OMG!!!!it is either i m crazy or i'm madly in love...almost in everyday...she appeared on my dream...n speaking to me like always before....so i nvr ever forget bout her before ain't i?it has been so long...so long since i had a dream that as always, appeared right infront on my very eyes..the REALITY, FOR TONS OF MONTHS....n i think this dream isn't going to come true neither...maybe i wouldn't even lived to see it happen..situation is like so bad until i think i cnnt be salvage..wad is gone is gone...just live with no regrets...let's talk bout today..i online at 2am while no one is onlining..except james which did nothing but just online...nvr reply somemore...aiya, xi guan jiu hao..msg Elyn, which seems like she's asleep as well,realised someone giv me a gdnight message..thanks ya!meiting called me so early in the morning...just to ask me wear what to school...why dun ask her precious btw?LOLzthen today..NPCC all gather there liaos...when i realise I'M LATE!!!DAMMIT!!nvr polish boots, nvr season berri n just dash out of my house...the UG ppl r there already...everyone looked as prepared except for methe gong gong one derre...mdm chong come jun chao faster run...waliao i sore throat leh..morning sickness mahx...later larry say the command...n yes, we were sortta forget bout it liao...marching in...i m very afraid,but also very excited n elated...couldn't help myself but to laugh...i hav no fear of the crowds...the thing i fear most...is myself n her...i dunwan to show the pathetic face of mine towards her...i dunwan her to feel remorse or wadeva...i want her to feel the feeling we hav like last time...things aren't too bad after all...i still whisper...That's for sure!my confidence is slowing picking up on me..NO PROBLEM AR!!!hahasthen was the "concert"first was the bay ambassadors...saw her but then...my eyes..just look at her all time round...she was amazing...much much better than whoever that's at the stage...i m totally memerise..BUT WHY did they PUT her in the BACK??middle back somemore...i almost cnnt see her...pls larh...not like she very tall like that know...the others i duncare...ELDDS maybe a little...i mean...why that could get the champion?if i act how?n there were people MUCH MUCH BETTER than me...which means to say that there were like 100 maybe?better than theirs...all joined different CCA?cnnt be wad...nvm...then she moved out again..for the stand up for singapore?when the songs goes all the way to stand up...everyone jump...she also jump...i m still recalling her action...nvm later u all say i pervert how..then follow shifu to causeway..Ms Low nvr treat me...BIASED!...why shifu cn i cnnt?i dunsee how shifu help leh?then why she nvr tall me to help?almost forgot...
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thanks for all ur support!!(=
i relli sincerely ty
=.=i still...things weren't the same...but my feelings nvr change..just like the situation...it will nvr EVER change.
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