today, Atikah snatched my seat....Grrrr....most importantly, i cnnt open the DVD disk bryan send me...becoz i dunhav the programme...Grrr... ok, things started out when i copy yanqin's homework...she still laugh at my jokes that's for sure...n bijie...she's not feeling well??talking to girls again..any problem?Grrrr...(for those who hav problem) haiz...why m i still blushing when passing through her...why my heart is still beating so fast n i could hardly breathe...i wanna runaway, far far away n i want near, nearest that i could ever be, beside her that is..=.=(dun think wai wai)why?i thought this feeling had long gone since the day i told myself that we could nvr be n just starring at her n make her feel happy, dun feel bad..is gd enough le... maybe love cnnt be easily forgotten...maybe love is a kind of feeling that will nvr fade away..nvr change for one person...maybe i m feeling love now... or maybe, love is a feeling that wouldn't be EASILY fade away, but i will fade away...after sometime n the 'sometime' was totally not today,maybe tomorow..maybe sean's right...wad's love anyways...who relli know love anyways....maybe this feeling is just pure like...well, wad i could say is, forever is a realli long time, till the end of time is also a very long time...so, could love face the difficulties of the rising challenge, time?i hate to admit it...but i think the answer is no.Nothing is forever in my dictionary, n i dunwan 'it' to to be forever anyways...things like friendships...yes, i would want it to be forever, but i'm not sure i gotten friendship yet)):wadeva the love means, i would like to experience it n got hold of the answer myself...just as miss siti say, u will know eventually.i'm not sure she has gotten the answers already, but she seems sure that her one was the right one.Frm her face, i could tell that her answer is love cnnt be forever..so frm my survey(frm quite mani ppl) love cn forever is veri inrealistic(i also think so)but some r also willing to believe in it((: well, that's something for us to believe in..i think that's also a gd thing, well, till the end they might get a bit disappointed IF that wasn't the answer... ok,ENOUGH, back to TODAY. let's continue shall we((:Go to the class liaos((: mdm chong continue saying her lesson, i continue starring at her n looking the the crowds...(chaiwai stop saying)n yes, mdm chong, atikah has 'transformed' to winson..LOL=.=its a boring subject, n so easy for a change..need to pass up book tomorow(OH NO!!)):i haven even do one qns) n DAMN today bring wrong book..Grrr..i'm so DUMB)): after the make up lesson, immediately it was npcc meeting..next monday hav npcc n i'm go shooting!!yeap!i got marksman!!((:pass by 2 marks..LOL...i hoped i dun pull the whole team down...i relli hope that way...ppl like zhenyang, shafiq, chao ying, jiaen, yinching ALL HAVE 80+/90 n me? onli 70+..how much difference was that!!??DAMN...okok back to the subject..i will be coming back after 1hr+(so fast) n had to do my logistic duty..now i know.. i'm the LOGISTIC HEAD...HEAD wor!!!i command ppl to take things(also must help them la)n just record down things that r taken...wOOHOOO cool!((: teach meiting n sean how to do maths qns..musfirah n afif..in their own conversation? lol..i dunwanna be a gay n if suspecting who's gay, i'm the last man in ur list!!!so u r wrong firah!n i'm just joking...sry la zhenyang((: eat at admiratly MRT station n meiting acted like first timer, taking mrt!!??LOL coz i walk up wif her to mrt station ma...n i follow up the act...hehe...there were so mani ppl, but i duncare..first time i duncare bout ppl's(strangers) view at me..gd!((: hav i changed?she said call me when she reach home...but nvr receieved her call until now leh...she gone missing??!!i think she forgot)): last,but not least, i bit my mouth while eating...DAMN DAMN DAMN..it bleed like hell manz...haiz...nobody bothers anyways...cn filled 1/4 a cup liao leh...Grrrrrr...ARGH.. do u know why my blog song is Ni Bu Zai? u should know now...unless u're an idoit!!! or dunno how to listen to chinese... cnnt play again...BORIN...still got the huge book waiting for me...if its book bout poem..i would heckcare bout this post...LOLs... going to read the huge book now!!((: my post is becoming longer n longer...
do i still like her??think so... Loner signing off~
