...n saying out wiad u relli feeling to ppl... although some ppl think of it as joke? but i think its meaningful...
the secoondary school life is interesting ...hope i cn keep this memories wif mii forever..that would be nice..as time wait for no man...n females too!we just having to keep going...(huo xia qu)true courage man..jiayous..i noe everybody could do it..live wif no regrets...always think bout wad u cn do to everyone..no wad u should do when its over...
btw..why almost everyone is using chuan shu tian shi de ge in their blog???n I DUNWANA BE XIUYI!!!!!always think of stuffs...lalalas..but his soccering skills r good!hehe...
ston signing off....
how many days left i wun say le....

mii eyes r so red..i think i cried?but why i cried!!??i hav no idea!!!too bad...ppl think i m stupid..fan ren...haiz...trying to change...everythings changing...the thingy but boy girl...stead..n blahs blahs is tearing mii apart!!!dun ask mii why...this had become the 'rules' in mii blog...like then like las...why they make so much of a fuss for anyways?? n the stead thingy...hehe...lols...not mii las...but hor...nvm...poem of the day!!!!got to show it to u all soon...soon...i promised...

today...the sec1s are so excited bout winning...they r competetive..like mii...they run here n there...wana be the first...but tooo bad they dunhav the brains..to anlyze the game...they were so...stupid..hehes...n i feel like a total jerk...psycho...today...dunask me why coz i hated miiself for that...she onli...omg...n the chinese teacher tell us to be lame...siowie...she is so dead...javin is so mature...n so mani chinese letters dunno how to write anyways..the PE is damn slack...the sec1s n sec2..dudes n chicks...no babes...were concentrate on winning..n i think i win the most special team n group ic award...basically just to noe they names..bonmd wif them...n make them discpline...n wad the heck they chose mii i also dunno...a nice day of coz...lols...the feelings...hehes..n the guanwei...laugh at that girly twine...make him laugh even louder when i pretend femine...hahas...the days r still long...i DUNWAN TO BE LIKE XIUYI AT THE SHOW!! i wan quan...lols...xiuyi also good la...psycho...OMG...

today..i run behind her again...nobody cheer for mii...but i cheer for everybody...xian diao... Elyn at the back..trying to catch up wif mii by walking...that yan qin say cnt run n run liao..hahas...i walk all the walk...seeing her back view was good...when i last saw her...during 500m station.. i dun feeling like running anymore...although i still cn run...i walk all the way...that mdm chong...like that also cnt catch up...took a bus n got home wif sab sean n shikin...i m still the last stop...wad kind of loner i m???i cheer for everybody..including sec4...whom i dunno...hahas... nice run...i noe i failed...but still talk soo much at the bus...hahas...the teacher seems like asking mii' r u relli running?'hahas...no...i m cheering ppl up...strange leh...still got ppl lose to miii...ahhas..they lan las...KNS...the student just tear it out from mii t-shirt...i thought wad sia...ahahs...like they wana bao chou or wad...the first 100m..i run las...ahahs...gotta ask genliang whether 2morrow got npcc maz...i prayed dun hav...n it better BE!!!!hahas...end here
ston signing off....or winz..wadeva las...

today...sad sad day for mii too
mii called a joker during english....
n everything i said or typed today were just too wrong...
i mean...that's not i would be typing...
n i being bullied again...
SRGH...should hav killed that guy...
when i m bigger than him..i will...
damn it...
why m i so small size...
damn damn damn!!!!
show some respect kays???!!!