when i read zhenyang's post i wonder,he say it was not the first time, n feel numb or a resistance to it....so it wasn't forever afterall right?Or that was just feeling of like? wad's the difference between like n love anyways...=.=i still dunhav the answer n dunno what i should do as i dunhav a clue the solution of the problem is... so it wasn't forever afterall....things will change.... erm,let me see...when did i tell her she was beautiful?Grrr..she think of it as a joke...i'm laughing at her perhaps...but it was true ok...so it started frm then... hmmm...i had been thinking bout this for a very very long while...probably becoz redzuan post a qns to me that they 'hav u send her home?'Grrrr...i got the disk she gave me here....i still keep it..suprisingly...it was bout the group project...but the other group members,but i do it..suprisingly too...so she handed me the diskette...wad was it bout anyways..cnnt seem to recall..n my com dunhav powerpoint...cnnt open the file too)):yea..i was walking to near her home..that's how i know roughly where she lives(u think wad..follow her home is it?i m not pyscho mind u)...i dunno where she even lives then la...just follow her pace la...n if u know me....i normally will walk at the back of u all de..this time was no exception=.=also dunno how i got to the subject anyways...i dunno why nobody's wif her anyways..but i did say that she's beautiful didn't i??the images seems blury to me now...but i cn still see the expression frm her face...maybe we r still friends that time u know.... but wad bout now??haiz...talk to her is so much of a hardwork...wif so mani ppl rugging in somehow...n frm that day onwards...her attitude towards me does change....we r like strangers..why??we nvr even say hello to each other...u call that normal? i admit, my attitude towards her did also change n i think she felt that too...becoz..that time...just after the 'situation'...one day after...i everybody, anybody started to gossip bout it liaos...i dunno where the information got loose..but heard frm someone that it's she who say it out herself...so she want ppl to know that?i cn tell the world world if that's wad she wants...i just dun understand...someppl say they wanna keep it in low profile but later on they say out to the whole world...wad do they actually WANT anyways? ppl r so confusing...cn't they be straightforward...i cn do anything or everything for her if she ask me to, but why dun she say so herself? ok, ppl's expression is filled wif curiousity n excitment...dunno why they filled that way too...i was giving out the paper at that time...coz its end of the yr...n papers should be cleared from the shelf...when i pass the paper to her...normally, i will still play on her as nobody else would...but instead, i stand there like an idoit waiting for someone there to notice me...come to think of it...i nvr called her name after that...but when the results r out n we r going to see which classes we go to...i waited in school...dunno for who but just wait(true!)she also come, after a veri veri long time...i tried to get to their conversation but she onli replied me one word...that's a 'ya lor!' frm her expression i know she was trying to be as natural as ever...DAMN..i shouldn't hav make the sentence....maybe that was the last...i thought...)): the most beautiful smile on her angel face i know we cnnt be back like before.... things r nvr the same again.... i hoped zhenyang's case could be an exception REALLY! I'm Alone Again~ Loner's backz
